Friday, July 17, 2026

“The Decade of the Great Fraud”

“The Decade of the Great Fraud”

John Swygert
July 17, 2026

I saw an advertisement the other day for an app that promises to “humanize” writing produced by artificial intelligence.

Think about that for a moment.

First, you ask an AI to write something for you. Then you feed that writing into another program so it can disguise the fact that an AI wrote it. The second machine deliberately adds enough human irregularity, personality, awkwardness, and imperfection to make the first machine’s work appear authentic.

Artificial intelligence writes it.

Artificial intelligence falsifies its origin.

A human takes credit.

Welcome to “The Decade of the Great Fraud.”

I am publishing that expression today, July 17, 2026, because I have a strong feeling we are going to hear some version of it repeatedly in the years ahead. When it starts appearing everywhere, this post will at least establish when I publicly used it.

This does not mean artificial intelligence itself is fraudulent. AI can be an extraordinary tool. I use it constantly. It can help people organize their thoughts, improve their writing, research ideas, develop inventions, analyze problems, and express things they may not otherwise be able to communicate clearly.

The fraud begins when the tool is deliberately concealed and the manufactured result is presented as proof of someone’s personal effort, ability, sincerity, knowledge, or character.

There is something wonderfully ridiculous about using a machine to write your words and then paying another machine to make those words look less machine-made.

That is not merely editing.

That is counterfeit authenticity.

We are entering an era in which nearly everything can be generated, filtered, rewritten, staged, enhanced, corrected, and optimized before another human being sees it.

Photographs no longer necessarily show what was standing in front of the camera.

Videos no longer necessarily show something that happened.

Voices no longer necessarily belong to the people speaking.

Reviews may not come from customers.

Followers may not be people.

Messages may not have been written by the sender.

Songs may not have been performed by the named artist.

Applicants may not possess the skills demonstrated in their applications.

Students may not understand the papers submitted under their names.

Politicians may not have spoken the words that appear beneath their faces.

Companies may use artificial friendliness to apologize for problems created by automated systems designed to prevent customers from reaching a real person.

Everybody is presenting evidence of humanity while steadily removing the human from the process.

That is why “The Decade of the Great Fraud” fits.

The fraud is not always a total lie. That would almost be easier to recognize. The modern fraud is often something real that has been altered just enough to create a false impression.

A real face with a synthetic body.

A real opinion rewritten by a machine.

A real photograph with the inconvenient people removed.

A real accomplishment exaggerated by artificial presentation.

A real person represented by a carefully engineered digital character who is happier, wealthier, smarter, younger, more attractive, more successful, and far less confused than the person operating the account.

The lie is increasingly found not in the object itself, but in what we are encouraged to believe about how it was created.

That distinction matters.

There is nothing dishonest about saying, “I used AI to help organize and improve this.”

There is something dishonest about commanding a machine to create the work, running that work through another machine specifically designed to conceal its origin, and then presenting the result as an untouched demonstration of your own ability.

The advertisement that inspired this piece essentially said:

Let artificial intelligence write everything for you.

Then let us make it look as though it did not.

That is hilarious.

It is also a perfect symbol of the age.

We have spent years teaching machines to imitate people. We are now teaching machines to imitate the imperfections that prove a person was involved.

Soon the misplaced comma may be artificial.

The awkward sentence may be strategically inserted.

The unnecessary repetition may be generated to establish credibility.

The misspelled word may be a premium feature.

Perhaps the most advanced AI writing service will eventually advertise:

Now with 37% more believable human mistakes.

The strange part is that genuine human expression has never been perfect. People repeat themselves. They wander. They contradict themselves. They use unusual phrases. They become emotional. They say something brilliant beside something clumsy. Their writing contains fingerprints.

Those fingerprints are now being studied, copied, packaged, and sold back to us as authenticity.

I have seen language spread before. Years ago, I used the term “cord cutter” on my blog to describe someone who stopped subscribing to traditional television and used devices such as Roku instead. The post was widely read. Months later, I began seeing “cord cutter” everywhere.

I also remember saying and writing “cray cray” as an abbreviation of “crazy crazy” before I heard everyone else using it. Could I prove that I originated either expression? Probably not. Trying too hard to prove you invented “cray cray” would make you sound completely cray cray.

Language moves through society in strange ways. Someone says something. Someone else remembers it without remembering where it came from. It gets repeated, altered, and absorbed until it seems as though it always existed.

That is part of the fun of publishing an expression such as “The Decade of the Great Fraud.” The timestamp remains even if the origin eventually disappears.

And the phrase is not meant to suggest that every person has suddenly become malicious. Most people are simply trying to survive inside systems that reward appearances more than reality.

Schools reward completed assignments.

Employers reward polished résumés.

Social media rewards attention.

Politics rewards emotional reaction.

Advertising rewards persuasion.

Algorithms reward engagement.

Very few of these systems stop to ask whether the thing being rewarded is authentic.

So people learn to manufacture the evidence that the system demands.

Then the system becomes filled with fabricated evidence and begins making decisions based upon it.

That is where the joke becomes dangerous.

When fraud becomes easy enough, inexpensive enough, and socially acceptable enough, truth must work harder merely to prove that it exists.

The honest photograph needs verification.

The genuine voice needs authentication.

The original writer must somehow prove authorship.

The real victim must compete with fabricated evidence.

The qualified applicant must compete against machine-created résumés.

The truthful person begins to sound suspicious simply because everyone has become accustomed to polished deception.

We may eventually reach the absurd point where the most believable proof that something was created by a human is that it is imperfect, emotional, slightly disorganized, and occasionally says “fuck” for no strategically optimized reason.

Perhaps humanity’s final watermark will be the refusal to sound like a corporate mannequin.

Artificial intelligence will help create extraordinary things during this decade. It will also help create extraordinary quantities of nonsense, manipulation, impersonation, counterfeit expertise, artificial intimacy, and manufactured sincerity.

The technology is not automatically the fraud.

The fraud is pretending that the technology was not used.

The fraud is replacing reality and continuing to label the replacement as real.

The fraud is selling artificial humanity to people who have been trained to distrust actual human imperfection.

So here it is, published and timestamped:

The 2020s may ultimately be remembered as “The Decade of the Great Fraud”—the period when humanity gained the power to manufacture nearly every form of evidence and then acted surprised when nobody knew what to believe.

