Death is by far the most powerful of psychedelics !
Don't be confused. Understand science.
It sets off a cascading chemical chain reaction that is very hard to report in plain English because it transports you across space-time and into a completely different realm as perceived. This is precisely what psychedelics do such as DMT, LSD, ketamine has some strong properties their and as they are each equally dangerous they are each equally powerful and therapeutic when used properly.
Medication is no perfect science that is for certain, but when we start seeking answers, we should let our fears aside and leave no stone unturned and so, I just share but I know as experience through the life that I've lived.
We were all young, where we not at once? Be wise quickly and please age to a wise and older age and only remain around those that lift your spirit and never drag you down.
The medical and scientific journey for me it has been one of studying all my life because I just can't help it, and one of terrible physical health and a plethora of medical experiences that I would never wish on a single person. Not even my worst enemy which I don't think I have anymore although some may hate me I don't feel that I came back the same man that I was.
Don't be confused, it's still me... but you know I'm better.
The fear in the anxiety of Life have Departed. The hope and the courage and the face are all stronger than ever. I knew I would stand again in desk, and I knew I would walk again and somehow those things came to be light. I can't much explain that accept wow I bet it took maybe 50 or 60 people and who knows that could be an understatement. It was like a factory of life with the perfect scientific protocol and I don't even know how I know all of that, but I do.
I certainly had omnipresence then.
so there's this cascading chemical effect for certain, but there is a known and documented phenomenon that transpires for some that go into this room where they absolutely have a consciousness about everything that is happening and some folks even see themselves. I think I did see myself dead, but I didn't want to dwell on it too much there because I was busy and deep thought and traveling very very fast like being in a vacuum tube where you have a movie that surrounds you 360 degrees and you get to see everything that ever happened from the beginning until now. you somehow in that realm know everything and you experience everything because you saw it with your own eyes and you are of all knowledge. In that place we are all there that have passed from the other place which could be places, and we don't speak we just know each other's thoughts and we trust communicate and share all knowledge. It was very humbling, much more humbling than waking up naked in the hospital bedroom which as a human being is so f****** embarrassing it's hard to explain until you remember where you were and then you just laugh and see how beautiful everything is because you know that you really truly went naked to the throne of God and that you will remain that way and that next realm forever a part of everything, just as you are now.
Here we are the observer, there we are the Creator.
This isn't biblical text it's just an experience.
For my procedure I was administered fentanyl, ketamine, and I think prophenol. you've heard of every single one of these drugs and they all been associated with death, but did you know that when they are used in microscopic or minuscule amounts or maybe larger amounts but properly and controlled in the correct environment they are life-saving and life-giving?
Would you open your mind to that if you didn't believe it before?
would you open your mind up to that fact if I told you that it is my experience that I testify to and that medical doctors would back it all up?
Would you open your mind to the fact that there's science that will backup much of this and you can study it for yourself through your own due diligence naturally.
So what of pscylcybon, and ketamine, in fentanyl?
don't be ridiculous, I'm not talking about illicit drugs, although we know they exist in quantity as illicit too, that is very specifically not the topic here.
I'm abruptly articulate at times because I want there to be laser sharp focus when it is needed at critical times, and that critical time is upon us as our largest retirement generation in recorded history heads into retirement and we must properly deal with this huge huge task that we are on the cusp of while at the same time we start repairing our own countries across this world and we lift the world into a far better Harmony then the disrepair and the ignorance in the hate and the lack of stability we all have become more recently.
It's no wonder my heart hurts all the time.
I like to take walks and go look at nature, but my heart of hearts and my soul is intent on making the world a better place like so many have done for me all of my pathetic existence.
Many are about to embark on an adventure that I just went on and returned from. It's not pleasant. It's peaceful on the other side, I promise, and it is indescribably beautiful, because again it is of nothing of this Earthly existence we share into know together only.
it is best to be right with others and we should all help another and stop watching so many suffer nearby as we hoard. It's against our animal nature, but when you experience death in the ego is smashed, you clearly understand what is correct proper and moral and that is how I was brought up in to do anything less would make me responsible. now it's time to find a career and step up and responsibilities so I have even more to offer. Now I will climb the tallest mountain ever. I will always continue to climb that mountain even when there are setbacks. It is the mountains where I am at home.
I really live in the mountains and I have no idea what drew me here except a voice in my head and you know what when I moved into my house the hospital wasn't a mile and a half or two miles away, it is now and I have been critical of it and them that work there and they saved my life anyway.
I've heard people in my community be extremely critical of this hospital and its staff and it is because through death we are full of hate and we are hurt just as we that suffer through any sickness.
we hurt deeply as a community for a multitude of reasons, but we are healing and we are rising as a community today here in Cumberland Maryland.
I pray that every place in the world just starts focusing upon themselves and each other locally and that we may all just at the philosophy of caring and sharing for another as we embark further down the scientific and technological journeys of this Earthly realm and continue to work hard at being better stewards to the Earth and better friends to each and every single soul, and most importantly those suffering the most.
we fail miserably here because we let those that suffer the most continue to suffer in the pure loneliness and blackness without an outstretched hand.
Realize you are a God today !!!
each and every one of us has the ability to make this world directly around us that we interact with a better place.
I studied law enforcement in college. that was the direction I wanted to go in my life so I could help to change the world and make it a better place. That's always the answer that the professor's seemed to laugh at because they knew it wasn't a reality, but it should be. Between that and my deep desire for alcohol I knew that that was not a line of work for me, plus I had suffered much trauma and I don't need to go snapping out on anybody and making the world a shittier place.
this isn't about me, but Lord knows I suffered a good bit so far, and you know what I'm willing to suffer a good bit more if I need to. I have plans and I have goals and I have desires and as long as I draw breath I will continue 2 work towards those dreams, and as my energy increases, finally what will be mine will be coming to me.
there's much deeper meaning of that last line above and I'll just leave it a little bit cryptic but it's not as narcissistic and selfish as it sounds, indeed it's not one single bit. It's precisely that each and every one of you deserve to know fulfilled dreams.
There are many gods, and may you find one now and be in good hands on your journey. Keep the mind open and always learning. Forgive the self and forgive others both immediately, but of course there are reasonable amends to always make. We are human, and we ere. Be good to another and don't over-complicate everything.
It's okay to ask for help, and when we all pray universe rings with such a beautiful Harmony and Melody. Praying is the music of the heavens, and God loves to hear it so sweet in his conscience's ear.
It's so very hard to describe what isn't, but what is at the same time also everything.
Forgive me.
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