Palondromatic Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Is there palondromatic poetry ?

Now that I am healed, return to healer, the will I become. Become I will the healer, to return, healed, am I, that now.

Voice of Reason

The voice of reason is neither Democrat nor Republican, nor of a denomination or certain religion... The voice of reason is in each of us. Let's share that reason together. we should really be the most beautiful in her woven cultures of the world that the world has ever known oh, and we understand that of the past civilizations fill over fear and competition and the lack of ability to work together and change. Not being able to accept that the reality staring you in the face is never a good start. Praying we get back to basics and take care of one another locally and then out from there all across the world and become the most incredible civilization that will forge forward together that's the world will ever know. what an incredible journey we are on the cusp of right now this moment. This is truly an incredible time to be alive, but hasn't each soul from the past said that precise same thing through their own lifetime. Make your days count.

Deaths & Psychedelics ~ Part 1

Death is by far the most powerful of psychedelics !

Don't be confused. Understand science.

It sets off a cascading chemical chain reaction that is very hard to report in plain English because it transports you across space-time and into a completely different realm as perceived. This is precisely what psychedelics do such as DMT, LSD, ketamine has some strong properties their and as they are each equally dangerous they are each equally powerful and therapeutic when used properly.

Medication is no perfect science that is for certain, but when we start seeking answers, we should let our fears aside and leave no stone unturned and so, I just share but I know as experience through the life that I've lived.

We were all young, where we not at once? Be wise quickly and please age to a wise and older age and only remain around those that lift your spirit and never drag you down.

The medical and scientific journey for me it has been one of studying all my life because I just can't help it, and one of terrible physical health and a plethora of medical experiences that I would never wish on a single person. Not even my worst enemy which I don't think I have anymore although some may hate me I don't feel that I came back the same man that I was.

Don't be confused, it's still me... but you know I'm better.

The fear in the anxiety of Life have Departed. The hope and the courage and the face are all stronger than ever. I knew I would stand again in desk, and I knew I would walk again and somehow those things came to be light. I can't much explain that accept wow I bet it took maybe 50 or 60 people and who knows that could be an understatement. It was like a factory of life with the perfect scientific protocol and I don't even know how I know all of that, but I do.

I certainly had omnipresence then.

so there's this cascading chemical effect for certain, but there is a known and documented phenomenon that transpires for some that go into this room where they absolutely have a consciousness about everything that is happening and some folks even see themselves. I think I did see myself dead, but I didn't want to dwell on it too much there because I was busy and deep thought and traveling very very fast like being in a vacuum tube where you have a movie that surrounds you 360 degrees and you get to see everything that ever happened from the beginning until now. you somehow in that realm know everything and you experience everything because you saw it with your own eyes and you are of all knowledge. In that place we are all there that have passed from the other place which could be places, and we don't speak we just know each other's thoughts and we trust communicate and share all knowledge. It was very humbling, much more humbling than waking up naked in the hospital bedroom which as a human being is so f****** embarrassing it's hard to explain until you remember where you were and then you just laugh and see how beautiful everything is because you know that you really truly went naked to the throne of God and that you will remain that way and that next realm forever a part of everything, just as you are now.

Here we are the observer, there we are the Creator.

This isn't biblical text it's just an experience.

For my procedure I was administered fentanyl, ketamine, and I think prophenol. you've heard of every single one of these drugs and they all been associated with death, but did you know that when they are used in microscopic or minuscule amounts or maybe larger amounts but properly and controlled in the correct environment they are life-saving and life-giving?

Would you open your mind to that if you didn't believe it before?

would you open your mind up to that fact if I told you that it is my experience that I testify to and that medical doctors would back it all up?

Would you open your mind to the fact that there's science that will backup much of this and you can study it for yourself through your own due diligence naturally.

So what of pscylcybon, and ketamine, in fentanyl?

don't be ridiculous, I'm not talking about illicit drugs, although we know they exist in quantity as illicit too, that is very specifically not the topic here.

I'm abruptly articulate at times because I want there to be laser sharp focus when it is needed at critical times, and that critical time is upon us as our largest retirement generation in recorded history heads into retirement and we must properly deal with this huge huge task that we are on the cusp of while at the same time we start repairing our own countries across this world and we lift the world into a far better Harmony then the disrepair and the ignorance in the hate and the lack of stability we all have become more recently.

It's no wonder my heart hurts all the time.