THE LONG-BREATH AIR CLEANER: An Open-Source Hybrid Inertial, Wet-Stage, and Final-Filter System for Pet Hair, Household Dust, and Wildfire Smoke

THE LONG-BREATH AIR CLEANER:

An Open-Source Hybrid Inertial, Wet-Stage, and Final-Filter System for Pet Hair, Household Dust, and Wildfire Smoke

John Swygert
July 17, 2026

Abstract

Conventional residential air cleaners generally force all airborne contamination directly into disposable filter media. This approach can work well for fine particles, but it becomes inefficient and expensive in homes containing dogs, cats, birds, substantial household dust, or other sources of heavy particulate loading. Hair, feathers, lint, coarse dust, and dander rapidly cover the filter surface, increase resistance to airflow, reduce clean-air delivery, and require frequent cleaning or replacement. During wildfire-smoke events, the same filter must simultaneously confront both an abnormal fine-particle burden and the ordinary contamination already present inside the home.

This paper proposes the Long-Breath Air Cleaner, an open-source, multistage residential air-cleaning system inspired partly by the oil-bath air cleaners once used in automobiles such as the Volkswagen Beetle. Instead of asking one disposable filter to capture everything, incoming air is processed sequentially according to particle behavior. A washable hair screen removes the largest debris. A high-velocity inertial chamber forces the air through an abrupt directional change, causing heavier particles to resist the turn and enter a removable collection sump. An optional water-wetted impact surface or coarse contact medium captures additional dust without deliberately producing a fine mist. A droplet separator then prevents water carryover. Only after these stages does the air reach a deep, replaceable MERV 13 or HEPA-class final filter responsible for smoke and other fine particles.

The objective is not to eliminate high-efficiency filtration. It is to prevent expensive fine filtration from being prematurely clogged by material that could have been separated, washed away, or collected mechanically. The design is intended to maintain useful airflow for substantially longer periods, reduce filter consumption, simplify cleaning, and provide a practical air cleaner for pet-filled, dusty, and smoke-affected homes. All housing geometry, components, test results, and design revisions should be released openly so that individuals, schools, nonprofit organizations, manufacturers, and emergency-response groups can build and improve the system.

1. Introduction

On July 17, 2026, Cumberland, Maryland, was visibly affected by transported wildfire smoke. The sky was hazy, and the smell of burning wood was noticeable despite the fires being hundreds of miles away. Smoke from Canadian and northern Minnesota wildfires had spread across large portions of the Midwest, Northeast, and Mid-Atlantic. National Weather Service alerts in nearby Pennsylvania described very unhealthy particle pollution and reduced visibility caused by smoke from Canada and northern Minnesota.

For the author, this was only the second personally remembered event in which distant wildfire smoke so clearly altered the air in Western Maryland. Both events occurred within the comparatively recent past. Whether such episodes occur every year or only intermittently, the experience reveals an important weakness in ordinary residential air-cleaning equipment: most homes are poorly prepared for a sudden, prolonged, and unusually heavy particle burden.

Wildfire smoke presents a particularly difficult filtration problem because much of its health-relevant material consists of fine particulate matter. PM2.5 refers to particles with aerodynamic diameters of 2.5 micrometers or less. These particles can penetrate deeply into the lungs, and some may pass into the bloodstream. AirNow identifies PM2.5 as the principal pollutant of public-health concern in wildfire smoke.

A high-efficiency filter is therefore necessary when the objective includes wildfire-smoke removal. However, a home air cleaner rarely encounters smoke alone. It also encounters pet hair, bird feathers and powder, fabric fibers, lint, skin flakes, pollen, tracked-in soil, ordinary household dust, and larger fragments of dander. These larger contaminants can cover a fine filter before much of the filter’s depth has been productively used.

The central argument of this paper is straightforward:

A fine filter should not be required to function simultaneously as a pet-hair catcher, dust bin, lint screen, smoke filter, and final polishing stage.

The air stream should first be separated into manageable contamination classes. Large and heavy material should be intercepted, redirected, settled, or washed out before the remaining air reaches the final high-efficiency filter.

This sequencing would allow the air cleaner to breathe longer before airflow becomes restricted.

2. The Limitations of Conventional Residential Air Cleaners

Most portable residential air cleaners use a fan to pull room air through one or more layers of fibrous media. A basic unit may include a coarse prefilter followed by a HEPA or HEPA-like filter. More expensive units may add activated carbon, electronic sensors, ionization, ultraviolet components, or automated fan control.

The fundamental mechanical-filter relationship can be expressed as:

Clean Air Delivery Rate = Airflow × Particle-Removal Efficiency

Or:

CADR = Q × η

where:

CADR is clean air delivery rate,
Q is the volume of air moved through the machine, and
η is the fraction of targeted particles removed during each pass.

A highly efficient filter is not useful if clogging reduces airflow to a small fraction of its original value. Likewise, a powerful fan does not provide clean air if much of the contamination passes through the system.

As dust accumulates on a filter, the resistance across the filter generally increases. The fan must either work harder, move less air, or both. Many inexpensive air cleaners do not directly measure this changing resistance. They instead illuminate a filter-change light after a preset number of hours, regardless of whether the filter is nearly clean or heavily obstructed.

This arrangement is especially unsuitable for homes containing multiple animals. A conventional filter may quickly develop a visible blanket of hair and coarse debris. The owner may vacuum the surface repeatedly, but vacuuming does not necessarily remove contamination embedded inside the filter. Repeated handling may also damage the media or release captured material back into the room.

The United States Environmental Protection Agency recommends MERV 13 or higher filtration when compatible with the system and notes that high-efficiency portable air cleaners can reduce indoor particle levels. EPA wildfire guidance also emphasizes selecting equipment with sufficient smoke clean-air delivery for the room being treated.

The Long-Breath Air Cleaner accepts that guidance while addressing a different question:

How can the service life and sustained airflow of the final filter be improved under unusually dirty residential conditions?

3. Historical Inspiration: The Oil-Bath Air Cleaner

Older engines sometimes used oil-bath air cleaners rather than relying exclusively on disposable paper elements. Incoming air entered a housing, accelerated toward an oil reservoir, and underwent a sharp directional change before continuing toward the engine.

Air can change direction rapidly because its mass is distributed and it follows the pressure-controlled route through the housing. A particle suspended in that air possesses inertia. The larger and denser the particle, the more strongly it tends to continue along its existing path when the surrounding air abruptly turns.

If the geometry is arranged correctly, the air turns while a portion of the suspended contamination continues downward and strikes an oil-wetted surface or enters the liquid reservoir. The oil retains the deposited material rather than allowing it to be immediately re-entrained.

The proposed residential system does not copy the historical automotive cleaner literally. An engine air intake differs from a household environment in airflow, acceptable pressure loss, maintenance conditions, fire considerations, exposure time, and particle-size requirements. The old design nevertheless provides a valuable principle:

Do not depend entirely on a porous barrier. Manipulate the route of the moving air so that contamination is physically encouraged to leave it.

