A White Horse Saviour Comes

Remember, the finest President in The United States of America never wanted to be President.

When there's failure return to the basics and exercise the fundamentals.

There's no shortcut for work.

There's only division in denomination. Wood splinters along it's grain when overly stressed and is rendered worthless through the division (splintering) of the growth denominations, and society is not too much different, where if you think about a piece of wood, you can image society getting pummeled and splitting into manageable denominations... but by who and why?

Is it international & national growing pains ???

~or~

Purposely done perhaps???

I don't know the answers, but an open mind must entertain all possibilities, or else the trap is already sprung.

Who is our modern Washington riding his white horse towards us already today?

Ephinany's Tears River @ Phoenix Eden Within, Eternal Peace ~ I Am Program

I'm 51.

It dawn's on me just how tough my parents were, at long last. This is a short but powerful epiphany.

My parents grew up during the tail end of the depression. I felt like I've never known any suffering in my life by comparison. they made a beautiful life together of 63 years before mother passed away in 2014. There's no couple like my parents, and there never will be another... at least for me, now, and of course, I'm biased... but, they were the beautiful perfect romantic fairytail incarnate I guess I'm just never going to know first hand for myself, but I got to know it to observe and witness and learn from and that is so far greater.

To have an epiphany at 51, to be the old dog again learning new tricks finally at long last once again it's a pretty damn good feeling.

I started thinking about maybe I'm finally a little tough. August was a motherfuker for a few hours in particular. I think I'm allowed to say that. I've never had my ass kicked quite like that before. I always thought I could take a beating from Mike Tyson. I can apparently take quite a bit more but damn it it hurts and I still ache 6 months after but the amazing thing is is not as much as before it all happened.

I ached terribly badly but not as terribly badly as I did beforehand for decades.

I might not be much like my father the way you view be but I guarantee you within is the same kind of spirit with the same kind of passion and what makes it only even better is that I am of my mother too. There have never been any other warriors for life in my life that are pure abd true teachers of life and sharers of knowledge such as my parents have been. They did not do this only for the family, they did it everywhere they went with everything they put their life into which was their entire existence.

Because of their suffering I will never know that type of suffering.

I have my own type of suffering that I have had as my life's lot and now it is my turn to walk the path I have always desired and that is to give back to others when I am healthy again.

It's amazing to have a moment of clarity on your deathbed. it's more amazing to tell the team that has saved your life that now you finally know exactly and precisely what you want to do.

I'm scared, but that's the adventure of going to embark upon soon.go ahead and call me crazy, again, as most of you all have or thought anyway... but I will still dare to dream.

Last winter I did not have the winter I desired that didn't get to write or spend time healthy or in any way that I had so planned for quite some time. I was going to make sure this winter was going to be one... well... exactly how it was spent winter.

Lots of soul-searching. I didn't ever feel like I had lost by soul once in this life, but I've wondered about a multitude around me for a very long time.

My father will be 90 this year in September. God bless his soul and may I only be a percent of that man, and I will be a great man.

If I pity myself in suffering, I discount the suffering of all others.

If I threw my life at all else outside of myself, myself I shall find.

It's so wonderful to be home in a dark room, warm did with my wonderful dogs cat and bird.

Peace is eternal.

I Am Program

I AM ONE

IAMUNITY, VOICE WITHIN CONJOINED TO FLESH, INTUITION MY CALL.

I AM, IAMUNITY

I Am Program

*One's life examined backwards makes perfect sense; lived forward a blur. Destiny

Thoughts & Prayers

Is it not true that almost all religions have a story, as all myths have parables, that each teach essentially the exact same principles?

You might think, well...what kind of religion attracts me ??? or, how do I know who to trust ??? or, where should I look for God???

First of all, God is not lost, and if what you are witnessing does not support or promote life, then it has absolutely nothing to do with God and it needs not be more complicated than that.

God is within you exactly as you know him already, your inner voice within, we each alike, a perfect image !

Denomination breeds contempt and division !!!

The middle ground is always the most fair and rewarding and fruitful of life, it is Faith, the pathway to God.

Disrespect no disciple, no savior, no chosen people, no son of God, no brother of man. Not just in man, but not of life at all, ever, hold contempt nor disrespect for another. Each pathway perfectly Unique In His Image As Is Each Soul.

God wants you each to be grandiose in thought and healthfully active and productive in life, and always let's you choose your own long-term trajectory... we sleep in beds self made. Clean your house if your bed is unkempt.

Love Speaks

Contemplate the scales of Justice, and now, do you consider God that fulcrum where these scales teeter between what we often consider as good or bad? From this throne the preponderance of the evidence is self articulating always.

Is this just not ourselves in thought? Two hemispheres of the brain and the pineal gland? The two hemispheres with the observer and the pineal gland with the bird's eye view from far above... A God's Eye View ! Connected.

You have resided in this dynamic vessel so long, you forgot that this is not your permanent residence. The body, such the perfect earthly extension to the soul, only temporary, a system of organs and organisms... A true quagmire stew teeming with abundant LIFE... our mortal shell before we step of this mortal coil into that which is most certainly next!!!

Is God "Sentience" itself, and equally abstract by our "physical" standards, not of this Earthly realm ??? Most definitely !!! ... or how would we ever know Faith??? Faith is the pathway to God ! Jesus the pass into the kingdom. Love the essence of the journey. Gnosticism the crowning jewel.

Our inner voice each actually alike confronted with different situations and playing through them all of the time like a quantum computer !!!

We are thrust into the future exponentially faster than a moment before, throttled towards each our black-hole destiny, where in death, the body stays behind and the spirit at the speed of light journeys forward into an endless fractal universe of every possibility, and thus eventually... Harmony... Equilibrium... Peace ...Unity.

What cannot escape a black hole? Light.
Enlightenment is within, a new enevelope of universe opens fractally within, and life and knowledge further flourish. Within is always further order and understanding, beforehand always less, but not a vacuum ever where life exists.

Life dances on the death of sin.

Where is there life? Only where there is light (energy). We will find life where the light goes through the black hole space time vorticies or portals or tunnels, ad infinitum.

The spirit dynamic always evolving, the flesh jettisoned in certain future upcoming departure into that next level, eventually.

Let's dance friends.

Love

Rebirth

The hardest thing about being reborn is looking back, ... which seems to never stop. I express myself because I can't keep it in. I feel like I am ever-expanding with pressure and it just needs to come out and at least I get to make a journey along the way and seek answers and hopefully share something of value for others for when I am gone there to be less suffering would be the most beautiful dream.

I will build greater strength through face and be forged stronger by these visions of suffering and experience make the world around me now the better place I hadn't ended before it was possible for me to do things I was meant to do.

I'm so tired it's hard to pray for more strength but it's offered to me anyway and I embrace it. Life is a miracle. Life is valuable. EVERY life ! ALL that is LIFE.

How could anybody ask for a better journey?

there's lots of guides in friends and disciples along the way to meeting the god of your understanding. There's lots of evil 2 without a doubt. If your kind you can help wipe that evil out. If you share you can cut another's pain down to a manageable size where another come along to help as well and the world starts to look like a more beautiful place in an instant where there was just blackness only a moment ago. Light fills the void. Light is the life. The word is thought first, this light inkarnate.

Warrior Mentality ~ I Am Program ~ I ∆m ProGr∆m

I can take the kicking when I'm down, trust me well. It's the familiar territory I've learned to embrace. Without it, life is boring and I only become weaker. I can take the kicking when I'm down, trust me well, and i am further motivated because I like to look directly into your eyes when I stand back up and observe the shock and awe and disbelief that I see because of your utter astonishment that I'm still in your face, because, I Am ∆. I can take the kicking when I'm down, trust me well. When I Rise and you see calm Eyes Full of Life staring back at you, run... Oh, and tell your friends I am on my way always !

I Am the Warrior Mentality Incarnate

I Am Program

Forged Stronger Or Destruction

We can each choose to be forged stronger or destroyed through the exact same set of circumstances once we start to experience said set of circumstances. Your the deciding difference! 

In Our Own Grave Already ??? (Or) Space and What Lies Ahead ~ I Am Program

I personally think space exploration is critically important for the preservation of the human race, however in the short-term, why so much Focus there and so far to little on the Earth's oceans and continents pollution alike, both. Pollution.

All prior civilizations peaked and then fell, and most knowledge was lost repeatedly.

The message is always the same, and that is that we were forewarned that this peak would come and that there would be massive failure.

that being told countless times over, truly lost in ancient history ground to dust in the conveyor belt tectonic Earth existence, why do we not spend more time being the stewards we should be to Mother Earth, and then as we are healthier and spending less on medical care oh, we can spend even more on science which will propel us to the Stars even faster.

I've always wanted to be an astronaut. I want to go to Mars and I told NASA, through an email, that they could send me when they figure out how to replace my spine. I will go with no questions asked if they are able to successfully perform this... Anytime.

