Record in Gold:
lest ye forget
the music
and word
OUCH A BROKEN BACK HURTS ALL THE TIME. etc., etc, and so on, etc. blah blah wah wah wah
VS.
STAY IN THE MUSIC AND WORDS...peeeeeeaaaaaacccccccccceeeeeeeeeeeeee
Is everyone sworn in ?
Record your whispering thoughts,
Be they musical, philosophical or sweetly whimsical,
As the mind does slip with time,
And read later you may and be perplexed with words so
inspired,
you think you know not or from where they come.
my mind has started slipping
slipping time
as time slips
its slipping
a little here
and there
Pain on the skeletal system,
Strips the energy of the soul,
fucking broken back hurts so bad 24/7,
The power of the engine,
the body weaker,
Then the mind is stressed,
always sharp at the moment,
However in continual overdrive constantly,
Knowing a body is dying quick.
heart hurts and cant keep its own rhythm any more
and gout, oh sweet gout
sometimes i get to hit the dirt knees first
no warning that i am even about to jump
i must have joined the paratroopers
spinal cord so compressed paraplegic
in the blink of an eye
then i am up again
walking
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
and sleep why
but i need it
or sleep and die
a balance hard to restore
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
and my heart ripped out once again
thrown across the floor
out the door
but you will hurt me nevermore
in fist a cuffs
thats not love
and no excuse to strike
thats not love
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
twas love
i poured from all my fiber
all the strength i had left
you gave me
i struggle on
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
signal to heart cut short
no matter through love loss and
spinal cord compression both
grip the throat a little more
you feel it all day long
and just relax
now breathe
can you?
or are the lights getting turned off again
never know, never know
toughest battle yet
character?
how deep?
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
and the axillary biposy
left right arm nerve damage
fingers always numb
cannot feel pick in hand
and the golf ball they removed from under my arm,
is growing once again
left hand numb too
i never could play music
but rather now listen to instrument screaming
no feeling where I touch
now i finally just begin to play
and stop i cannot
i am finally right where i always wanted to be
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
So pen hits paper,
Strings twang notes,
Words and emotion of musical revelry,
My spirit stays afloat,
It’s all I have,
With friends and family,
For all else is surely lost
and in the meantime forever changed.
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
music helps stay afloat, music helps stay afloat
music helps stay afloat
a little longer
and longer
another beautiful day of life
for if i await another moment
a song or thought may not be set free
to dance on resonating musical waves
time i will waste no more
until heavens door
until that golden door
my time finally thankful for
I see the ship will sink,
and it is sinking fast.
I was certified for S.C.U.B.A at sixteen,
A wreck diver I may finally be at last, my early dream
Never once thinking in my youth of my final voyage,
ever
closer now
is me
is ok
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
Maybe I revel on for 10 or 20 more,
Or maybe hang around for 3,
Really does not matter in the bigger picture,
This world makes so plain to see.
pitiful greed
too much misery
10 or 20 what ?
and 3?
years did you read
not written
Forget too often,
Makes you forget more,
question your own mental stanity and sability,
did i read that write, or left perhaps, left me look once more, right?
where am I, i am lost, am i lost
slipping on things once so easily retrieved,
oh yeah,
forgot,
I am 43
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
maybe we all feel this way,
however I do not know,
but if I do not share it like most,
it’s just got no where to go.
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
And I am tired of all the pain,
And I just want to live my dreams,
I was living my dreams and they all just left,
a few weeks ago, honestly
This silly house of cards,
we all architects
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
SO FOCUS SON
no matter I am always thankful,
for the moment that is now,
feeling better already,
mind a little more,
settled down some how
words
magical musical melodious marvelous
moments
are words
are song
twang diddy twang twang . . twang twang!
now quit your bumming out !
remember now, live now, be now
at peace always
as it was at first
always this voyage through time
stronger healing now
don't walk
run,
my precious son
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
I am healed in an instant
Faith so sweet,
size of mustard seed moving mountains,
my body cannot keep me down,
pass the French's please,
I'd like more then just a seed.
Thankful to be free
how oh how?
sweet so sweet,
lord you are
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