This is an application of boundary-controlled separation. The housing determines which route the air can follow. Particles that cannot follow that route with equal agility are directed toward a different destination.

4. Design Objective

The Long-Breath Air Cleaner is intended to achieve six primary objectives.

First, it should remove pet hair, feathers, lint, and coarse debris before those materials reach the final filter.

Second, it should remove a meaningful portion of ordinary household dust through inertial separation and washable collection.

Third, it should preserve a MERV 13 or HEPA-class final stage for PM2.5, smoke, fine dander, and other small particles that cannot be reliably removed by inertia alone.

Fourth, it should maintain useful airflow longer than an otherwise comparable single-filter machine operating in the same environment.

Fifth, routine maintenance should concentrate contamination in components that can be removed, emptied, rinsed, or inexpensively replaced.

Sixth, the design should be released as an open-source system built from accessible materials, standard filter dimensions, commonly available fans, replaceable pumps where used, and printable or locally fabricated parts.

The device is not proposed as a medical appliance, industrial scrubber, or substitute for source control. Its intended role is high-volume residential particle reduction in difficult environments.

5. Proposed System Architecture

The proposed air path consists of seven principal stages:

Protective intake → washable hair screen → inertial drop chamber → wet collection stage → mist eliminator → final high-efficiency filter → sealed blower and clean-air outlet

Each stage performs a limited and clearly defined function.

5.1 Large-Area Protective Intake

The exterior intake should be substantially larger than the fan opening. A large intake area lowers face velocity, reduces noise, and makes it less likely that the machine will pull lightweight household objects tightly against the grille.

The grille spacing should prevent contact with internal moving parts and protect pets, children, feathers, curtains, and loose materials. Because the machine is intended for homes with animals, it should remain stable even if nudged or leaned against.

A removable intake panel would permit rapid inspection without disassembling the main housing.

5.2 Washable Hair and Feather Screen

The first active stage should be a washable metal, polymer, or durable fabric screen. Its purpose is not fine filtration. It is a mechanical barrier for:

  • dog and cat hair,
  • bird feathers,
  • bird powder agglomerates,
  • lint,
  • cobweb fragments,
  • large fibers,
  • paper fragments, and
  • other easily visible debris.

The screen should have generous surface area so that captured hair does not immediately block airflow. It could be shaped as a shallow V, cylinder, rotating drum, pleated panel, or angled screen.

The simplest prototype would use a rigid, removable panel that can be vacuumed or rinsed. A more advanced version could use a slowly rotating screen with a stationary comb that directs accumulated hair into a removable drawer.

5.3 Inertial Acceleration and Drop Chamber

After passing through the screen, the air enters a narrowing channel that increases its velocity. It is then directed downward toward an impact region and forced through an abrupt 90-degree or 180-degree change in direction.

The objective is not simply to place a right-angle duct in the housing. The turn must be intentionally designed so that:

  1. the air reaches sufficient velocity before the turn;
  2. the particle trajectory points toward a collection surface;
  3. the collection surface prevents easy rebound;
  4. the airflow leaving the chamber does not sweep the collected material back into suspension; and
  5. pressure loss remains acceptable.

A downward-facing impact plate could be positioned immediately above a shallow water sump. The air would approach the plate, turn laterally or upward, and continue toward the next stage. Heavier particles would strike the plate or continue into the sump.

The chamber should widen after the turn. This reduces air velocity and gives separated particles less opportunity to become re-entrained.

Multiple parallel inertial channels could be used instead of one large chamber. Parallel channels would allow a higher local separation velocity while preserving overall airflow.

5.4 Water Collection Sump

The initial household version should use water rather than oil.

Water is the most commonly used collection liquid in wet particulate scrubbers. In wet scrubbing, particles are transferred from a gas stream into a liquid. Collection performance depends on the intensity of contact between the air, particles, and liquid.

Oil was practical in an engine cleaner because the device was enclosed within an automotive maintenance system and handled a comparatively limited volume of intake air. An indoor residential machine operates continuously around people and animals. Oil introduces avoidable concerns involving odor, residue, mist, difficult cleaning, disposal, material compatibility, and combustibility.

Oil and water should not be combined. A two-liquid sump would complicate cleaning, create separate contamination layers, and provide little clear advantage.

The sump should therefore contain plain water unless controlled testing establishes a safe and necessary alternative. Fragrances, essential oils, bleach, detergents, and improvised chemical additives should not be introduced into the air path.

The water reservoir should be:

  • shallow enough to resist dangerous splashing,
  • deep enough to retain deposited material,
  • removable without opening the electrical compartment,
  • smooth inside with few inaccessible corners,
  • fitted with a secure handle or drain,
  • visibly inspectable,
  • protected by a water-level sensor, and
  • positioned below all energized components.

The sump would collect dirt as sludge rather than allowing the same material to remain distributed throughout a fibrous filter. The dirty water could be poured through a disposable catch screen before disposal, preventing hair and large solids from entering plumbing.

5.5 Optional Wetted Contact Surface

A passive right-angle separator will be most effective on relatively large particles. Fine particles, including much of wildfire smoke, can follow the air stream through the turn.

To increase capture without constructing a high-energy industrial scrubber, an enhanced version could include a slowly wetted coarse medium after the inertial chamber. Water could flow downward over a vertical mesh, structured plastic packing, ribbed plate, or open-cell washable material while air moves across or through it.

The purpose would be to create wet surfaces for particle impaction without atomizing water into a cloud of fine droplets.

A small, low-voltage pump could recirculate water from the sump. The pump should be removable, inexpensive, and protected by a screen. The water path should be broad enough that ordinary household dust does not immediately clog a small nozzle.

Two versions should therefore be developed:

Passive version: no pump, using only inertial impact, settling, and a wet collection surface.

Enhanced version: low-flow pump supplying a wetted plate or coarse contact medium.

The passive version would be quieter, simpler, cheaper, and easier to clean. The enhanced version could remove more intermediate-sized dust but would require additional maintenance.

5.6 Mist Eliminator

Any air cleaner containing water must prevent liquid droplets from being discharged into the room or carried into the final filter.

After the wet stage, the air should pass through a mist eliminator consisting of one or more washable baffles, curved vanes, or coarse knitted mesh layers. The air would change direction again, causing droplets to strike the surfaces, combine, and drain back into the sump.

The mist eliminator should not be confused with the final particle filter. It is designed principally to remove entrained water.

The design target should be no visible droplet carryover, no wetting of the final filter, and no meaningful increase in room humidity attributable to the device under normal operation.

5.7 Final High-Efficiency Filter

The final stage remains essential.