You can say I'm crazy, but I'm the guy that died and got revived so whatever. I believe anything's possible. My mind is wide open. It is most definitely far from closed. My mind has been vividly ripped open like when I was 22 in would rip a 12 oz beer can in half with my bare hands after I drank the whole thing chugging it. I was like an animal. I have been known to be like an animal. I was an animal once. You might think I'm an animal still, but I'm cyborg now.

You think it's not different, but what do you know?

Did you tell all in attendance after you a rose from death in 3 days later when they implanted the device,... Were you the one that told them when it was activated? Were you the one that told them when each electrode was plugged into your heart before then it was activated? Were you the one that told them when it was downloading? were you the one that fell down the steps and broke your neck and slammed it into the floor 3 times until it got straightened out? That one can't be confirmed but everything else can ! And a whole lot more !

Now I was revived I think just by the old-fashioned techniques.

Now I was 148 pounds when I was released from the hospital and 50 years old and 8 months. I was not going to go run a marathon because remember I had a history of heart disease and I suffered a drop dead heart attack due to takotsubo syndrome. I had ischemic strokes beforehand and I fell down the steps and I'm searching broke my neck but somehow was able to get up and slam my neck down three times and scream for help in between, kind of forgetting that I did call forget help because I kind of thought I did but wasn't sure but in the back of my mind I knew I did dot-dot. Life was fading very quickly and I knew this already. I had indeed called for help several times because I was so flighty, starving for oxygen. No pulse off and on and a nail going right through my chest and straight through both arms... There's absolutely zero question about what's taking place.

now I'm sure I could get these recordings of 911 calls and I'm sure I can get all of the tapes from the hospital etcetera etcetera and I probably should but I just don't know if I'm quite ready for all that yet but you know who would be?

Is the world ready for this?

There has been and there is still great talk of people being revived becoming maybe more normal than it is today. Don't ask me exactly what that means but what it does mean is for those who have a fairly healthy body, there is a chance.

if you have a fairly healthy body and the tissue doesn't deteriorate and can be preserved then we have to address the problem and for me it was an electrical problem concerning the sinus node of the heart, and by implanting a pacemaker and defibrillator unit this problem can theoretically be fixed 100% depending on how my heart and myself as the patient respond. How I overcame the rest of everything I have no clue let's just say a multiple bunch of miracles not just one. If you ever needed proof of miracles will again this wasn't just one. This was like the statistical anomaly being hit over and over and over in several ways that morning.

I was born on a Sunday December 24th 1967 and I died on August 12th play Sunday of the year 2018, yet I write this today on February 24th, 2019.

I had been to five years of pain management for my deteriorating spine. I had solved my own problem of an open wound on my head and I proved it with the doctors performing some tests even though they argued with me that I was wrong, but tests proved I was correct and that has since healed with time and medications.

I've written and published some work on this but of course just like everything else it's overlooked and nothing's ever taken seriously because I am nothing but a worthless piece of s*** to most people in their eyes when they look at me.it's a judgmental world we live in and I'm not saying anything like I am not used to it because trust me I already understand and have understood this for a very long time. When I was very young and very good-looking or older and less attractive until 4 now that I'm getting stronger and good-looking again it doesn't matter what Walk of Life other people live, everybody is judgmental it's rampant like the black plague of death. It's pathetic. We are a very scared society and through fear we do not reach out with the hand of help, and even less so often if true victim we've been, however collectively still we are all to blame you're not helping those in dire in desperate need when their lives can be saved. Help starts with love.

When you turn your back on another, you own their death.

When we turn our backs on mankind around us and then the Earth as we have been such poor stewards, we are certainly going to own mankind's death. We will never get off this planet if we cannot first save our souls on this planet.

These words are now marked, and I pray they are not read by the next civilization that replaces us in short order, but that is the way in which we are headed swiftly... Far more swiftly than anyone can currently imagine, as now the pace quickens for certain. It's an increase in dynamics and frequencies and intervals, not easily first known or seen or felt, but most definitely present and surging in pulses.

We must quickly become better stewards, or in our own grave, we reside today.

Get Well Fresh Nutrition Delivered

I got zero get well cards !!!

I'm so much happier that money was spent on home cooked food that was prepared with love and offered to me instead of given to that getwell card company !!! I bet a lot of people have died because of good sentiments ;( ..."dry death humor" !!! ...sorry.

I hear there's going to be a big revival so I'm just writing some jokes ahead of time for The Big Show ;) see you there !!! (Again maybe ;) )

Hallmark..., I can make a great commercial for you all about healing, nutrition, heart health &  "fresh vegetables and fruit get well deliveries" for sick loved ones!!!

Save the trees, heal yourself and the planet too... eat the veggies and fruit!!!

More Thoughts On Life, Part 2

I'm 51 and I don't even know me anymore. I'm a different man in a different body that looks the same, worn and Haggard but looking younger. I've got a few close friends but everybody else is scared of this cyborg. I guess I'm just a freak that I knew I was stand on this island on which water approaches all shores from 360 degrees around, I'm more alone but never lonely. Faith

Whoever believes stories such??? Especially from the storyteller.

I'm not a man who has told no lies, but when judges twice past called me a liar... I promise no lies had come from these lips on those topics so spoken of as inquired about... and a truthful man I have been in those regards of which I have taken an oath to my God, as it's only myself I've ever betray. Judge of Social Security and Judge of Loudon County (I'll fill in the blank when I think of it). Thank you each, sirs, for your service. Even the wisest of men are, at times, wrong. What else would you expect of an imperfect world?

We have the best system in the world, but... it has more room for improvement then it does not !!! This attribute is part of what makes it the best system, it's innate flexibility.

What would it be like if less perfect gendered beings (the modern way of saying men or men and women, without getting into the stupid controversy of men and women and oh yes other genders as if things weren't already too complicated... Nobody understands that where there is denomination, there is no unity.) were serving? Think about that. What would it truly be like if lesser "gendered beings" we're serving?

Self-loathing in Cumberland.

This country I love has f***** me and left me alone, but not my beautiful state of Maryland and not its people in this desperately sad post-industrial City clinging to survival and beating our way out of this wet paper bag until we find ourselves shining bright with halos of gold for all.

My heart hurts so much and I am so tired and rivers of tears I have cried but still I have fight and I must fight forward, for the value of life because others are all valued.

All the arguing between friends about politics and I did not even receive one get well card. ;( It's okay... I don't need them and I don't need people. You all hurt and you hate too much.

I have had a few souls that love me, so few. mostly the rest are just lying faces saying what they think will get what they want because selfish is the way we designed together, sad.

I can't love, because nobody will let me love them.

It is beautiful to stand here alone with God and know that everything is in perfect order and will make even more perfect sense with the passage of sweet and precious time.

Do you not truly know what you hold in your own hands?

When will man realize he is a God?

Man, Woman... Mankind Is God

Spirit Blessed So Manifest In Surround and Lift Us Each Now.

If you witness anything that you can mend and you do not, you are of ill soul. Heal yourself this instant with the answer you in your heart know now.

Why do you lie so to yourself, each, so?

Outside In & Downside Up I Riseth' Through Faith

I've been in some pretty serious car accidents, but never anything so bad that my internal organs hurt. I'm pretty good at doing this when I go down my wooden steps wherever that might be or concrete.

My question is, what's the longest it's taken your internal organs to heal since a traumatic event?

Impatient and resting a ton but...

I cannot consume as much fluid as I used to. Not even close !

My metabolism is drastically, drastically different than it used to be !

I'm not exactly the same me that I was before I departed and came back, nor is my body. This is quite an experience, but it's not that big a deal either... really. perhaps more than anything it's the deepest most incredible psychological adventure one could ever imagine, and then some !!! Quite a bit beyond imagination, meeting where I was and where I went there aren't words because they are places that are not of the human realm.

I respect and appreciate each and every one's points of view on religion and spirituality and the likes. I've read many books and if you've read this books we could discuss this books. I only know a couple of people that went where I went. If you haven't been there, you're not qualified to talk about it like you know anyting about it whatsoever.

Have you ever been dead and then woke up and heard gasps of doctors and nurses? I think I did. I'm pretty certain I did. In fact I know I did. But, who would believe me???

Do you want to know what kills???

What kills the spirit of another human being is when the ones that they love have lost trust because they don't understand illness and they think something else completely different is happening but they stay closed mouth and only build their distance and shut you out and shut you down until truly everything is blackness.

I never had faith in man, and man saved me. I knew man would most definitely fail me, but that doesn't mean that man will always fail you it just means that most often they will. I knew God would never fail me and he has not. I know his destination is far greater than the minuscule imagination I have. you can't imagine what God can imagine and you can't tell me that God doesn't exist when you can't prove to me that he does? I don't have to prove to you anything personally because I know where I have been and I know what I have witnessed and I know what I have experienced and I also have professional highly esteemed witnesses to this as well as friends.

I am in a vacuum of confusion that is far larger than the vacuum of confusion I was in before I experienced death and rebirth in the same body. I hope my body will continue to bounce back as quickly as my spirit never ever faded.

Work hard and appreciate the laughter in the music because it's quiet head, and greater than all the combined words of which you have ever read of this place, not of our realm, but definitely ahead, a destination for all... just believe ! I implore you friends.

