It's amazing when one door closes, what will open next and in short order.
It's amazing who gracefully reaches out to lift others when it is deeply needed ( kneaded .. but read it that way too and think about Manna From Heaven) , not that it's never deeply needed, either, though.
I stepped through the threshold of the most amazing time in my fantasy life, and back into the Black corridoor that leads to Justice.
It's a long hard difficult and arduous task to try to be a good citizen and when you have to get sucked in to murder investigations and speaking to District Attorney's offices, again, now 7 years later... Well that's as specific is that can get and stems from me recording a confession of murder.
I heard the confession once, I acted drunk a second occasion and with the beer in my hand recorded the second confession, and because I just can't stand a murderer.
I deeply value life !
My first memory is in airplane crash and not long after that my father being in Vietnam and being injured and somehow through the family members I knew that he may not ever come home again. We didn't know what happened exactly that is. It was bad enough to get a pretty important phone call with a fragment of news. News is not as instant as social media and don't ever forget that. We make poor decisions when we have only partial information. If I want to build a Performance Racing Engine one day or any efficient machine or any business I must architect or follow a decent plan. Part of that plan is having parts and you must have all of those parts, again think about an engine. We have an output we have a goal we have a desire and we have waste. We are moving through this exponential time this exponentially row as General Keith Alexander recently stated in a speech attended live after meeting him, naturally riding upon my father's coattails as I don't feel Worthy.
My biggest problem in life is only me. That's a whole different story and I take it part by part and carefully but it seems there's times where it can certainly speed up and slow down in time frames and right now I'm on rewind.
I don't know what is going to unfold from here forward but I do know that the lessons of my life have told me to stand strong and most of all to be good to myself. Not perfect to myself just better to myself. treat myself even better than I treated myself yesterday and learn to love myself a little more so then in turn I will have the love that will attract the love that should be reciprocal as it's okay to be expected.
It's okay to be expected but it's not okay to set yourself up upon those expectations to Then Fall flat on your face and crushed you self.
Life is short and I value life in my understanding is somebody else's life was taken from them and I don't know if anything above makes sense or if any of this is in order but I know that if I am asked to stand up for another who's valuable life was taken and who now has no voice then that is the right thing to do because I know it seems certain that most murderers seem to murder again if given the chance as there are an amazing amount of multiple murders which is something that would be an entirely different class than a Serial murderer for example. It might be a new chapter of the science of law enforcement to study the data sets that are available today because what we have today is more revealing than ever.
In a digital aspect we get to rewind the clock, something we can't do in real time. We get to Look Backwards at the wake somebody has left and the trail there and Everywhere it leads to and there is great scrutiny, and at the great time of this great scrutiny there is more data then in all of recorded history digitally speaking only, recorded in the year 2017 than there had been in the totality previously, unless I misunderstood something, as I'm app to do in my typical Day Dreaming kind of way when my mind explodes with fireworks when I listen to another something hard to shut off.
Life is full of vivid pictures and is one heck of an adventure and I need strength because it seems like the weaker I get the more I have to stand up and the more I age the more work there is to do and by value life. I'm not perfect but I also value others lives.
You can think what you want of me and I really do appreciate the kind thoughts and of the other thoughts it matters not. The emotional hurt in life is the hurt I place upon myself when I let it keep me from the better things in life, as I have been asked to let it do. There's also scientific proof that there's great health in proper rest and I have been one that has been known to sleep too much, and although yes I sleep when I can because I feel like I've never ever been healthy, rest is restorative as is love and friendship and family and is an important component and factor of life.
I don't know where I'm going from here but I know I have a lot to do and some wonderful things just ahead for certain and some beautiful people I will see and that will carry me.
You are your own best insulator against evil and still we will experience things, events, in life that are powerful in motivating and I am just amazed at this threshold I have to step through right now.
Often when we need the most strength and support from others so borrowed through the friendship and love that they share we can be easily shut down and turned inward, this turning others out and it's then when you must reach down the deepest and step up the strongest to receive the others love because everybody has beautiful lives and is busy and we have to meet others somewhere about halfway typically.
This threshold sucks but I already feel a thousand times stronger than I did yesterday. Not 10 times a thousand times but that doesn't mean it's easy it's just another threshold and experience is the finest teacher and I know for myself Justice is important.
I'm not even sure at this point there was a murder but this person is an unsavory person and that's been proven in federal court in a criminal case against the former Chief of Police of Washington, Pennsylvania.
You can trust me if I say something I'm going to back it up with evidence that's irrefutable. You can trust me if there's a trail, I as a decent human being and going to follow that trail if I think there's a shred of proof that something absolutely heinous to life and other people has happened.
I am blessed through all of you and I am blessed to be able to stand at all and I am blessed to be able to stand up, and today I am so very deeply appreciative of life. Off I go with my dogs to do whatever it is I do and best of all see a lot of my friends. Can you imagine if somebody else took that for you and other people knew about it and didn't stand up? Imagine that. Life is deeply valuable and each of us matter to others in great ways and just stay strong and communicate and reach out and try to do the next right thing and please speak up for those that can't.
What would it be like if somebody else Stole Your Vessel and you didn't get to enjoy this upcoming weekend?