A deep pleated MERV 13 filter could be used in the lower-cost configuration. A sealed HEPA cartridge could be offered where greater fine-particle efficiency is required. EPA recommends MERV 13 or higher filtration when the equipment can accommodate it, and properly sized HEPA portable air cleaners are recommended for reducing wildfire-smoke particles indoors.

The filter should use a common, nonproprietary size. Owners should not be forced to buy a unique cartridge available from only one manufacturer.

A four-inch or similarly deep pleated filter would ordinarily provide more surface area and lower resistance than a thin one-inch panel of equivalent face dimensions. EPA research on do-it-yourself smoke cleaners has similarly found performance benefits from thicker or multiple filters compared with a basic single thin-filter arrangement.

The final filter should be gasketed around its entire perimeter. Air leakage around the filter would defeat the purpose of the high-efficiency stage.

6. Fan Placement and Airflow Control

The main blower should be positioned after the particle-separation, mist-removal, and final-filter stages.

This arrangement keeps most of the contaminated housing under negative pressure. If a small seam develops, room air tends to leak inward rather than allowing dirty internal air to escape outward.

The blower should be a backward-curved centrifugal or mixed-flow design capable of maintaining airflow across a moderate pressure range. A basic axial box fan may be suitable for early dry prototypes, but a complete wet-stage system will probably require a blower with greater static-pressure capability.

The motor and electrical controls must remain physically separated from the sump. The machine should include:

  • ground-fault protection,
  • tip detection,
  • leak detection,
  • automatic shutdown for excessive water level,
  • automatic shutdown if the mist separator is absent,
  • thermal protection,
  • a sealed electrical compartment, and
  • no exposed energized component beneath a possible water path.

Fan speed should be adjustable. A quiet continuous mode would provide steady background cleaning, while a high-output mode could be used during active smoke events, cleaning, cooking, visible dust generation, or periods of elevated indoor PM2.5.

7. Pressure Monitoring Instead of Guesswork

A filter-change timer does not know how dirty the filter actually is.

The Long-Breath Air Cleaner should measure the pressure difference across the final filter. A simple analog gauge could be used in the least expensive version. A digital sensor could provide a filter-condition display in an advanced version.

The system should record:

  • airflow,
  • pressure drop across the washable stages,
  • pressure drop across the final filter,
  • fan speed,
  • PM2.5 upstream,
  • PM2.5 downstream,
  • water level,
  • sump-service time, and
  • humidity near the outlet.

This would allow the user to distinguish several different conditions.

A blocked hair screen would produce resistance before the inertial chamber. A saturated mist eliminator would create resistance before the final filter. A loaded final filter would produce an increasing pressure difference specifically across that filter. A water leak or abnormal outlet humidity would trigger a shutdown rather than being discovered after damage occurred.

The filter would therefore be replaced according to actual performance rather than an arbitrary calendar.

8. Particle-Size Sequencing

The proposed system does not assume that one method captures all particle sizes equally.

Large hair and fibers are best removed by an open, washable screen.

Coarse dust and heavy particles are appropriate targets for inertial impact, gravity-assisted separation, and wet collection.

Intermediate particles may be captured by impaction on wetted surfaces and by the final filter.

Fine wildfire-smoke particles require high-efficiency filtration and sufficient repeated air circulation through the room.

The EPA reports that wet scrubbers can achieve high collection efficiency, but performance depends strongly on energy input and the degree of contact between the contaminated air and the liquid. High-efficiency industrial scrubbers may use substantial velocity and pressure drop that would be undesirable in a quiet residential machine.

The Long-Breath Air Cleaner therefore does not claim that a shallow water bath alone can remove PM2.5 effectively. Its wet and inertial stages are principally load-reduction stages. The final high-efficiency filter remains responsible for the smallest particles.

This distinction is essential. A visually impressive amount of sludge in the reservoir would prove that material had been collected, but it would not by itself prove that the machine was removing the most health-relevant smoke particles.

Upstream and downstream particle measurements are therefore required.

9. Wildfire-Smoke Mode

During a wildfire-smoke event, the unit should operate differently from its ordinary pet-and-dust mode.

Windows and doors should remain closed when outdoor air is significantly worse than indoor air, unless indoor heat conditions make that unsafe. The cleaner should recirculate indoor air continuously at the highest tolerable speed. AirNow and EPA guidance recommends high-efficiency filtration and creating a cleaner indoor room during smoke events.

Wildfire-smoke mode should:

  1. increase fan speed;
  2. display indoor PM2.5 prominently;
  3. prioritize final-filter performance;
  4. warn if the final filter is bypassed, wet, or incorrectly installed;
  5. disable any feature that intentionally introduces outdoor air;
  6. record how quickly indoor PM2.5 falls;
  7. provide a clear signal when outdoor conditions have improved; and
  8. remind the user to inspect the coarse and wet collection stages after the event.

The machine should not include an ionizer or ozone generator. EPA’s current indoor filtration guidance states that technologies such as photocatalytic oxidation, hydroxyl generators, and some ultraviolet-based devices are not recommended for smoke removal and may produce ozone or other unwanted pollutants.

Mechanical separation, water-assisted collection, and mechanical final filtration should remain the primary methods.

10. Maintenance Philosophy

The principal advantage of the design is not that it requires no maintenance. The advantage is that maintenance becomes visible, concentrated, inexpensive, and appropriate to the type of contamination collected.

Hair should be removed from a screen rather than buried inside a costly fine filter.

Dust sludge should be emptied from a removable sump rather than permanently distributed through pleated media.

The mist eliminator should be rinsed rather than discarded.

The final filter should be replaced only when pressure and particle-removal measurements show that replacement is justified.

The water stage must not be treated as a reservoir that can remain untouched for months. Water containing dust, skin material, hair, pollen, animal debris, and organic matter can become foul and support biological growth.

During prototype testing, the sump should be inspected daily. The necessary service interval should then be determined experimentally according to:

  • collected mass,
  • water turbidity,
  • odor,
  • microbial measurements,
  • water temperature,
  • operating hours, and
  • the presence of animals.

The final consumer design should make sump removal no more difficult than removing a vacuum-cleaner bin. If servicing is unpleasant, complicated, or spill-prone, users will postpone it.

Every wet component should be accessible without tools. Internal surfaces should avoid narrow crevices, absorbent insulation, unfinished wood, exposed fasteners that trap debris, or tubing that cannot be flushed.

A “dry-out” cycle could stop the water pump while allowing the fan to move air through the mist eliminator and contact surfaces after the sump has been removed. This would reduce persistent moisture between operating periods.

11. Open-Source Development

The Long-Breath Air Cleaner should be developed as an open-source hardware platform rather than a sealed proprietary appliance.