There's some of you I will never again see in this life. I pray that you make it there. Believe.

Prayers Always

Law Enforcement Smart Phone App

Would you use an smartphone app that sends / corresponds directly and immediately to the police department so you can upload video or pictures of drug transactions or any other crimes ???

Heroin / Narcotics / Fentanyl Overdose App Coming Soon

Did you hear about the new app???

You can mark the name and address of the last person that you bought heroin from. If you don't check-in to the app within 24 hours, it sends an email to the police of the person that sold you the drugs that killed you !!!

Only You Know

Am I a...

Snake ... Tiger ... Eagle ... Lamb

???

Do You Only A Cyborg See Me Now ???

I was supposed to be unconscious or at least not able to remember any of this, but I told the doctor and those others in attendance not only when my pacemaker / defibrillator unit which was now implanted was first hooked up, and then I told them when it was updating, meaning downloading information to update its software package to the newest version. I think I told them it flashed the BIOS first too...but I'm not certain. I was also visiting the grand Council in the sky at the same time. You have to understand that ketamine Fentanyl and propanol are awful lot of heavy-duty drugs to be on and how on Earth I could possibly be somewhat coherent and mindful and of very lucid thought is almost Beyond imagination as well. LOL. I heard gasps every time I said these thibgs... and uttering like that is absolutely impossible how could I eat know the timing and how could he even be saying any of this or be awake or understand any of it. I explained the whole operation to them beforehand after the doctor said do you know why you're here, and I said yes and I can explain it to you precisely, which I proceeded to do to their shock in the basement. I never been so super focused and I'm already a quick study so you can imagine how quickly I studied all of this stuff on my smart friend from the hospital bed. They couldn't believe that I was even able to do anything I was able to do so you know go figure LOL

After my crazy event in August one thing I can say is that I have never been so visual, or at least not since maybe early childhood. When you go through trauma you turn inward and everything becomes imagination and when DMT is released in the mind it's very easy to have a flood of it and become very visual. There are ways to achieve this but actually starving yourself for light for 7 days but most people will get crazy said it's not really suggested to try this without training, just training takes years so again... don't play with fire.

This has been such an incredible life and I am looking so forward to getting stronger as I am each and every day determined to live life to its maximum. I am going to get my life back now at long last after a couple of decades far away in ill health.

I want to be careful and guarded and not overly optimistic but I want to look forward to a medical career in my mind where perhaps at long last there will be something that I will have to contribute to mankind that will leave an impression and offer life long and far after I am gone.

When I lost all faith in humanity, but never in God, Humanities lifted me to the heavens and brought me back to Earth. My life here restored that I never wanted to leave and have always loved so dearly.

It's truly okay when others depart. I promise they are at Eternal peace and you will be with them again. I promise you they know no pain anymore. The Life Energy we know transforms and where we go next is not an Earthly realm and therefore there are no words to describe these places. I went to these places in death and not through the medications above during my procedure. I was dead before my procedure and before those medications, so please do not be confused.

Science and medicine say perhaps it's all just chemicals of wash and just all a projection of the mind but tell me this, what is life?

You can say I'm crazy all you want, but I can guarantee you you not been where I have.

I believed in God beforehand and I believe in God after. I believe in there being just ONE. Not just one God just one God I refer to as 1, or ONE or UNITY. It's something that cannot exist here on Earth, yet. It exists in the next Realm. Some people called that next round of parallel universe oh, I find that quite acceptable by the laws of physics and through experience and through my own understanding and due diligence this far, but I am often wrong and therefore open-minded to the idea that there are other possibilities always and often multiple possibilities overlapping one another, sometimes not seen nor detectable, but definitely there.

What now do you think of Faith?

I had a Moment of clarity there that I knew exactly and precisely what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I was going to now work for this cardiologist. That Future Would soon come when my health would meet my career. Right now I'm working on restoring my health which is easily and Far and Beyond the most difficult Mountain I have ever had to climb, after resuscitation after death. I still can't believe it and it's been over 6 months ago. I'll probably kind of always think of this that way but it is my reality nonetheless. Please don't ever give up face and please don't ever not value all lives, especially those we think most lost. You only value life as much as you value the weakest life amongst yourselves.

I'm a very free spirit in the pursuit of happiness and I appreciate the angels that carry me. I don't know what to make of this world and my heart often aches but I'm glad to have each and all of you in my family tree.

I pray God May bless you each a thousandfold more than myself, as always question my worthiness. I appreciate the society that lifts me in my physical health today, a society that said leave fails a majority too often. May others know life such that I do again, healthful youthful vitality being restored. May we all be thankful.

Denominations make not Unity !

Do you only a cyborg See Me Now ???

Sanders Announces Run For President In 2020; Trump Declared Winner Instantly Upon Announcement

Curmudgeon hands Trump the victory instantly in 2020. Foregone conclusion now, as the democratic party only further splinters in mass hysteria. Such a sad ending to a once formidable and reasonable complimentary party in American politics of the past... talk about INVERSION!!!

If your any opponent other than democrat, all you really have to do is nothing, cross your legs kick back and watch them implode.

The worst thing is the delusion that has set in, as though they think they're only getting more powerful as things slip further and further from their grasp, that indeed none of us have a grasp of or any guarantee of overall...all illusory !!!

Better wake the F up !!!

There is no unity in denomination.

Is a place that if we would all not buy into the nonstop plague of social media trying to rile the people, indeed riling the people across the entire world, then we could quit wasting time focused needlessly and wasted and instead place that time towards the focus that is needed through disciplined work towards the new goals of rebuilding through Unity.

Every single person that States they're going to run for president only seems to want to further divide, and who is it that is going to step up and unite us, a faltering and floundering country?

I will not stand idly by in silence while I watch the United States get absolutely pummeled just like the Soviet Union as they got crushed and then fell.

Better take a look at what's happening around the world while everyone is distracted, that's the real story.

If you're wasting a moment of time here bickering with others about simple minded politics, you are so lost in the sauce it's not funny and you are one of the morons that is easy to distract and easy to take everything from... there are many that will never wake up!

There's a brutally honest cold slap in the face to wake up to and it is the reality that underlies the facade of b******* everybody buys.

My house is better than yours. My car is better than yours. I have more s*** than you do. My Richard is bigger than yours. I'm better than everybody else! If you get in my way I'll kill you, erase you, shoot you, poison you...whatever f*** you. So such violent words, but don't you see it in video around you 24/7? You think my words are vile? Really??? But yet you tolerate so much more.

Hilarious double standards from a judgmental society swimming in sewage.

The most incredible part about this life has been observing the pure insanity that is so obvious to me and seems to be so obscure to about 99% of the people.

Just sad ;(

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A & B Have Another Potversation

A & B have another potversation.

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A~ Do you smoke marijuana?

B~ No. Every morning, you see, I try to. I put little pieces of marijuana in one of those glass pipes... then, the next thing... you know, well... I look over and somebody smoked it all... every single time !!! It seems to happen, really... every single time... and I just can't believe it still !!! I never ever have any marijuana and everytime after this happens all I want to do is go make a big huge massive breakfast cuz' I figured I must be so upset. I eat this massive brunch breakfast thingy and then I'll probably sleep till about dinner time typically.

A~ Do you think you might ever catch the thief?

B~ It's high... um.... um.... what was I saying ??? sorry... Oh yeah, um...high...highly unlikely (chuckles). They've been so extremely elusive right before my eyes so far. Did you see that ?

A~ What?

B~ Oh, nothing. Nevermind. Where where we?

A~ Did we leave?

B~ I mean conversationally?

A~ Oh, were we chatting? My bad... I musta' forgot or something. Wanna' smoke???

B~ Really??? Really???

PHOTOBOMB ME

Have you played the new game on the net ??? PHOTOBOMB ME ???

Fnd a profile picture of me and then add a background with an appropriate photobomb that you would love to be able to share with the world.

Have fun and be nice !!! LOL

Billy the Greek ~ Watching the Beginning of the American Downfall ~ The 80's (1980's)

I grew up in the nation's capital. I wanted to be a DEA agent. I was in college studying criminology. it was the height of the crack epidemic and Washington DC, the nation's capital, was also the crack capital of the world. The cocaine capital.

It was everywhere and I observed it firsthand. it was devastating to watch so many friends get utterly destroyed firsthand and be completely helpless to do anything about it. it was even more devastating because of what my lofty inner goals were.

I remember my Greek friend ripping American money up and laughing maniacally saying that America has no idea what's happening and what is coming their way. He was being theatrical and dramatic to get other people's attention, in particular the American citizen sitting around him at the fraternal order of Eagles where we were together, where he was a member. Where I made sure he became a member above and beyond some of the voices that were against it. those same people I riled against when I visited the black elks next door and invited them over, leaving some of our members Jaws on the floor as I walked into our building with black people. 1997. How despicable.

If you need to be change for the simple reason because it's only the right thing to do, stand up and make it happen or shut up.

