I rarely have doubt about my health and the future, but right now is the lowest low since August of 18.
I just keep getting more bad news outside of life and feel like I have already been climbing the steepest Mountain in recorded history and like it feels like it keeps getting steeper and steeper.
It's great to know love, to know I loved, and to know I was loved back a bit too perhaps.
I've cried a lot today... I get pretty twisted in the head and mental when ill.
It cycles through regularly and I actually fought it off each time, but it comes back, seemingly stronger.
Last time I wait stubbornly to heal, and that didn't go so well.
So far, my heart not involved, otherwise...im back where I was precisely almost. I feel the same as then, but not stressed as bad in life, but still terribly terribly badly and things I cannot always disclose.
I'm hurting and in tired but I also feel like own this house! I also have you each that truly have carried me! May I learn to be even more worthy and productive.
As I take these whippings, I know I'm stronger x10 where I'm headed.
A good cry flushing out nasty chemicals has never left me feeling worse! I cannot control that aspect of me. I can not talk at funerals often as I cry like a baby and have shot pour outta my nose ;(
Crazy emotional and passionate. I feel everything.