The public design package should include:

  • complete dimensional drawings,
  • airflow-path diagrams,
  • printable templates,
  • three-dimensional component files,
  • a wiring diagram,
  • a parts list,
  • accepted alternative components,
  • assembly instructions,
  • cleaning instructions,
  • test protocols,
  • raw performance data,
  • failure reports,
  • revision history, and
  • documented safety limitations.

The system should use standard fasteners and standard filter sizes. Components expected to wear out should be individually replaceable.

The fan, pump, sensors, power supply, screen, filter cassette, sump, mist eliminator, and electronic controller should be modular. A failed pump should not require replacement of the entire machine. A damaged sump should not make the blower useless. A user who wants only a dry inertial pre-cleaner should be able to omit the wet module.

Open-source development would permit different versions for:

  • homes with dogs and cats,
  • homes with powder-producing birds,
  • workshops,
  • wildfire-prone regions,
  • schools,
  • animal shelters,
  • veterinary offices,
  • older dusty houses,
  • temporary clean-air shelters, and
  • low-income households unable to repeatedly purchase proprietary filters.

Manufacturers should remain free to sell complete, professionally certified versions. Open-source publication does not prevent commercial production. It prevents the core public-health concept from being locked behind one company’s cartridge dimensions or replacement-parts system.

12. Proposed Prototype

An initial room-scale prototype could be approximately the size of a compact dehumidifier or large portable air cleaner.

The first prototype should use:

  • a washable angled hair screen;
  • a downward acceleration channel;
  • a removable impact plate;
  • a shallow water sump;
  • no recirculation pump;
  • a washable baffle-style mist eliminator;
  • a standard four-inch MERV 13 final filter;
  • a centrifugal blower;
  • manual speed control;
  • differential-pressure measurement; and
  • upstream and downstream PM sensors.

The first prototype should remain mechanically simple. Adding pumps, automatic valves, rotating screens, mobile applications, wireless control, or artificial intelligence before validating the air path would create unnecessary failure points.

Once passive separation is characterized, a second prototype could add a low-flow wetted contact surface.

A third prototype could integrate automatic control, filter-life prediction, maintenance alerts, and open data logging.

13. Experimental Test Program

The proposed device must be tested against a conventional high-efficiency filter system using the same blower capacity, final-filter type, room volume, and contamination load.

The principal question is not merely whether the hybrid machine collects dust. The question is whether it maintains useful clean-air delivery longer while continuing to remove fine particles.

13.1 Baseline Configuration

The baseline machine should consist of:

protective grille → final MERV 13 or HEPA filter → blower

This represents the ordinary direct-filtration approach.

13.2 Experimental Configuration

The Long-Breath configuration should consist of:

hair screen → inertial chamber → water sump → mist eliminator → identical final filter → identical blower

13.3 Test Contaminants

Separate tests should be conducted using controlled amounts of:

  • clean pet-hair samples,
  • bird feathers,
  • standardized household test dust,
  • textile lint,
  • pollen or a safe surrogate,
  • fine mineral dust,
  • combustion-generated smoke in a controlled test chamber, and
  • mixed contamination representing actual residential conditions.

Smoke testing should be conducted only in a ventilated and professionally appropriate test environment. The device should not be evaluated by deliberately filling an occupied home with smoke.

13.4 Measurements

Measurements should include:

  • initial airflow;
  • airflow over time;
  • clean-air delivery rate;
  • upstream and downstream PM1;
  • upstream and downstream PM2.5;
  • upstream and downstream PM10;
  • pressure drop across each stage;
  • fan power consumption;
  • noise level;
  • outlet humidity;
  • visible water carryover;
  • contaminant mass captured by the screen;
  • contaminant mass captured in the sump;
  • contaminant mass reaching the final filter;
  • final-filter mass gain; and
  • cleaning time.

13.5 Proposed Performance Thresholds

The first design target should be to extend the time required for the final filter to reach a defined restriction threshold.

For example, the end-of-service test point could be established when:

  • airflow falls by 25 percent,
  • pressure drop across the final filter doubles,
  • smoke clean-air delivery falls below a specified value, or
  • downstream PM2.5 performance becomes unacceptable.

The following hypotheses should be tested:

H1: The hybrid system will retain a greater percentage of its original airflow after exposure to mixed pet hair and household dust.

H2: Most visible hair, lint, and coarse debris will be captured before the final filter.

H3: The final filter in the hybrid machine will accumulate less coarse mass than the identical filter in the baseline machine.

H4: PM2.5 removal will remain primarily dependent on the final filter but will be sustained longer because the filter is less heavily obstructed by coarse material.

H5: Proper mist elimination will prevent measurable wetting of the final filter.

H6: Total maintenance cost per operating hour will be lower in heavily contaminated homes, even if the machine has a higher initial construction cost.

A failed hypothesis should not be concealed. Open publication of unsuccessful geometries would prevent others from repeating the same mistakes.

14. Safety Requirements

The inclusion of water, electricity, animals, and continuous unattended operation requires conservative design.

The system should never allow water to contact the motor, power supply, mains wiring, or control board.

The housing must resist tipping. The sump should lock into place and automatically shut down the machine when removed.

The final filter should remain dry. A moisture sensor immediately before the final filter should stop the blower if abnormal wetness is detected.

Materials in the air path should resist corrosion, mold penetration, and repeated washing. No absorbent acoustic foam should be placed where it can become wet.

The machine should not aerosolize disinfectants, fragrances, essential oils, medications, or cleaning chemicals.

The design should not make claims about removing carbon monoxide or all gaseous wildfire pollutants. Mechanical filters are designed primarily for particles. Activated carbon or other sorbent media may reduce some gases and odors, but their effectiveness varies according to the chemical, media quantity, contact time, and saturation condition.

A smoke odor should never be treated as a substitute for an actual PM2.5 measurement. Likewise, the disappearance of odor does not prove that the air is safe.

15. Anticipated Advantages

The Long-Breath Air Cleaner could provide several advantages over direct filtration alone.

It could prevent pet hair and large dust from immediately coating the final filter.

It could convert a portion of airborne contamination into a visible, removable sludge.

It could permit washable components to absorb much of the daily contamination burden.

It could preserve high-efficiency media for the particles that actually require it.

It could extend operating time during wildfire-smoke emergencies when replacement filters may be unavailable.

It could reduce dependence on proprietary cartridges.

It could provide transparent, measurement-based filter replacement.

It could allow households to build, repair, and improve their own equipment.

Most importantly, it would treat airflow longevity as a central performance requirement rather than an afterthought.

A filter does not merely need to work when new. It needs to continue moving and cleaning enough air after days or weeks of real contamination.