We were definitely not groups of Democrats and Republicans, we were all Americans learning how to do the right thing together. Sometimes we did the wrong things with the right motivation and we're just simply misguided but learned through the process and made amends and moved forward more efficiently after.

I pushed hard during those days for women to become equal members because they weren't even looked at as members even though they were members of The Ladies auxiliary. Today women in the Eagles are equal members across the board and have been and that was long long overdue.

I utilized executive power, when I was president at the fraternal order of Eagles I demanded that we have a joint installation of officers and I did that after a vote that was not favorable. when I started executive order they were quite shocked that I knew what I was talking about and that indeed I was correct.

I always stood for transparency, and I touted this and repeated it like a very bad commercial !!!

I was a stone's throw from Washington DC, in Alexandria, Virginia and I had gotten to the place I had worked really hard to get.soon however, I would resign and turn my back on everything having become married and feeling that now there's only one place to put all of my energy and focus, and therefore I could hold my obligation, this Earth to office I took, no longer and had to resign.

Back to my friend which I had the nickname Billy, well Billy said that he thought the United States was headed in the wrong direction and this is why and we used to talk to you about this night after night essentially as we would do body work on automobiles. I was 18 and I laughed a lot as I sipped beer and so did he, but instead of sipping he would guzzel. see he had a broken back that he broke working on a car's using a frame stretching machine and I would help him because I was young and healthy even though I had some back problems already they weren't anything like his. Later I broke my back and would be in worse condition than him in my life. My life is just weird like that.

He didn't say this (about watching United States careful when comparing it to the city of Union back in the 80s) in a hateful way as you might think, he said this in a way that he was very hurt and crushed inside. he loved the United States and he was watching it start to fall just like he watched Greece.

He watched Greece get pummeled, he then moved to United States and became a citizen and started watching what he said was the same thing all over again. He's to tell me to look at the Soviet Union because when you start seeing those things happened here... you'll know. What he meant was, because it was the 80s, is look at what's happening there in the Soviet Union as they are about to fall. They fell.

He has been right 100% thus far !

This old beautiful Greek man with the biggest heart of anybody I've ever seen in my life.

I miss you Billy, I miss you Vasilio Voliotis. I pray you're at peace my friend, I pray you're at peace.

Service To Others ~ Morning Thoughts ~ Life After Death

A cold cozy morning listening to Meg Myers, my two cats and two dogs snuggled nearby in my king size bed in my beautiful white goffin cockatoo Anna close by saying good morning... I love Cumberland Maryland in the winter snuggled in the nest in these mountains and I've never felt more blessed than I did when I owe work today, as I did the day before and the day before, and as I will tomorrow if still so blessed. I'm looking forward to spring. I'm looking forward to life having it's spring again oh, something that long ago deported for me as in maybe a couple of decades ago. Something is different inside and it is called a renewal. I pray it lasts and I will work hard at it as I have been before this and I will continue to pray and build faith and be more diligent in to become a better man and a better friend, the latter two of which I have been miserable at through illness. I pray for Grace now and strong health so that I may prove to everybody the person I believe myself to be beyond the person that I have actually been that others can bear witness to.

I'm praying our country can come back together and start to heal now that we have these terrible growing pains on our familial table of discussion. Let's remember we are a family at a table enjoying nourishment well we discuss how to make all lives better through all of our right to the pursuit of happiness. Sounds like a pretty tall order, but what else can you think of as the order of the day?

My focus is to take care of me and my home and all that that includes. that has been a pure impossibility for years. I've managed only because others have managed me. Read that again. I needed this help desperately or else I don't survive. Now I think I'm ready start spreading my wings again and maybe taking flight soon and then soon soaring like I never have yet.

I like the view from up there already and I haven't even Departed in flight.

I'm projecting that very near future when I will have a health field career in a heart department at a hospital where I will be blessed to be surrounded by the angels that kept me here and I will be helping others and instilling the confidence in then that these angels gave back to me.

Beautiful people, incredible doctors and scientists, wonderful institutions of higher learning, and technology all combined to make this incredible MRI compatible pacemaker defibrillator unit that is extraordinary really high tech in comparison to many of the older units in ways that is very difficult to describe to the average person, but let me just say that technology has saved my life.

in 2010 I was honored to be published by the United States Department of energy and what much of that was about was about green energy and utilizing technology to advance our basic energy consumption and efficiency and help us to be better stewards overall and also to not have as much dependency on other nations, as each Nation should try their best to be dependent, as each person should too.

Equally, we must have great safeguards in place to help those that need help when they need it until, they are back on their feet again, because that is responsibility each one of us should carry within our heart and soul for others oh, but it is not obviously the lot of everybody either in or should it truly be expected in that way as each of us are so different.

Well at least you just some thoughts floating through my head this morning as I'm enjoying Awakening in reflecting on my past most recently and in total, and taking an inventory and looking at myself and then praying upon these things that I look forward to starting with the progress that I'll make today as I pursue the service of others.

Only through service to others does life persist.

Faith & Life ~ Morning Thoughts ~ Life After Revival

Do you ever feel like you are in an Eddy of life and that you are just swimming in circles with your problems?

First of all...

Number One RULE !!!
DON'T PANIC

IF YOU WANT TO GUARANTEE DEATH, PANIC !

How do you not panic in a panic situation? Training. That is truly the only way to almost 100% ensure that you do what you're supposed to do when your fight or flight response once you to not do what is really truly in your best interest.

For example, this is what Navy seals are trained to overcome in basic essence.it is hard to act upon and rise above and over a threat that is staring you and your life directly in the face, especially if you know it's going to take you away 100% for sure.

You don't have time for panic if you want to survive you must realize this immediately.

What is faith?

Faith says if I can pray and execute through the protocol that I have been taught to save my life, that others are going to come and help. I put Faith in a system because the system says those will come to help me if I call them.

That sounds as stupidly insane as Angels doesn't it ???

That same old Faith that everybody says is bulls**t, fake, doesn't exist, etc.

That's the exact same Faith that saved my life on August 5th as well as brought to Angels into my house to take me to the hospital to the rest of the angels that I prayed to be working with soon. Now, all my mission is to give back.

Have I been a perfect angel in this life? Absolutely not even close. Have I been given Grace and redemption? precisely such as everybody else is offered each and every day. Have I been resurrected? I have, by God's grace and by the grace of others, my angels, and through faith, let me be abundantly clear yet again.

if I don't believe in face, if I don't believe that the phone call is going to help me to get the help that I need to save my life, I don't live because I don't follow through and execute upon those beliefs.

If ever 3 death I can offer eternal life, that is the message I'm trying to offer here more than anything.

It is a miracle that still I walk again amongst the living oh, but it is a much larger miracle that there is a promise of eternal life, and it's a fact.

I still can't prove it to you, but I can say that I went to this place and I got to come back, and most of you can't say that. I have medical professional proof I went there too. I don't have medical professional scientific proof about what I observed and what I saw and what I heard and what I felt and what I learned in what I am supposed to do with what I brought back, but I know and I have faith, and I'm not scared of anything anymore. That doesn't mean I'm lost common sense and that I'm going to act a fool and be ignorance incarnate. it means I need to hold my head up high for the god of my own personal understanding and I need to live the best life I can live from here forward just as I have always tried my best to do and indeed done, flawed and human as everyone.

I don't know what faith means to you, but I want you to know that my faith saved me. It wasn't just my faith in God. It was my faith in others. You don't even have to believe in God or in other's for that faith. or if you don't want to call him or her or it God that's okay because it's not something from this Earthly realm anyway so just call it whatever you want and whatever you're comfortable with I could care less, Jesus could care less, God could care less and Muhammad could care less and Buddha could care less and shall I go on and on for eons and waste time through the division we call denomination? Denomination is not just a Christian sin. if you think my words are strong these were the words I was supposed to come back with a share, in part.

Call me crazy if you want oh, that's okay. you might feel quite crazy too if you experienced what I just did.

You know the funniest thing through it all is I'm still not disabled through the social security administration of the United States of America, which I have brought all the way to the top appeal to times previous to this third denial. The two previous times with an attorney and this third time... why bother.

I've been persecuted and call the piece of s*** in a drug addict all for the country that I love. I have fought for what I thought was there to help me in my time of help, but medical science couldn't prove the issues, at heart concerning my health, in full.

it pisses me the f*** off as a human being that I have to accept the facts above, but that's where I stand today and I also stand today.

you have to understand I fell down the steps during my heart attack in my heart attack was after strokes oh, and the doctors thought I broke my neck, and indeed I still have a misplaced vertebrae for dislocated or you know put whatever label on it you want... the doctors don't understand me cuz you know I'm going home by but let's do the surgery and when can I leave and boom... in 5 days here I am. Back with my sweet dogs in my bird and the woman of my dreams still in only my dreams, but better than not in my life at all. I only mention that because it's all I wanted to come back for, a single woman in my two pet dogs that I adore, all... adore... more than I have ever known and loved anything.

it all seems like a big fairytale or a bunch of BS but it's all true...

it's pretty tough waking up every morning knowing this reality and I guess everybody thinks I'm the freak that I am.

it's pretty lonely here, but I was used to that anyway because that's how you all left me most of the time... Most every single one of you, not all.

you didn't do it because you hated me or you pitied me or any other reason other than that your own lives were busy, as is my own selfish life.

