Abuse comes in many forms
each paralyzing in so many facets words
cannot quite decipher
pain is deep scarring and lasting
prayer an answer for all
freedom at the Lords feet I pray
if I have hurt and hurt I have been
Lord change our foolish ways
Love a mountain climbed so many times
and each time I miserably fail
divorce twice and now alone once again
lonliness always for me seems to prevail
I must still stand strong
cant tolerate being wronged
I tried to take it and let love's ember burn
but now the Lord says give Peace its turn
and I am now alone once again in heart
with the Lord always standing by my side
I await his plans for me next
but my tears say I miss you so
sorry you had to go
the most precious woman in my life you still are
but I may never see or speak to you again
because the pain of many a fueal moment erases the love in this my life
I wanted to share it all, for once have a blessed wedding, you my wife
but now my head held low I trudge lifelessly with strife
still dreaming of what we could have been
an unkempt life such wicked sin
Lord forgive us for we know not what we do
Our love we mis irecte at times with hurt
I offer up to you and surrender my fight of stubborness and arrogance
and beg of you to be your servant wipe clean our ignorance
so much I want and do pray
sweet Lord
may i use my wings to fly?
Always full of questions
Edison, DaVinci, Burroughs, Ford, Grandady DeLoach
great men all do pass
through time with stretched wings
soaring alongsie God
this universe so vast
my Love if I shall not see or speak or be with you
just fine Peace and Solitude
and Trust the He walks by each of us
together thrhh Him always
with safe distance Faith and Trust
I love you an now must fly away
and say goodbye this very day
to she which I gave all my life
and gave life back to me
showed me how to walk again with a broken back
made my heart feel healed
let my spirit restore and thrive
i thanks you Rhonda for my life
you showe me God's face
residing right inside of my soul
let me listen and speak to him often
yet we drifted apart for reasons beyond our control
Gods will the size of merely a mustard seed
can move entire mountains
How small truly is my Faith thus far
only a drop of water in the universal ocean
pray, grow Faith from from seed not molested (Monsanto)
always strive towards our minds and souls be tested
a judge I must see in a court room so grim
haloween was suppose to be a three year celebration anniversary of sharing
now we are so far apart yet only blocks away from one another here in cumberland
and my Mother is ill, nursing home life, perhaps dying
and we waste time like its free and an entitlement
the most valuable assett money will never corrupt
will always be time
and for you my undying love
just please I pray let me help you
and please i pray you help me
because I want to rock on that porch at our cabin in old age
the vision we share an we see
I will learn to bite my scalding tounge
so viscious which I weild like a samuri swiping ecapitating sword to the soul
and you strike back or even at times out of no where
a blindsided unexpected misdirected perplectic mysterious reality
and then I act out in ways I do not even think of as me
Oh Lord what have we become?
Lift us I pray above this heart breaking gut wrenching lonliness and pain
we are the tropics Capricorn and cancer
and for balance we must parallel stay
for when we shake and quiver, waves we set aloft
that drift through the fabric of time and can most anything touch off
miracles in many places we leave
a smile, love, and friends,
and then celestial alignments of life finds a poor blend
oft like the winemaker expecting delight
uyears of hard work spent, seed though sewn so well
opens up that oaken cask
and drinks vinegar
not the promised drink of sweet wine
our blessed Fathers blood and soul
but vinegar he mae by mistakethat holds responsibility
blame not just learn as we drift forward rocketing through the universe
growing back towars one another
seeking help and releif that we so need
let us now plant so fresh the seed
that when it comes time for us to reap
perhaps we will fall in Love at Gods feet
nothing coul ever be more sweet
as has been the most glorious days of my life my time spent thus far with you
Rhonda no matter what, you are always my one true love, and I thank God for the gift you are