I like to take walks and go look at nature, but my heart of hearts and my soul is intent on making the world a better place like so many have done for me all of my pathetic existence.

Many are about to embark on an adventure that I just went on and returned from. It's not pleasant. It's peaceful on the other side, I promise, and it is indescribably beautiful, because again it is of nothing of this Earthly existence we share into know together only.

it is best to be right with others and we should all help another and stop watching so many suffer nearby as we hoard. It's against our animal nature, but when you experience death in the ego is smashed, you clearly understand what is correct proper and moral and that is how I was brought up in to do anything less would make me responsible. now it's time to find a career and step up and responsibilities so I have even more to offer. Now I will climb the tallest mountain ever. I will always continue to climb that mountain even when there are setbacks. It is the mountains where I am at home.

I really live in the mountains and I have no idea what drew me here except a voice in my head and you know what when I moved into my house the hospital wasn't a mile and a half or two miles away, it is now and I have been critical of it and them that work there and they saved my life anyway.

I've heard people in my community be extremely critical of this hospital and its staff and it is because through death we are full of hate and we are hurt just as we that suffer through any sickness.

we hurt deeply as a community for a multitude of reasons, but we are healing and we are rising as a community today here in Cumberland Maryland.

I pray that every place in the world just starts focusing upon themselves and each other locally and that we may all just at the philosophy of caring and sharing for another as we embark further down the scientific and technological journeys of this Earthly realm and continue to work hard at being better stewards to the Earth and better friends to each and every single soul, and most importantly those suffering the most.

we fail miserably here because we let those that suffer the most continue to suffer in the pure loneliness and blackness without an outstretched hand.

Realize you are a God today !!!

each and every one of us has the ability to make this world directly around us that we interact with a better place.

I studied law enforcement in college. that was the direction I wanted to go in my life so I could help to change the world and make it a better place. That's always the answer that the professor's seemed to laugh at because they knew it wasn't a reality, but it should be. Between that and my deep desire for alcohol I knew that that was not a line of work for me, plus I had suffered much trauma and I don't need to go snapping out on anybody and making the world a shittier place.

this isn't about me, but Lord knows I suffered a good bit so far, and you know what I'm willing to suffer a good bit more if I need to. I have plans and I have goals and I have desires and as long as I draw breath I will continue 2 work towards those dreams, and as my energy increases, finally what will be mine will be coming to me.

there's much deeper meaning of that last line above and I'll just leave it a little bit cryptic but it's not as narcissistic and selfish as it sounds, indeed it's not one single bit. It's precisely that each and every one of you deserve to know fulfilled  dreams.

There are many gods, and may you find one now and be in good hands on your journey. Keep the mind open and always learning. Forgive the self and forgive others both immediately, but of course there are reasonable amends to always make. We are human, and we ere. Be good to another and don't over-complicate everything.

It's okay to ask for help, and when we all pray universe rings with such a beautiful Harmony and Melody. Praying is the music of the heavens, and God loves to hear it so sweet in his conscience's ear.

It's so very hard to describe what isn't, but what is at the same time also everything.

Forgive me.

Death & Resurrection vs. Death & Blackness, A Nation of Heavens People Dying

HiAlone and in loneliness one dies, opposed to... together a community first heals, and secondarily it remains healthy afterwards.

Why are so many so scared to help others?

Why are so many paralyzed in fear?

The examples amoungst us are few.

The failure is vast and all encompassing. Don't you know how it feels? It's like watching Death creeping closer and closer to yourself!!!

Why do we all collectively accept this ???

Your actions build others Faith !

Resore humanity now, this instant...and Satan, don't make me slap you down again. Get in line for once alongside the rest of us to learn to be a friend.

I've not uttered your name or thought for millennia x 1000 exponentially, and this last time I say it, oh, you will hear me never again if if your will of selfishness still is to remain thereafter. Then I will take back the Earthly Kingdom and smash you?

What say you Satan upon your so offered now Salvation?

Are we not a human satan each to another in the worst of times?

Lift another and build Faith a house strong and holy for others, your actions forward now!

Seconds pass costing valuable life all around as we choose to rest on our laurels. ACTION !!!

Faith be your Stepping Stone to the Heavens, and Action your Path and Plan of the Earthly Kingdom in which we ascend from upon our ultimate humbling.

It's a beautiful journey we should fear no more, both the ascent oh, and what we share here in the Earthly realm that we are taking back.

Guidance Forward

Faith be your Stepping Stone to the Heavens, and Action your Path and Plan of the Earthly Kingdom in which we ascend from upon humbling.