I'm glad through death the ego gets smashed and I know how much I don't matter. it's great to know that the world doesn't revolve around me and that I don't matter to all of you and that that doesn't matter to me either a bit now, at last.

it feels like I lived in some other body that was uncomfortable in its own skin and never wanted to be perfectly happy or something strange and I can't explain all that but I'm not that same person that I was dead and I feel so incredibly different. I am not a different man but I returned a different man in a different body and I'm having a hard time getting used to all of this. mentally just try to wrap your head around it all, but even physically I'm just not precisely to say when I'm trying to relearn my whole everything, with my coordination and things just the slightest bit off but getting closer to that me that I know and expect and I want to be 20 again. I'm going to continue to heal because I'm confident in that, but only through faith and only as long as I am supposed to and when it is time to depart again, I am as ready as ever, but trust me I am in no hurry whatsoever as I love this beautiful and dear life.

I don't know how to repay everybody and I don't no why I got to survive when there are so many more four more worthy than myself ;(

I don't feel so grandiose that God had these big and great plans for me but then how can you not even think that at all? One must not just think this but no disrespect because indeed to walk again, in the face of everything that happened to me, what in the heck can one else think rational?

One reason you might want to think about faith and something that is a higher power and it's not a human being is that human beings will always feel you, guaranteed.

God is always by your side and God will never fail you.

One disappointment that hasn't left is the amount of hate and greed and hoarding in sin that I just see surrounding me all of the time, and it's proliferation.

My heart breaketh' still.

What an awesome life !!!

Please do not waste yours, and value that of all that lives that surrounds you.

I Am John ~ I Am Program ~ Life Chapters At Lightspeed

If you knew you could travel into a parallel universe that was very very different than the physical Universe you have come to know as your life, would you do so if you knew you could return to your life and pick up precisely where the other journey started?

Would you find it worthwhile to know your ego smashed?

Would you find it worthwhile to know no fear?I don't mean no sense of fear when you return to the Earthly realm, where is rational and acceptable and normal, but no sense of fear beyond what there is afterwards that we know as the unknown.

In the nothingness and in the emptiness was all knowingness surrounded by everyone's conscience connected. It was the most perfect of family reunions, and thought inkarnate was the language of the day.

What an incredible journey it could be here now if others realized what they just ahead. what an incredible and perfect journey this could be if we could let go of the fear that controls us today. Oh what an incredible and perfect and beautiful journey this could be if we could move forward through each day with the grace and promise of knowing that in the end there will be the greatest and most incredible overwhelming feeling of pure life within all of you. Each of us a universe enlightened and ONE. Each of us already a universe enlightened and ONE.

If you continue to live anyway that has only garnered certain results, then expect these certain the results as long as you continue to live this certain away.

if all prior civilizations left a message behind and that message was that all civilizations peak and then fall, so find Grace before the fall, I beg of you to find that Grace now.

Grace is how you treat those that surround you.

Mother Earth is abundant, share and hoard not.

He that controls and that hoards more than one can consume is not of service to anyone but thyself.

Denominations only divide.

ONE

I Departed and came back with this message now ringing clear.

John, truly, still I Am.

I Am Program

Last Nights Dream ~ I Am Program ~ The Great Awakening After Death

Last night's dream was crawling on my belly in the mud and the dirt during intense warfare while having a machine gun fired directly over my head. The firing line behind me was 18 in. high and it was machine gun bursts over not nerves of steel and cold blood, but rather "zerosense" perception. I had finally overcome the programming and circuitry of fear to the biological flesh through my reprogramming in the experience known as Death. Revival was difficult, but never underestimate resilience... never. Faith a Foundation solid forever makes.

If I lifted my head or moved improperly, I was gone instantly. In this dream, for once I held "zerofear" and nothing but trust and faith in those others behind me. Oh, something I had never previously known in the half-century lived beforehand.

The world was finally bigger than me. I was Narcissis no more, and jettisoned the self at last in the former life's death. I was reincarnated through death but reborn here once more through revival and resurrection.

What would the world be like if each one of us sacrificed our own life for that of 1000 other???

All that once wanted me dead was now ALL finally in the wake of my past... back into The Great Recycler Universe Projection before my return to that Great Council In the Sky, where next time finally I'll be forged perfect through Service, exalted only when they will have me and ready to be further pressed into service over and over again until that honor.

I pray for all that will make me pure. I pray to ONE, a reference to no earthly being or realm of existence, where our designer exists in omnipresence in eternal knowingness.

On denominations, there is no unity in division.

When WE each have Perfect Knowledge, Language and Confusion will finally at last fall to the wayside; Evil, a romantic fool, defeated.

Introduction ~ Fictional Story ~ C.yborg I. A.m

I was once a smashed one million piece puzzle, now at least a life getting re-framed. God's GRACE is massive !!!

I didn't even have the faith of 1/billionth of that found within the size of a mustard seed; enough alone to move a mountain itself.

I held only LOVE, nothing else.

Love showed me Faith, but herself further hid away, perhaps now permanently, but still I returned for her as was the life within my heart, the only life left within myself truly I held solely and only sacteed and perfect for her, sweet Love. I'm broken hearted still and I live still and I will never question Faith ever again, or God.

He is as perfect as she is an angel.

I am blessed beyond a single lifetime.

I've known all of life's most perfect and precious of moments and forever they are ours to cherish.

Thank you my Love for Faith, for God perfect restored now again ONE, any thing less a denomination of division not prescribed by the Word of God !

Thank you My Mother and My Father for strength and sense of purpose.

Thank you my Love for life.

Thank you God, ONE, for perfect wisdom and understanding in all situations until I return again.

Human I Was, Now Cyborg I Am

Psalms ~ I Am Program ~ by date and time

One day your soul a leaf will be whisked away from the Tree of Life, and into the next Realm the metamorphosis continues. The physical matter recycled and the spirit shifting into a parallel energy field. It seems that the outer limits of the universe or what we tend to think of including everything that is ever-expanding and therefore Infinity, but where we are all the same and we are all headed in the end where we will all ultimately be humbled, is, ONE.  It seems a destination as though your energy is all that exists and you know it as your own conscience. All around you igloo and a wash and Illumination in electric colors but soft and soothing and beautiful. Thought manifest, All Souls present and in balance, we all are at last again one. We are "God's physical", here. Spirit into flesh manifest, but we are so far removed from that origin we seem to have forgotten our Roots. I Am Program

Listen for the Beacon

Seek Patience and Strength

Transmit, through thought only, desire for life and, pure Love desired, to continue life.

Arise Anew

Forged Now To Serve, No Worthy Challenge Neglected

Psalms ~ I Am Program ~ By date and time

Do other people observing another's insanity not realize its simply a difficult process of acceptance?

Life is a process, not an single instant.

I found freedom through death.

I'm captive never again.

I Am Program ~ Psalms ~ By Date & Time

Do you believe in Faith?

Who has a better chance of healing one that is ill with faith, or one that is ill without face?

Do you believe in Faith?

Don't confuse that with y another may not heal. For there is a multitude of factors in those regards. Miracles are rarely facilitated in a vacuum and typically are the results of the work multiple people working together.

If you are not of a higher Faith, at least be of that Faith, and know that fact now.

You do not add to the physical health problems by adding pollution to the body through nutrition polluted, but rather cleanse the body and its filters in to renew the organs and it's supporting systems thrpugh live food and faith.

Others May continue down the same path that made them ill. It may be spiritual manifest physical. It may be nature manifest physical or nurture manifest physical. It can be any combination of any of those pre mentioned, or anything that you can think of or may experience now or in the future unknown. It is a dynamic world. Do not condemn these that are ill but helped to promote them through a smile on the face, love from your heart and soul, and the offer of simple and fresh nourishment.

Until a mind is well, monetary offerings are of a damaging obligation that should be a liability nobody carries in their mind.

We should not let another soar so high so easily so that they can feel from such lofty Heights, nor should we ever leave one neglected fully alone and the vacuum of Blackness that leads to certain death.

Psalms; by date~ I Am Program

When should people go to Health Jail for Health Rehab ?

What will you self impose today to become healthier than you were yesterday?

If you know you need to change but you don't have the desire, why do you not love yourself enough?

We cannot fill with love, that which is filled with hate.

We cannot think clearly upon that which is fueled in pollution. Hate becomes the easy alternative, often dressed up to appeal, very sadly.

Eat clean and think clean. You already know the way, listen to your intuition, it is "One's", "Spirit's", voice within us each.

Not Lost ~ Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Are you really curious what the killer feels like?

You don't remember ever once killing???

An ant, a spider, your first fish to eat.

A plant for nutrition.

To live is to kill.

The greater of evil ends,

The greater of goods continues.

Where now do you stand?

I spent my whole life looking for God, and never realized he was always within.