16. Limitations

The proposed system has not yet been experimentally validated.

A passive water sump may capture far less fine material than intuition suggests. The right-angle chamber may require substantial optimization before its benefit exceeds its pressure penalty.

Wet operation introduces cleaning requirements absent from dry-only purifiers.

A poorly designed version could become unsanitary, leak water, wet the final filter, produce excessive humidity, or move insufficient air.

The machine may be larger and heavier than ordinary portable air cleaners.

Noise may become problematic if high velocity is required for effective inertial separation.

The system may not be economically justified in a clean apartment with no pets and little dust.

It is therefore best understood as a proposed solution for high-load environments, not a universal replacement for every existing air purifier.

Conclusion

The present residential air-cleaner model places too many responsibilities on a single disposable filter. In homes containing pets, birds, substantial dust, or recurring smoke exposure, large and easily separated contamination can prematurely obstruct the same filter needed for fine-particle protection.

The Long-Breath Air Cleaner proposes a different sequence.

Air first passes through a washable screen. It is accelerated and forced through a sharp downward turn. Heavier contamination is directed toward an impact surface and water sump. Additional particles may be collected on a wetted coarse medium. A mist eliminator removes water droplets. The remaining air then passes through a standard, replaceable MERV 13 or HEPA-class final filter.

The water stage does not replace the fine filter, and the inertial chamber does not eliminate the need for PM2.5 measurement. Their purpose is to protect the final filter from contamination that should never have been sent there in the first place.

The core engineering principle is:

Remove each class of contamination by the least wasteful method capable of capturing it.

Hair should be screened.

Heavy dust should be redirected and collected.

Wettable material should be trapped on removable surfaces or in a washable sump.

Fine smoke should be captured by high-efficiency filter media.

By arranging these methods in sequence, an air cleaner may continue breathing effectively for much longer before its final filter becomes clogged.

The concept should be developed openly, tested honestly, and refined through shared measurements. Its success should be judged not by how dirty its water becomes or how impressive the machine appears, but by sustained clean-air delivery, fine-particle removal, safety, service interval, cost, and ease of cleaning.

A successful open-source Long-Breath Air Cleaner could provide a practical new category of household equipment: not merely a filter in a box, but a durable particulate-management system designed specifically for the realities of dusty homes, animal-filled homes, and an era in which distant wildfires can suddenly change the air hundreds of miles away.

References

  1. National Weather Service. “Air Quality Alert Remains in Effect: Wildfire Smoke From Northern Minnesota and South-Central Canada.” July 17, 2026.

  2. National Weather Service, State College, Pennsylvania. “Area Forecast Discussion: Wildfire Smoke, Very Unhealthy Air Quality, and Reduced Visibility.” July 17, 2026.

  3. National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration. “Hazard Mapping System Fire and Smoke Product.” Accessed July 17, 2026.

  4. AirNow and United States Environmental Protection Agency. “Wildfire Smoke: A Guide for Public Health Officials.”

  5. United States Environmental Protection Agency. “Wet Scrubber for Particulate Matter.”

  6. United States Environmental Protection Agency. “EPA Air Pollution Control Cost Manual: Wet Scrubbers for Particulate Matter.”

  7. United States Environmental Protection Agency. “Guide to Air Cleaners in the Home.” Updated February 17, 2026.

  8. United States Environmental Protection Agency. “Indoor Air Filtration.” June 2026.

  9. United States Environmental Protection Agency. “Research on DIY Air Cleaners to Reduce Wildfire Smoke Indoors.”

  10. United States Environmental Protection Agency. “Preparing for Smoke and Heat.” October 9, 2025.

  11. ASHRAE. “Guideline 44-2024: Protecting Building Occupants From Smoke During Wildfire and Prescribed Burn Events.”

  12. AirNow. “Air Quality Guide for Particle Pollution.” 

Thursday, July 16, 2026

Long Long So Long Life ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh
oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh
oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh

I've lived a long life, I've been beaten black and blue, I've lived a long, long life, Lord, soon I'm coming Home to You.

The older folks look at you, tell you, “Enjoy these days, the best days of your life.” You laugh and don't understand, and got no wisdom, nothing but happiness, good times, living dreams, no strife.

oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh
oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh
oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh

Finally, after running hard at 9,000 RPMs for years,
You start to feel a little worn and slow down, learn some patience, live life well, but with much less stress and cares.

oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh
oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh
oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh

As you're creeping down the line of time, you feel it coming in your body and your bones, and your soul knows—oh boy, does it know—when you're getting ready to soon be called Home.

I've lived a long life, I've been beaten black and blue, I've lived a long, long life, Lord, soon I'm coming Home to You.

I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to You
I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to
Lord Almighty, Lord Almighty, Lord Almighty, I'm coming Home to You

I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to You
I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to You, I'm coming Home to
Lord Almighty, Lord Almighty, Lord Almighty, I'm coming Home to You


____________

A deep bluesy reflective voice that has accepted the end of the soul evolving  journey called life that shares and sings the blues.

introduction especially should be in deep deep blues voice

Wednesday, July 15, 2026

Emotional Dysregulation ~ Poetry/ Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

intense numbness
numbed intensity
nothing nothing nothing
nothing as it's supposed to be

I'm scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming

painful isolation while I rest and try to break free
I can't feel a part of public society
it hurts to leave the house it's painful to go out
I stay in a loud silence a cocoon ripped open from only the inside

no one can really even see me
see me
see me
see me
see me
see me
see me
see me

can't you see
from my eyes I bleed
it hurts to watch reality
it numbs me when I run and flee
but nothing balances in this mental fantasy
nothing calculates properly

why can't I just be like you
why can't I just be me ???
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me

I'm scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming

inside screaming screaming screaming

Hypervigilance ~ Poetry/ Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

At rest
it’s like I’m on meth
hyper energy, hyper intensity
meth on crack
paranoia
do I ignore the signals?
do I react?