Climbing Healrh Mountain After Death ~ A Short Story & Thoughts

If anybody has ever been prescribed human growth hormone and or has any experience with it, please inbox me or comment here.

After everything I've been through, and the strength I'm starting to feel I'm just thinking that's what I need to get back up to where I'm supposed to be as fast as possible. Of course I want to know if I'm going to upset the apple cart and I won't go in that direction if it looks that way but if I hear excellent results and I get doctors directives that allow this to be a possibility then it's something I want to explore because I had a lot to make up for and I've never been more motivated in my life. I hope that feeling remains, and lately it's just growing each day. I haven't known that for over 20 years. I kind of don't know what to think !

Life is looking even more beautiful daily.

Tough things surrounding me though and I need to be strong for service. Lots of work ahead.

I guess it's a great thing I want to give mountain climbing one day. No not K2 or Kilimanjaro you know just a nice mountain trail and an inclined okay but not too much. I don't need to be suspended by ropes and wearing climbing gear ... I'm not quite that crazy... yet.

This is no promise about attempting to work with these medications but I do know a friend that broke a leg and had multiple operations and finally wants the human dress or man was administered, he made a remarkable recovery and from my understanding last I heard was stronger than ever oh, maybe even stronger in those areas in before as often been and will indeed men this way. However there are long-term considerations that are critical and who knows, that sure could be something that includes my heart conditions and something I want to steer a million miles away from.

I'm thinking of supervised Dan 3 to 6 months and me working out and busting my ass to get in the best shape of my life hey, if my doctor would approve.

I'm starting to feel like I can go out jogging and I hate jogging hahaha I'm just saying it's weird to breed well in for my heart to breathe well before my stamina to be here in for me to be energetic and not need much sleep.

oh, and to all my friends that asked me why do you sleep all the time? Why are you so depressed? Well I wasn't sleeping all the time I haven't felt well for a while just like I told you, but nobody wanted to hear that. I did diligently work on my own projects inside where I could do them without exerting too much physical strain on myself. you know what I let my body be my guide and I pushed myself when I could and I didn't when I couldn't and I really didn't give a s*** what everybody thought because I grew up this way and I've take pretty good care of myself regardless of what you might think you see or know.

to the friends that have been able to stick around and hang out you don't know how much I appreciate it. You are each the tree Lifesavers cuz you kept my spirits high and lifted through all of the difficult times and there's too many countless people to ever answer but that is every single one of you on Facebook. Probably a hell of a lot more people I deleted LOL

it's funny to me I'm sure it's not funny to them but I was in a bad place for a long time and I just had to get things focused and refine so that I could take care of me and I feel like I'm back, and then some.

I'm praying this lasts in the confidence is growing within that it's definitely going to.

believe it or not I smoke for 2 months after all of this but I quit again so about four months now I guess. I decided I'm not going to count I don't want to know the date and whatever this time I'm just done you know. My nerves are calming and it feels wonderful and I don't mean comments from not smoking although that certainly helped, I mean, hanging from his being rattled through the whole experience of this event.

LOL

Save Yourselves ~ Part 2 ~ NDE ~ Near Death Experience & Full Death Experience & Life Lessons

It is great beautiful and perfect and indeed you know you are with all of your loved ones and more, indeed you know that there is the most immense love and that every single hole you have ever felt in your heart has been filled exponentially with love exponential.

I'm writing a lot lately. I am trying to describe parts of my experience that are unbelievably and incredibly vivid. hopefully in short order I have some other witnesses to what took place but I'm just not personally ready to go there quite yet, but close.

I'm determined all of a sudden that I'm going to find a career and fend for myself again soon oh, and I have an offer on the table that if realistic could be the most beautiful gift next to this second chance of life that would be something indescribable in itself to the place where I just feel somehow I know I would be home. I promised I would work there if they saved my life. At my last appointment I was asked if I was ready. I wasn't ready to be asked so soon. I thought maybe I made up all this stuff but this confirmation of this question about are you ready to come to work for me now?... Well, I replied not quite yet but very soon.

To know that my cardiologist expected me to say yes because he asked so soon, well I knew that he expected me to continue on this crazy fast past of healing and miracles that he observed.

you have to understand everything that transpired and that I made it home in 5 days and then that I took my neck brace off in five mores days almost doesn't make any sense whatsoever.

