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Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Broke Down - Lyric / Poetry - MobiusTripz

When I was a baby girl...

I sought your approval from my first breath,
I tried to measure up to every test,
All I desired was for you to be proud so I did my best,
You let me down for ages I must confess.

And so as a teen...

I sought approval from other people less  the guides you should have been,
Not realizing so naive that others often to get whats desired pretend,
Now I'm doing all kinds of crazy acts trying to get your attention for me please help defend,
The little baby girl with simply seeking your approval ... That's all I ever wanted and for none of this to ever end.

Chorus:

Can you hear me screaming and crying,
I needed your approval long before,
instead you left me hurting and dying,
my heart and soul broken on the floor.

Now I am a Mom and I'm really trying...
And sometimes I feel forgotten and Aline and crying,
But these little eyes with live and wide open mouths to feed that we me,
That live me and think of me unconditionally and live me and my kids they bleed me,
How were you all so very blind to see my needs Luke my children see in me?

I need my parents in my heart with me.

I need to know how much they cared like I have exactly for my own,
I question this when I need to know it's solid more then stone,
Can you all just once tell me how well I did,
And how much you have always and forever every moment loved me?...

Tired of living in doubt a fortune teller or mind-reader not am I !!!

I misunderstood your real intent and what you said that day you were mad at me,
But I know you said you wished I had departed during that bout i had with drugs,
And you know what ???... not all kids respond well to tough love,
Many often turn and run and live a life as a whore with thugs.

You nearly drove me there!... I was sick and you were hateful and wicked when I needed you the most.

Chorus:

Can you hear me screaming and crying,
I needed your approval long before,
instead you left me hurting and dying,
my heart and soul broken on the floor.

My children answered the pleas of my wants I needed from you each,
you all are the best parents and not friends but examples from above,
and my youthful teen rebellion still boiling over, begs forgiveness everyday,
I am only sorry you left before I ever had these words to say...

I loved you each so incredibly so.

My children are exactly somehow what you wished of me,
We had zero doctors in the family now my girls make that three!

Thanks Mom and Dad - I know you were just hurt and scared and maybe ill prepared.

You'd be so proud and I will share more with you as I enjoy this picnic by your sides,
At your graves I share the things I wished I shared when you were alive.

I pray others never make that mistake.
Share life with others now before it's far too late.