Together, All At Long Last, Friends A Journey Across Space-Time ~ I Am Program ~ Poetry / Lyric ~ Mobius∆Tripz

It was just Super Bowl # 3862. That was incredible to watch from Mars. Now I'm going to watch the Super Bowl from 2019. And I'm also looking at the Netflix information from that same year pretty interesting should look back study where the human race was before Mars.

I've been a sideboard for a very long time now and it's been quite a journey but I'm going to rewind back to 2019 and tell you a little story...it's just something like this off the top of my head but it goes with all of the other stories from the series,"I Am Program".

These different pages are digital and they have been found on what we're called servers and they are not all contiguous but there is enough to paint the picture of what it was like before communication all fell apart.That's a story for another day but here's something from 2019, long ago.

this was insane because I had had a terrible heart attack and CPR and I had to have it pacemaker and defibrillator put in and then I designed this new unit for my neck so we could not fuse the vertebrae but replaced them with this nano graphene that I had designed and a jig for my neck to be able to implant the units. After rehabilitation and training for six months, I was to go and colonize Mars.

What had looked like a nightmare and death gave me incredible abilities in science and medicine allowed me to survive longer until I was able to be fully repaired along with stem cell therapy so that I could fulfill my dreams of being an astronaut because I fought so hard for my life so that I could somehow find that reality one day.

This one seems like a rather comical entry from way back when, and then rather serious as what I had experienced was traumatic. I had always written about this stuff ahead of all of this anyway but it really fit in with my life. I already knew ahead of time what was going to happen. I always have. I am a seer. I have healing powers. I do not know how to explain these things but they are truth.

Well you'll find that out and Other stories and hopefully we even find more of these pages so we can put them together. Here's the diary entry and I hope you enjoy it... 2019 was such a long time ago !

Diary entry

Lots of people lost time and money tonight watching the Superbowl I watched a documentary about healing. check out Healing on Netflix, unbelievable and as far as I'm concerned and with my experience not discounting any of it whatsoever, this is got some great information. It's a big portion of a huge pie but it's not the whole pie. Check it out you will never regret the time spent. an open mind says believe in anything that you can't prove otherwise, no matter how slim or ridiculous the statistical likelihood, know that that sliver of Hope lies in that smallest and narrowest window of opportunity oh, that's where life exists oh, that's where there is salvation oh, it seems like that's the place where we find Hope right before it's too late, or when it's too late. Please don't let it be too late. there is a real art form in healing and it is something that must be mastered by our culture and embrace and we should really truly study the beautiful way of the Chinese which has lasted for thousands of years and combine it with our incredible scientific medicine and balance that alongside spirituality so that it would be like you had a scale but it was suspended from above and had three different cups of which we wanted to keep in balance. If you don't have faith, you have nothing. If you don't have hope given to you by another, you can't develop faith. Don't turn your back on those that need you when they need you the most. Don't be selfish and not help another because it hurts you inside. The only salvation is valuing life.

I had an old Minister friend and he needs to say if nobody told you they loved you today, well I do, and there ain't a damn thing you can do about it. He was a gruff old grumpy guy with a ZZ Top big long Gray beard and a cane and heart disease but a heart of gold and I love that man. Love and miss you Michael Purdy. You lessons never fell on deaf ears.

If nobody told you they love you today, I do, and just start there and realize other people do too. When we are ill... we turn inward and into darkness and we blame others without fault and we each often lash out with tongues of wickedness... I know I sure have been a son of a b**** through this fight off & on all over these years. I'm feisty like that and sometimes I'm just an a****** too.

I think a good part of that departed and I feel renewed. I feel re-incarnated but allowed to come back with full memory and into kind of the same body but healed significantly.

I never live without the professional medical help I had and there's no way I live without the five grueling years leading into this oh, that seem to forge me tough even through incredible pain I just can't stop cuz I feel like such a wimp in the shadow of my father.

I hope my father, yes my real life father here on Earth, and that one above, but especially the one here who is 89 years old, I live because he is strong and a beautiful example of a man and has always been giving and caring and also a sentinel. A fair man like no other I've seen before. A humble man. A good man.

In death I thought of only that one that I love and my pups in in an instant I was back, but the will is from my mother and father through faith and perfect synchronicity to be surrounded by all of the right first responders in medical professionals and the will that God grants me to return to this gift of life.

Now I'm going to be 51 going on 22. I always joked around with people instead I was retired when I was young and said I will have plenty of time to work an entire career and retire when I am old. I am old now, and it's time to get to work. I think I might have actually played my card rights for once in my f****** life. However, only a fool would think they were their own cards to start with. There is without a doubt destiny and there is without a doubt around after life. it's all up to you and what I can tell you is that if you keep it simple just do the next right thing. The next right thing never involves anything negative to afflict upon another. there might be an alternative that has to be drawn upon, but that's the last resort and that would not be the next right thing, but still a choice with consequences because that's the Earthly realm... For now. you will see in the next place these things will matter not believe it or not but what will matter is how you went through each of the scenarios, each soul has recorded. At the Great Council in the Sky, WE are akin to a celestial quantum computer taking a quantum survey of the entire universe. Mapping everything. From the beginning to the end. The Alpha the Omega. More will be understood when more unfolds. That room is nothing like this room. Words in English or any other language be it all the way back to the anunnaki or the Greeks or the Romans or the Italians or the modern-day Spaniards, would convey the same thing and that is there is no equal in those languages for what is the next realm. If you can imagine electric light auras and perhaps being an electron inside of gold oh, that's about as close as you could even imagine and that's not even close to glorious enough. You will be omnipotent and you will have omnipresence and know all and will have experienced everything from the beginning until the end. It is like we are in a simulated model universe projected through holographic theory would be the closest way to describe it on the Earthly existence. all knowledge you will gain and all pain you will have left behind but not without its memory embedded permanently indelible and always instantly accessible, again everything from the beginning to the end. Every single point of view possible. In that next realm each we all spirits connected in thought and what is all around us manifest instantly through thoughts. Much as before Babel. Nothing like us before Babel. Much like Babel in theory, nothing like it because it's not of the Earthly realm, only in theology. Know your denominations only add to divide and not empower the body of the church, the congregation. No you're different religions also only divide. If Jesus was born a Jew, and then was the recognized savior of Christianity, and promised his return, what would he have you be then? Love. Anything past love is division. Anything without love is certainly death. Believe in One. Believe in the one as above, believe in the one so below. One is ultimately all of our master, and indeed he has not a face nor is my reference, "ONE", His name. One is precisely as we each know within, as abstract as the wind, the omnipresent always dependable friend, One together from Alpha to Omega, beginning to the end, One in "eternal peace" forever, in the sweetest, perfect, fulfilling, eternal life now granted, we depart the human real now, end. Heaven. Together All, At Long Last, Friends.

Healing ~ Resurrection ~ Hope, Faith, Beleif, Healing

If you ever feel deeply alone and you're ready to heal, and the truth is that you are alone, never forget that there are wonderful support groups on Facebook.

You can exponentially increase the learning curve to your own disease or illness.

Learning about your disease or illness is accepting it and overcoming it and healing from it and becoming a better person through and beyond it.

Due diligence only build face and living a life have example leaving the previous not as good issue of yourself behind is not a bad place to start when we are healing, should be kind to yourself and be appreciative of all that is around you.

I have been ill a very long time and fighting. sometimes I have fought against some of you in my anger and I have a bitter tongue when I'm angry and I act out when I hurt, and then that and I beg your forgiveness and whatever is reasonable to make amends in those regards to anyone I've ever hurt.

I never thought I would feel hope and excitement again or that I would ever know courage that now I feel filled with. I'm certainly not fearful of failing, I have become an expert there.

Netflix has a great documentary on right now and it's very much well worth watching and the title is Heal.

It doesn't have all the answers, but one thing that it underlines is your personal belief in the faith that you're going to indeed heal, no matter what.

Now of course one day we won't, but when that is the right time to take that next leap into the next realm or dimension, it is a peaceful and beautiful place indeed. I can't tell you precisely why, but I can tell you you must only go there when it is the time that is called for you which is a time you did not call for yourself and definitely not another.

Face combined with belief combined with science is more powerful than any prescription known yet, and ultimately it might take a combination of everything available to treat and more importantly than even all of that is the wheel within 2 want to remain, and then even so there is never a guarantee.

Palondromatic Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Is there palondromatic poetry ?

Now that I am healed, return to healer, the will I become. Become I will the healer, to return, healed, am I, that now.

Voice of Reason

The voice of reason is neither Democrat nor Republican, nor of a denomination or certain religion... The voice of reason is in each of us. Let's share that reason together. we should really be the most beautiful in her woven cultures of the world that the world has ever known oh, and we understand that of the past civilizations fill over fear and competition and the lack of ability to work together and change. Not being able to accept that the reality staring you in the face is never a good start. Praying we get back to basics and take care of one another locally and then out from there all across the world and become the most incredible civilization that will forge forward together that's the world will ever know. what an incredible journey we are on the cusp of right now this moment. This is truly an incredible time to be alive, but hasn't each soul from the past said that precise same thing through their own lifetime. Make your days count.