But then again sure it makes sense. There's always a chance don't you see ???... and if there's truly no chance, as we understand through tragic events, it's okay to hurt, but it's not okay to hurt yourself. That emptiness all goes away, no???.. but we must remain here where we understand precisely what each of our lessons mean for each one of us until it is time for departure of which we really truly should not interfere and I just know that as I know my intuition that I trust so deeply and always have.

I would love to give you greater evidence, and perhaps I will rationalize that but I have nothing to draw pain at the moment it feels, and so this is where I am in these regards.

there are many different angles to what happened to me and I've written many different stories that I need to sit down with somebody and publish but I'm not ready to edit all of this yet to come and it's going to take somebody that's not me that really gives a darn and is fascinated by this topic because the story here is so much more than anything about me.

It's about where we are, where we are going, and it's about the medical community and where it is and where it is going. We really truly have a beautiful future if we all learn to work together even better, but that means nothing if we shun the suffering in the sick and we let children and the needy starve. Anybody without food is needy.

We are only as gracious as we are not greedy.

Save Yourselves ~ Part 1 ~ NDE ~ Near Death Experience & Full Death Experience & Life Lesdons

If it's me biting your head off, then it's me that loves you wanting you to listen up and take better care of yourself. That's the echo of my father, the echo of my older brother, the voice of rationale and the reason. There's still time to save yourself always, when you know you are reacting defensively oh, you have heard my voice.

Be stronger today than yesterday, make those proper amends where you have made mistakes and practice those lessons learned and teach them the way you live your life so that others do not have to make the same mistakes and we may all move forward in Grace.

The Grace that's missing is the time spent wasted through political argument and purposeful division. If you think a snow day is unproductive, or a polar vortex, or a massive flood... really deeply think about what's truly being lost. Lives, all around our entire country of ALL beautiful people.

Where there's will to draw breath, there is a life worth saving. Where there is no will to draw breath, there is love missing. Where there is a will to heal, there is a life worth saving. Where there is no will to heal, there is again, love missing.

Just like a championship game would have no meaningful purpose without its preceding season, so afterwards in the next dimension into which we definitely travel, there will be this greater deeper meaning and you will know it in an instant. The life you just left seconds ago will instantly also feel like ten millennia ago. on that journey through space time in that instant where you traveled 10000 miles, you will observe the entire akashic record and we'll know all knowledge but far deeper than 10,000 years you will actually see it all. You will know everything. we are all everything and are all a part of everything but right now we are all in pieces.

It almost feels like we're a self-assembling puzzle and we're failing. Almost feels like maybe we are artificial intelligence and somebody made us, but we're not figuring things out too well because it seems like we aren't hard wired for fear but there's that ghost in the machine or virus and it gives us well additional fear above and beyond what's normal fear to expect to keep us thinking logically and rationally.

I was getting pretty tired of thinking there with my heart going completely bonkers and my hair going gray and then white but now it seems like my neurons are firing again. I'm starting to be able to sleep again a little bit more on my own and with little bit less marijuana. Judge me all you want but I'm not going to lie to you. My life can be an open book and a record of sorts so that others may have it far better, I pray.

life is a journey of exploration and experiment where we should never throw caution to the wind and where we should only do things in precise in measured ways no matter what it might appear like to others. I want people to know that I am in absolutely no way that absolutely insane looking person I often appear I am quite docile, calm, and rational deep down in my core, would like a tuning fork that just got dropped on a hardwood floor sometimes my mouth won't be quiet, my nerves won't stop reverberating, and my anxiety shoots through the roof, and that's because of my heart condition, because of trauma, because of depression, and I can go on and on about all the diseases I have and how I fight, the stress from having to fight social security three times and losing now yet again after I even died.

Absolutely none of that mattered where I traveled. None of it. Not a single iota, nothing here did except those lessons that made me understand there so that I was in the proper all of everything and yes even myself. No, not narcissist. In all of the spirit within in the body so given. inspired by the abuse I purposely have put myself through and through genetics and through the environment and that this machine bounces back over and over and that within this machine resides souls that know how to work together that fixed the machine that couldn't fix itself, with things that we made like the gods that made us. Told me that's not mine blowing? And please tell me to my face and look me in my eyes and say I'm crazy, dare you continue to speak these words behind my back.

I see the eye rolls. I hear the utterances. People have become to disgust me.

I only see those three things in sentence above separately as they are a reflection of as ill as I had become.