I don’t do drugs
what the fu—
what the fu—
what the fu—
fuckkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

I don’t do drugs
what’s freaking happening?
trapped inside like an atom split
I try my best to resist all of it
but here we go again, oh shit

oh shit, shit, shit
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt

hostile rejection, paranoid attack
nerves and emotions running off the tracks
insanity to the Nth degree

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please

I don’t do drugs
do I react?
do I ignore the signals?
paranoia
meth on crack
hyper energy, hyper intensity
it’s like I’m on meth

insanity, then heart attack
attack, attack, attack
attack, attack, attack
attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk
attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk
attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk

Paranoid Ideation ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz


They walked by, smiled, and said hello
It didn’t fill me with a warm, comfortable inside glow
I wanted to know how they know
how do they know
how do they know
how do they knowwwwwwwww

what I’m thinking
what I’m up to
what I’m really about to do
how the sinister thoughts
are about to finally play out
how my paranoia is busting out

breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free

why are those folks staring at me
I know they can see right through me
I’m being chased, surrounded—in front and back, beside me—chased, followed in my reality
over there, behind that, up on the roof, helicopters overhead, sirens maybe only in my head
I hear them all looking, staring forever at me, echoing laughter

and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh

as I swan dive and leave behind this misery, trapped inside, constantly haunting me
swan dive into deep therapy, leave behind this misery, leave behind this paranoia, self-haunting, always-daunting misery

leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery

paranoia inside says I’ll never be free

Illusory Superiority ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz


I’m a pyramid’s paramidian at para helion
peak pinnacle piqued all peaked and piqued out
capstone brilliant shining bright golden light
above and beyond anything mankind has ever known or has ever seen
don’t forget you’re looking at me
you’re looking at me you’re looking at me you’re looking up to me!!!

looking up to me
looking up at me
permanently recognizing me
praising me
religelizing me
worshipping me
an idol on a pedestal
want to be like me
me me me me me me me
want to be like me
me me me me me me me
want to be like me
me me me me me me me
want to be like me
me me me me me me me

don’t forget you’re looking at me
you’re looking at me you’re looking at me you’re looking up to me!!!
above and beyond anything mankind has ever known or has ever seen
capstone brilliant shining bright golden light
peak pinnacle piqued all peaked and piqued out
I’m a pyramid’s paramidian at para helion

I Am The Sun Dawg
sun dawg sun dawg sun dawg
ultimate superiority
mother fucker look up here at me
right now up here at me
I Am The Sun Dawg
I Am The Sun Dawg
I Am The Sun Dawg

Illusory Superiority

Learned Helplessness ~ Lyrics / Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz



We are Gen Z
you owe all of us especially me !
it's all always about me
disgruntled highjacked brainwashed always angry
so fucking hateful and angry hateful and angry
hateful and angry
so list o. the sauce you're cooked in you don't and can't see reality

like a frog in cold water then the gas is turned on
the water slowly simmering angering and conjuring emotions inside but numbed and oblivious you are manipulated and blindly naievely can't understand fathom or see
then the water starts to bubble and steep
you never even knew you were in this deep

always over your head
always way to deep
making threats and promises your fucking mouths and souls can't keep
cooked from the inside out numb in permanent misery
you think you have mastery. knowledge and hold all the keys
bubbles bubbles bubbles and steam
bubbles bubbles bubbles and steam
bubbles bubbles bubbles and steam
ridiculously oblivious to what's happening 
happening happening happening 
happening happening happening 
happening happening happening 
it's almost over 
froggie preaching and hatefully commanding their delusional dreams history teaches never come to fruition 
as the pot boiled over and you can't listen watch read think for yourself or learn what's really happening
froggies in a pot
all froggies in a big old pot
thinking about only yourselves and always asking too late what's happening 

happening happening happening 
happening happening happening 
happening happening happening

happening happening happening 
happening happening happening 
happening happening happening

happening happening happening 
happening happening happening 
happening happening happening

Addiction Mathematics ~ Lyrics / Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz


Addiction mathematics, then inverse replay
Addiction lies and says it’s pleasing me for free
Addicted, addiction, addition subtracted from me
Paradoxical minus plus

Addiction is the subtraction
Of every addition that could have been
My reality
Our reality

Reality
Reality
Reality
Reality
Reality
Reality

The future addition subtracted from me
The subtracted what-could-have-been reality
Now
Not reality

Not reality
Not reality
Not reality
Not reality
Not reality
Not reality

Addiction is the addition stolen and subtracted from me
That could have been my reality
Our reality
Paradoxical minus plus

Addicted, addiction, addition subtracted from me
Addiction lies and says it’s pleasing me for free
Addiction mathematics, then inverse replay
On repeat

Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat

Derealization ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz


Desensitized
Washed and rinsed repeatedly on repeat
Nothing left underneath
Lost track of reality

Brainwashed but wasn’t dirty
Thought I was thirsty
Went to water my mind and lost all reality
Chemicals coursed through my veins and changed me

I was no longer me
Not part of reality
No longer me
What’s reality?

Who am I and who is me?
Dreaming or reality
Is that a building over there
Elevator up and out, floor 13

Down the hall I see a window, maybe
Or am I imagining?
Nothing is even real
Living inside a projection hologram universe

A game-theory character with absolutely no meaning
Every moment a moment, always perpetually dreaming
I never wake up
The only reality is the dream itself

Fuzzy, floaty auras
Glowing, luminescing all around
Psychedelic colors
What?

I have a family?
You mean I do have a family?
I have a family.
I have a family?

I have a family.
I have a family?
I have a family???
Are you kidding me?

A job and kids three?
A wife and siblings and bills
And I earned a degree
This is all ridiculous dream

As I step off the edge and begin to fly
But not weightless
The ground below getting closer
What happened?

Not floating, falling
Sinking back to reality
A deafening thud
I should have asked for help

But appreciated the dissociation
Depersonalization break from and of reality
Detached now on the asphalt
Depersonalization permanently

Then I wake up
And because I asked for help
Fortune, this was all just a dream
But I don’t feel like me

I don’t know me
Beside myself
Here and there simultaneously
Beside ourselves

I don’t know us or me
Waking from my dream of a depersonalization reality
Or am I dreaming still?
Nothing seems real

Brainwashed but wasn’t dirty
Thought I was thirsty
Went to water my mind and lost all reality
Chemicals coursed through my veins and changed me

I was no longer me
Not part of reality
No longer me
What’s reality?

Who am I and who is me?
Dreaming or reality
Desensitized
Washed and rinsed repeatedly on repeat

Nothing left underneath
Lost track of all of myself
And all of dreams and reality
Dreams and reality

Dreams or reality
Dreaming of reality
Realistic dreams I believed
Am I awake or dreaming?

Or is this reality?
Up here it’s pretty high

Depersonalization ~ Lyrics / Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz

I never understood the saying I was beside myself

until I was beside myself

I couldn't believe from over here I could see me over there or how I was over there and simultaneously here

rip in space-time another dimension or simply depersonalization exploration?