Deaths & Psychedelics ~ Part 1

Death is by far the most powerful of psychedelics !

Don't be confused. Understand science.

It sets off a cascading chemical chain reaction that is very hard to report in plain English because it transports you across space-time and into a completely different realm as perceived. This is precisely what psychedelics do such as DMT, LSD, ketamine has some strong properties their and as they are each equally dangerous they are each equally powerful and therapeutic when used properly.

Medication is no perfect science that is for certain, but when we start seeking answers, we should let our fears aside and leave no stone unturned and so, I just share but I know as experience through the life that I've lived.

We were all young, where we not at once? Be wise quickly and please age to a wise and older age and only remain around those that lift your spirit and never drag you down.

The medical and scientific journey for me it has been one of studying all my life because I just can't help it, and one of terrible physical health and a plethora of medical experiences that I would never wish on a single person. Not even my worst enemy which I don't think I have anymore although some may hate me I don't feel that I came back the same man that I was.

Don't be confused, it's still me... but you know I'm better.

The fear in the anxiety of Life have Departed. The hope and the courage and the face are all stronger than ever. I knew I would stand again in desk, and I knew I would walk again and somehow those things came to be light. I can't much explain that accept wow I bet it took maybe 50 or 60 people and who knows that could be an understatement. It was like a factory of life with the perfect scientific protocol and I don't even know how I know all of that, but I do.

I certainly had omnipresence then.

so there's this cascading chemical effect for certain, but there is a known and documented phenomenon that transpires for some that go into this room where they absolutely have a consciousness about everything that is happening and some folks even see themselves. I think I did see myself dead, but I didn't want to dwell on it too much there because I was busy and deep thought and traveling very very fast like being in a vacuum tube where you have a movie that surrounds you 360 degrees and you get to see everything that ever happened from the beginning until now. you somehow in that realm know everything and you experience everything because you saw it with your own eyes and you are of all knowledge. In that place we are all there that have passed from the other place which could be places, and we don't speak we just know each other's thoughts and we trust communicate and share all knowledge. It was very humbling, much more humbling than waking up naked in the hospital bedroom which as a human being is so f****** embarrassing it's hard to explain until you remember where you were and then you just laugh and see how beautiful everything is because you know that you really truly went naked to the throne of God and that you will remain that way and that next realm forever a part of everything, just as you are now.

Here we are the observer, there we are the Creator.

This isn't biblical text it's just an experience.

For my procedure I was administered fentanyl, ketamine, and I think prophenol. you've heard of every single one of these drugs and they all been associated with death, but did you know that when they are used in microscopic or minuscule amounts or maybe larger amounts but properly and controlled in the correct environment they are life-saving and life-giving?

Would you open your mind to that if you didn't believe it before?

would you open your mind up to that fact if I told you that it is my experience that I testify to and that medical doctors would back it all up?

Would you open your mind to the fact that there's science that will backup much of this and you can study it for yourself through your own due diligence naturally.

So what of pscylcybon, and ketamine, in fentanyl?

don't be ridiculous, I'm not talking about illicit drugs, although we know they exist in quantity as illicit too, that is very specifically not the topic here.

I'm abruptly articulate at times because I want there to be laser sharp focus when it is needed at critical times, and that critical time is upon us as our largest retirement generation in recorded history heads into retirement and we must properly deal with this huge huge task that we are on the cusp of while at the same time we start repairing our own countries across this world and we lift the world into a far better Harmony then the disrepair and the ignorance in the hate and the lack of stability we all have become more recently.

It's no wonder my heart hurts all the time.

I like to take walks and go look at nature, but my heart of hearts and my soul is intent on making the world a better place like so many have done for me all of my pathetic existence.

Many are about to embark on an adventure that I just went on and returned from. It's not pleasant. It's peaceful on the other side, I promise, and it is indescribably beautiful, because again it is of nothing of this Earthly existence we share into know together only.

it is best to be right with others and we should all help another and stop watching so many suffer nearby as we hoard. It's against our animal nature, but when you experience death in the ego is smashed, you clearly understand what is correct proper and moral and that is how I was brought up in to do anything less would make me responsible. now it's time to find a career and step up and responsibilities so I have even more to offer. Now I will climb the tallest mountain ever. I will always continue to climb that mountain even when there are setbacks. It is the mountains where I am at home.

I really live in the mountains and I have no idea what drew me here except a voice in my head and you know what when I moved into my house the hospital wasn't a mile and a half or two miles away, it is now and I have been critical of it and them that work there and they saved my life anyway.

I've heard people in my community be extremely critical of this hospital and its staff and it is because through death we are full of hate and we are hurt just as we that suffer through any sickness.

we hurt deeply as a community for a multitude of reasons, but we are healing and we are rising as a community today here in Cumberland Maryland.

I pray that every place in the world just starts focusing upon themselves and each other locally and that we may all just at the philosophy of caring and sharing for another as we embark further down the scientific and technological journeys of this Earthly realm and continue to work hard at being better stewards to the Earth and better friends to each and every single soul, and most importantly those suffering the most.

we fail miserably here because we let those that suffer the most continue to suffer in the pure loneliness and blackness without an outstretched hand.

Realize you are a God today !!!

each and every one of us has the ability to make this world directly around us that we interact with a better place.

I studied law enforcement in college. that was the direction I wanted to go in my life so I could help to change the world and make it a better place. That's always the answer that the professor's seemed to laugh at because they knew it wasn't a reality, but it should be. Between that and my deep desire for alcohol I knew that that was not a line of work for me, plus I had suffered much trauma and I don't need to go snapping out on anybody and making the world a shittier place.

this isn't about me, but Lord knows I suffered a good bit so far, and you know what I'm willing to suffer a good bit more if I need to. I have plans and I have goals and I have desires and as long as I draw breath I will continue 2 work towards those dreams, and as my energy increases, finally what will be mine will be coming to me.

there's much deeper meaning of that last line above and I'll just leave it a little bit cryptic but it's not as narcissistic and selfish as it sounds, indeed it's not one single bit. It's precisely that each and every one of you deserve to know fulfilled  dreams.

There are many gods, and may you find one now and be in good hands on your journey. Keep the mind open and always learning. Forgive the self and forgive others both immediately, but of course there are reasonable amends to always make. We are human, and we ere. Be good to another and don't over-complicate everything.

It's okay to ask for help, and when we all pray universe rings with such a beautiful Harmony and Melody. Praying is the music of the heavens, and God loves to hear it so sweet in his conscience's ear.

It's so very hard to describe what isn't, but what is at the same time also everything.

Forgive me.

Death & Resurrection vs. Death & Blackness, A Nation of Heavens People Dying

HiAlone and in loneliness one dies, opposed to... together a community first heals, and secondarily it remains healthy afterwards.

Why are so many so scared to help others?

Why are so many paralyzed in fear?

The examples amoungst us are few.

The failure is vast and all encompassing. Don't you know how it feels? It's like watching Death creeping closer and closer to yourself!!!

Why do we all collectively accept this ???

Your actions build others Faith !

Resore humanity now, this instant...and Satan, don't make me slap you down again. Get in line for once alongside the rest of us to learn to be a friend.

I've not uttered your name or thought for millennia x 1000 exponentially, and this last time I say it, oh, you will hear me never again if if your will of selfishness still is to remain thereafter. Then I will take back the Earthly Kingdom and smash you?

What say you Satan upon your so offered now Salvation?

Are we not a human satan each to another in the worst of times?

Lift another and build Faith a house strong and holy for others, your actions forward now!

Seconds pass costing valuable life all around as we choose to rest on our laurels. ACTION !!!

Faith be your Stepping Stone to the Heavens, and Action your Path and Plan of the Earthly Kingdom in which we ascend from upon our ultimate humbling.

It's a beautiful journey we should fear no more, both the ascent oh, and what we share here in the Earthly realm that we are taking back.

Guidance Forward

Faith be your Stepping Stone to the Heavens, and Action your Path and Plan of the Earthly Kingdom in which we ascend from upon humbling.

Climbing Healrh Mountain After Death ~ A Short Story & Thoughts

If anybody has ever been prescribed human growth hormone and or has any experience with it, please inbox me or comment here.

After everything I've been through, and the strength I'm starting to feel I'm just thinking that's what I need to get back up to where I'm supposed to be as fast as possible. Of course I want to know if I'm going to upset the apple cart and I won't go in that direction if it looks that way but if I hear excellent results and I get doctors directives that allow this to be a possibility then it's something I want to explore because I had a lot to make up for and I've never been more motivated in my life. I hope that feeling remains, and lately it's just growing each day. I haven't known that for over 20 years. I kind of don't know what to think !

Life is looking even more beautiful daily.

Tough things surrounding me though and I need to be strong for service. Lots of work ahead.

I guess it's a great thing I want to give mountain climbing one day. No not K2 or Kilimanjaro you know just a nice mountain trail and an inclined okay but not too much. I don't need to be suspended by ropes and wearing climbing gear ... I'm not quite that crazy... yet.