...and I'm not a reflection of somebody you know in your family? Am I not a reflection of a dear loved friend? Am I not a reflection of somebody in your community? Why are you not sharing love and lending a hand instead of being a judgmental foolish individual that does not value life and let's that life walk swiftly towards the grave far too young?

You know what hurts more than anything beyond no love within. When people don't trust your word. when you're ill you start giving people reason to not trust your word any longer.Bonds that were once made and we're true and solid get broken. Things can be mended if we help each other heal, but we don't survive as individuals.

we are getting smashed down by other nation-states, by other just name it whatever you want to call it but my point is is we are letting their be this Great divide and it's really not just locally, or in your state, or in your country, but across this entire world.

the sick and evil will all disappear if we help one another heal in that starts by sharing first Love and then the resources that we have to sustain life.

if you want to know if any religion is good or not, if it's supports life than it is wonderful and if it doesn't then you know the answer.

Each and every one of us knows the same voice within. Listen.

My heart still hurts really badly really deep for only one thing, love. It's all I've ever hungered.

I patiently await and struggle forward in faith knowing that greater rewards lie ahead for that man or woman willing to give all without knowing what comes next being able to Bear the judgment of all eyes for the times especially when they have been the fool, but even for the majority when they have not even been close to a fool.

If I, John Steven, have failed you, please let me know who what is a good and irrational amend and I will do my best to make things proper again.

there's a lot of undoing to be done and there's a lot of life ahead to be lived, and I'm really scared I have to admit it, but I think it's time to forge forward. I feel a powerful title wave of youth washing over me that makes me cry and prayer several times a day, rejoicing.

How can I not hear the song amazing Grace playing a symphony in my soul.

I thank God so much for this most perfect extension of the most fascinating voyage I have ever known, life in that pursuit of happiness that every single human being should always know no oppression against any way shape or form.

Where there are barriers, there is no God. I never said God was omnipresent.

That's going to be very tough to figure out here (barriers of every single type) on this plane or in this realm we call Earth, but just think about what it means.

What on Earth are we so scared of?

Death itself is incredibly peaceful.I look forward to that day but I wanted to be an eternity away from this moment. I adore life. I can't say I have always adored life as much as I do today. I pray I will adore even more tomorrow. I pray I will become the man that raised me, in due time. I pray the ladies of my family to become the woman that raised them, all fine. I pray we are all a part of that same family, and let our family each now grow, when you know in your heart of hearts that we are all from one.

Anything past 1, is the start of division.

I'm wondering if Jesus would be happy here today if I could chit chat with him about denominations, and their effectiveness with Christianity.

I can play that game theologically with any religion.

I'm a born and raised Christian. I died that way. I'm not sure if I am still that way. I'm just different and appreciate and adore the way I know, and I equally adore and appreciate other ways that I have learned that work for others that I love and call friend. What I do know is that there is one ahead where I have been to the great council in the sky come up and we all know one another and we all know all and we all hear each other speak without words uttered and we all are thought manifest.

The experience is extremely dreamlike, but the reality is what happened to me happened after I died. The journey began really before I died as the tunnel vision started. of course there's a lack of oxygen and your eyes aren't working as well and your organs are shutting down. My heart is stopped from heart attack and I can go on and on about the medical in the scientific in the why this happens in the why that happens and then I died.

in the black place where I was only conscience in that is all, I thought of the love I held for another and my two beautiful dogs that are the sweetest to animals I've ever known. My buddies that give me love unconditionally oh, something human beings are not possible of, unless they are a mother or father with a child, because before that time it just seems an impossibility almost. this is good not God talking, and I'm Not Jesus, and I'm not delusional, and maybe a couple of sentences don't make sense and so this isn't a new religion or anything like that. It's just experience an observation praying to what I understand and sharing with those that I love that we might find a better way together.

It breaks my heart to watch my country and my countrymen falter, while the countrymen of the other countries my ancestors are from faulter as well.

I'll tell you short and simple what I know about evil on this Earth. It most certainly exists !!! It seems clear that souls are either good or evil, and that's a huge statement to make but tell me that's not true?

Truth is salvation, salvation truth.

Save yourself. Then save another immediately. Just be the guiding hand of help when so called. Never throw caution to the wind, operate in faith, and work in measured units towards directed goals that benefit all.

There are lots of ways to describe what's next, but none of them work because words aren't used in that place in that place it's nothing like this place we each know.

It is great beautiful and perfect and indeed you know you are with all of your loved ones and more, indeed you know that th