Is it more frustrating and hurtful to have something within you that you cannot quite figure out how to express even if after years of studying, and research, and experience,... or to finally express yourself to be instead nearly wholly ignored, if not absolutely forgotten?
I'm kind of thinking about this as if I were a neural network, would this use just about the same neurons and pathways to create this reaction in the mind to follow with a change in the chemicals of the animal body, this extremely sophisticated body.
What gets one stoked with emotion ??? Passion...and what better passion hat that needs for years... so where does its ghost in the machine appear from ???
I truly think we are absolutely already separate and defined before we inhabit the body, as well as after.
I'm truly no different a soul than I have ever been, I have experienced more and be able to express myself better for a while until the downhill slide, however, my essence is and always has been and always will e the exact same as a spirit in an animal body observing and sharing in this journey.
I am so deeply very thankful for all of the experience and all of the journeys I feel bestowed upon me, however in my own essence probably willing sought after it and defiantly ordered and commanded exactly the adventures I am experiencing, and I already knew before my revival that I would be reappearing to observe GREAT events that would come to pass, and indeed they have only just begun.
I know Who I AM exactly, and I know Who They Are Trying To Create.
CyborgSteve...
