Takosubto Syndrome Death August 12, 2018.
CPR & Defribrillator & Revival overall fails.
I lay dead on the emergency room bed.
I choose life (very consciously) and begin to speak after death...to the witnesses shock and amazement. As I was dead and I believe only two people were left in my room (emergency room ?).
Who wouldn't be a bit traumatized ???
20 + years of terror is kind of just calming down with this pacemaker. I have felt for decades like a tuning fork that was slammed against a concrete floor at a million miles per hour. I'm finally starting to be the me I remember and hoped some of my newer friends would finally get to meet. I don't know how anybody has tolerated me for the last decade. I'm far more than any handful. Now it's time to make up for lost time and I'm just very thankful that I am accepting of this pacemaker which for most people in my pacemaker support group, well even if they've had it a few years there mostly still freaked out. maybe the first coherence thing I said to anybody at the hospital was telling the doctor, I told you I needed a pacemaker and of course this was one of my cardiologists. That's when I woke up with all kinds of wonderful instruments hooked up to myself and well I knew I wasn't getting out of bed anytime soon when they told me just go ahead and pee LOL and then I said well I didn't look at my chest did you have to crack me open or not? I felt CPR and I just didn't want to look anymore so I knew at least well CPR and thank God only that but it was really not only that it was far more than that...
You can't even begin to understand the trauma I have experienced and that I'm just going to let it fade away like all the other tragedy in my life... I've watched tragedy like this kill many others and I'm still choosing life, like always... I choose to not stay centered in the tragedy and let it follow me but let it stay in the past just like when I was molested or just like when I saw a plane crash for my first memory or just like well whatever... that's life !!!
Here's what I can tell you...
What they say about Faith of just a mustard seed is no joke... but I tell now... please have much greater Faith than that little mere teeny tiny miniscule amount... don't be scared to have all of the Faith in the world within you so that you know that you can stand up and rise to life again through His Spirit !
I did !!!
I rose (started first speaking... I knew I would shock anyone listening (I think only two people still in the room and I think I was shocked three times (defribrillated) but I'm not sure since I was technically dead !!!) from death and witnessed it !
I had a choice and chose to come back after the fight I lost (CPR) and breaking my neck down the steps !!! .. all for love I can only dream about, and that perfect plutonic love I've only ever known once, pure as my Mother's love,... well, it saved me.
I was allowed to step back in town this body or choose to depart, and I only knew greatness was ahead either way, but here on Earth, I'd suffer even more but not in a way i once did either...as now I know of it's complete unimportance in fact as far as controlling me. I fear no death, no satan God and I outrun, nothing!
I'm free more than any man on the face of this earth today !