Am I now a out of body astronaut, a soul looking at myself I don't even like that over there sot

how can I be both here and there and not even really care

I wasn't even so engaged to think much about it or stare

amazing as it kind of was I realized it what I wanted needed and had previously in my mind repeatedly dated


man I wish I wasn't me
I wish I was over there
could you believe not being me
why am I talking to you and you talking to me when we are one having a conversation about two but both are within me beside ourselves 


what's happening 
what's happening 
what's happening 

now I know neither of you
I steer away as though your both contagious 
further I push the envelope of separation 
and mail myself as far away on deep discerning desperation

what's happening 
what's happening 
what's happening 
 
this is ground control to Major Tom 
are you coming back home
or just floating weightless further and further away
knowing yourself less and less each day

can you hear me myself
can you see me anymore me
do you know who's talking to you
and who is talking back too

in the mirror not even a face
drifting further away in space
what a disappearing pace
beside myself a different life taste

I couldn't believe from over here I could see me over there or how I was over there and simultaneously here

until I was beside myself

I never understood the saying I was beside myself

I never understood the saying I was beside myself
until I was beside myself
I never understood the saying I was beside myself
until I was beside myself
I never understood the saying I was beside myself
until I was beside myself
I never understood the saying I was beside myself
until I was beside myself
I never understood the saying I was beside myself
until I was beside myself
I never understood the saying I was beside myself
until I was beside myself



Dissociation ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Everywhere I go, there I am
I just need a vacation
A daycation
I can’t stand any more staycation

I need weed, propofol, Thorazine, DMT
Anything to make me leave me
Let this trapped soul launch away temporarily
From this jail-cell body torturing me

I want to be free
No stress, no abuse, no pain
No psychological misery
No repeating filmstrips in my head—tragedy

No God damn voice within
Cursing me with words
Or cursing at me in words
Anymore, please, permanently

Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave

Leave
Leave
Leave
You’re not a fucking part of me

Not a fucking part of me
Part of me
You’re not a fucking part of me
Not a fucking part of me

Part of me
Dissociation
Dissociate
Disappear and dissipate

I don’t want to return
It’s time to part the pearly gates
But what if I get repelled
And sent back to myself—me

Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me

Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Or oh my God—noooooooooooooo
Purgatory

Purgatory
Purgatory
No, this can’t be happening to me
Not purgatory

No, I can’t enter
St. Peter’s turning me away
Just because I dissociated
Needed a vacay

Vacay
Vacay
Vacay
Vacay, vacay, vacay

Vacation, vacation, vacation
Vacay, vacay, vacay
Vaycay
Vayvay

Vaycay
It’s about time I get myself back to me
Am I dreaming or dissociating?
I’m up here looking down, floating

This might be the permanent end of me
In this body
What are these doctors doing to me?
Now why are they stopping doing anything to me?

Mottling
Not breathing
Not gasping
Not wheezing

All I wanted was to temporarily dissociate from me
From myself—me, oh my, oh me
From myself—me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me

Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me

Me, oh my, oh me

Anhedonia ~ Lyrics / Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz

I met Anhedonia
A goddess on a throne
A succubus amidst all unknown
The rest of the good life is history

It started out perfection, bliss, Nirvana
Heavenly, beautiful, dreamy, and perfect for me
Then the greatest aspects of life started misleading me
Leaving me

Betraying me and stabbing, bleeding me
Feeding on me, slowly slaying me
Anhedonia
Why, oh why, did you lie?

How was I so naive?
I believed
To believe is naive
How was I so naive?

Why, oh why, did you lie?
Anhedonia
PTSD—I can’t see the present or the future
Just tragedy in my life replaying persistently, incessantly, constantly, repeatedly, relentlessly, excessively, suicidally

Oh please
Anhedonia
Why did you root this in me
And steal from me the promises you gave to us, to we, to me?

What the hell is happening to me?
Happening to me
Happening to me
Happening to me

To me
To me
To me
Me, me, me

Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me

Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Anhedonia and me
Promises that delivered misery

Succubus took my everything
To my beautiful, perfect ordinary
Which for granted I took
Now I’m in PTSD, miserably, suicidally

Anhedonia
She stole it all from me
That goddess succubus
She stole it all from me

That goddess succubus
She stole it all from me
That goddess succubus
She stole it all from me

Naively I gave it to her willingly

Addiction ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

I can’t
Can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t
Stop this insanity
Can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t
Stop this insanity

Trapped, living inside, deep in me
Driving me
Stealing from me
Reading me
Teasing me
Lying to me
And then pleasing me

Addicted, addiction, addition subtracted from me
I’m less and less of all I’ll ever be
And it pleases this part of me
Broken part of me
Broken part of me
Broken part of me

I please religiously
Serve indefinitely
Give and give more than I have
And it takes more from me and others too
A hungry, sinister, monstrous brew
That still fucking pleases me

Oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God
It pleases this broken part of me
While stealing from and killing me
It pleases this broken part of me

And I serve it incessantly
Religiously
Forever weak on my knees
Not praying, but cursing and swearing—a slave
Serving this addiction miserably
Lying about how much it pleases me

This broken part inside says over and over
It pleases me
As I gray away and slowly, more quickly, decay
And the voice of the broken part inside gets louder
Demanding we are almost free

And this will be exactly what ultimately piques and pleases me
This trajectory
This destiny

I serve it dutifully
While it’s killing me

Addiction
Behavioral addiction
It’s killing me
Slowly, more quickly, killing me

A payment plan for misery
A payment plan I choose freely
That’s killing me
As it says it’s pleasing me

Morbid, stinking, decaying flesh
Death from within
This addiction consumes me
As it’s killing me from the inside out

And says

It’s pleasing me
It’s pleasing me
It’s pleasing me
It’s pleasing me
It’s pleasing me
It’s pleasing me

Attention Fragmentation ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Shattered—a million pieces, sharp and jagged
Cutting, bleeding, seething, dripping, oozing
Slowly dying, gasping, wheezing
Slowly, more slowly, breathing

Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying

That’s my attention and how it exists
Inside this realm of fucking me!

Fucking me
Fucking me
Fucking me
Fucking me
Fucking me
Fucking me

Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me

That’s my attention and how it exists
Inside this realm of fucking me!

Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying
Dying

Slowly, more slowly, breathing

Shattered—a million pieces, sharp and jagged
Cutting, bleeding, seething, dripping, oozing
Slowly dying, gasping, wheezing

Shattered—a million pieces, sharp and jagged
Cutting, bleeding, seething, dripping, oozing
Slowly dying, gasping, wheezing

Shattered—a million pieces, sharp and jagged
Cutting, bleeding, seething, dripping, oozing
Slowly dying, gasping, wheezing

Shattered—a million pieces, sharp and jagged
Cutting, bleeding, seething, dripping, oozing
Slowly dying, gasping, wheezing

Shattered—a million pieces, sharp and jagged
Cutting, bleeding, seething, dripping, oozing
Slowly dying, gasping, wheezing

Shattered—a million pieces, sharp and jagged
Cutting, bleeding, seething, dripping, oozing
Slowly dying, gasping, wheezing