This is no promise about attempting to work with these medications but I do know a friend that broke a leg and had multiple operations and finally wants the human dress or man was administered, he made a remarkable recovery and from my understanding last I heard was stronger than ever oh, maybe even stronger in those areas in before as often been and will indeed men this way. However there are long-term considerations that are critical and who knows, that sure could be something that includes my heart conditions and something I want to steer a million miles away from.

I'm thinking of supervised Dan 3 to 6 months and me working out and busting my ass to get in the best shape of my life hey, if my doctor would approve.

I'm starting to feel like I can go out jogging and I hate jogging hahaha I'm just saying it's weird to breed well in for my heart to breathe well before my stamina to be here in for me to be energetic and not need much sleep.

oh, and to all my friends that asked me why do you sleep all the time? Why are you so depressed? Well I wasn't sleeping all the time I haven't felt well for a while just like I told you, but nobody wanted to hear that. I did diligently work on my own projects inside where I could do them without exerting too much physical strain on myself. you know what I let my body be my guide and I pushed myself when I could and I didn't when I couldn't and I really didn't give a s*** what everybody thought because I grew up this way and I've take pretty good care of myself regardless of what you might think you see or know.

to the friends that have been able to stick around and hang out you don't know how much I appreciate it. You are each the tree Lifesavers cuz you kept my spirits high and lifted through all of the difficult times and there's too many countless people to ever answer but that is every single one of you on Facebook. Probably a hell of a lot more people I deleted LOL

it's funny to me I'm sure it's not funny to them but I was in a bad place for a long time and I just had to get things focused and refine so that I could take care of me and I feel like I'm back, and then some.

I'm praying this lasts in the confidence is growing within that it's definitely going to.

believe it or not I smoke for 2 months after all of this but I quit again so about four months now I guess. I decided I'm not going to count I don't want to know the date and whatever this time I'm just done you know. My nerves are calming and it feels wonderful and I don't mean comments from not smoking although that certainly helped, I mean, hanging from his being rattled through the whole experience of this event.

LOL

Save Yourselves ~ Part 2 ~ NDE ~ Near Death Experience & Full Death Experience & Life Lessons

It is great beautiful and perfect and indeed you know you are with all of your loved ones and more, indeed you know that there is the most immense love and that every single hole you have ever felt in your heart has been filled exponentially with love exponential.

I'm writing a lot lately. I am trying to describe parts of my experience that are unbelievably and incredibly vivid. hopefully in short order I have some other witnesses to what took place but I'm just not personally ready to go there quite yet, but close.

I'm determined all of a sudden that I'm going to find a career and fend for myself again soon oh, and I have an offer on the table that if realistic could be the most beautiful gift next to this second chance of life that would be something indescribable in itself to the place where I just feel somehow I know I would be home. I promised I would work there if they saved my life. At my last appointment I was asked if I was ready. I wasn't ready to be asked so soon. I thought maybe I made up all this stuff but this confirmation of this question about are you ready to come to work for me now?... Well, I replied not quite yet but very soon.

To know that my cardiologist expected me to say yes because he asked so soon, well I knew that he expected me to continue on this crazy fast past of healing and miracles that he observed.

you have to understand everything that transpired and that I made it home in 5 days and then that I took my neck brace off in five mores days almost doesn't make any sense whatsoever.

But then again sure it makes sense. There's always a chance don't you see ???... and if there's truly no chance, as we understand through tragic events, it's okay to hurt, but it's not okay to hurt yourself. That emptiness all goes away, no???.. but we must remain here where we understand precisely what each of our lessons mean for each one of us until it is time for departure of which we really truly should not interfere and I just know that as I know my intuition that I trust so deeply and always have.

I would love to give you greater evidence, and perhaps I will rationalize that but I have nothing to draw pain at the moment it feels, and so this is where I am in these regards.

there are many different angles to what happened to me and I've written many different stories that I need to sit down with somebody and publish but I'm not ready to edit all of this yet to come and it's going to take somebody that's not me that really gives a darn and is fascinated by this topic because the story here is so much more than anything about me.

It's about where we are, where we are going, and it's about the medical community and where it is and where it is going. We really truly have a beautiful future if we all learn to work together even better, but that means nothing if we shun the suffering in the sick and we let children and the needy starve. Anybody without food is needy.

We are only as gracious as we are not greedy.

Save Yourselves ~ Part 1 ~ NDE ~ Near Death Experience & Full Death Experience & Life Lesdons

If it's me biting your head off, then it's me that loves you wanting you to listen up and take better care of yourself. That's the echo of my father, the echo of my older brother, the voice of rationale and the reason. There's still time to save yourself always, when you know you are reacting defensively oh, you have heard my voice.

Be stronger today than yesterday, make those proper amends where you have made mistakes and practice those lessons learned and teach them the way you live your life so that others do not have to make the same mistakes and we may all move forward in Grace.

The Grace that's missing is the time spent wasted through political argument and purposeful division. If you think a snow day is unproductive, or a polar vortex, or a massive flood... really deeply think about what's truly being lost. Lives, all around our entire country of ALL beautiful people.

Where there's will to draw breath, there is a life worth saving. Where there is no will to draw breath, there is love missing. Where there is a will to heal, there is a life worth saving. Where there is no will to heal, there is again, love missing.

Just like a championship game would have no meaningful purpose without its preceding season, so afterwards in the next dimension into which we definitely travel, there will be this greater deeper meaning and you will know it in an instant. The life you just left seconds ago will instantly also feel like ten millennia ago. on that journey through space time in that instant where you traveled 10000 miles, you will observe the entire akashic record and we'll know all knowledge but far deeper than 10,000 years you will actually see it all. You will know everything. we are all everything and are all a part of everything but right now we are all in pieces.

It almost feels like we're a self-assembling puzzle and we're failing. Almost feels like maybe we are artificial intelligence and somebody made us, but we're not figuring things out too well because it seems like we aren't hard wired for fear but there's that ghost in the machine or virus and it gives us well additional fear above and beyond what's normal fear to expect to keep us thinking logically and rationally.

I was getting pretty tired of thinking there with my heart going completely bonkers and my hair going gray and then white but now it seems like my neurons are firing again. I'm starting to be able to sleep again a little bit more on my own and with little bit less marijuana. Judge me all you want but I'm not going to lie to you. My life can be an open book and a record of sorts so that others may have it far better, I pray.

life is a journey of exploration and experiment where we should never throw caution to the wind and where we should only do things in precise in measured ways no matter what it might appear like to others. I want people to know that I am in absolutely no way that absolutely insane looking person I often appear I am quite docile, calm, and rational deep down in my core, would like a tuning fork that just got dropped on a hardwood floor sometimes my mouth won't be quiet, my nerves won't stop reverberating, and my anxiety shoots through the roof, and that's because of my heart condition, because of trauma, because of depression, and I can go on and on about all the diseases I have and how I fight, the stress from having to fight social security three times and losing now yet again after I even died.

Absolutely none of that mattered where I traveled. None of it. Not a single iota, nothing here did except those lessons that made me understand there so that I was in the proper all of everything and yes even myself. No, not narcissist. In all of the spirit within in the body so given. inspired by the abuse I purposely have put myself through and through genetics and through the environment and that this machine bounces back over and over and that within this machine resides souls that know how to work together that fixed the machine that couldn't fix itself, with things that we made like the gods that made us. Told me that's not mine blowing? And please tell me to my face and look me in my eyes and say I'm crazy, dare you continue to speak these words behind my back.

I see the eye rolls. I hear the utterances. People have become to disgust me.

I only see those three things in sentence above separately as they are a reflection of as ill as I had become.

...and I'm not a reflection of somebody you know in your family? Am I not a reflection of a dear loved friend? Am I not a reflection of somebody in your community? Why are you not sharing love and lending a hand instead of being a judgmental foolish individual that does not value life and let's that life walk swiftly towards the grave far too young?

You know what hurts more than anything beyond no love within. When people don't trust your word. when you're ill you start giving people reason to not trust your word any longer.Bonds that were once made and we're true and solid get broken. Things can be mended if we help each other heal, but we don't survive as individuals.

we are getting smashed down by other nation-states, by other just name it whatever you want to call it but my point is is we are letting their be this Great divide and it's really not just locally, or in your state, or in your country, but across this entire world.

the sick and evil will all disappear if we help one another heal in that starts by sharing first Love and then the resources that we have to sustain life.

if you want to know if any religion is good or not, if it's supports life than it is wonderful and if it doesn't then you know the answer.

Each and every one of us knows the same voice within. Listen.

My heart still hurts really badly really deep for only one thing, love. It's all I've ever hungered.

I patiently await and struggle forward in faith knowing that greater rewards lie ahead for that man or woman willing to give all without knowing what comes next being able to Bear the judgment of all eyes for the times especially when they have been the fool, but even for the majority when they have not even been close to a fool.

If I, John Steven, have failed you, please let me know who what is a good and irrational amend and I will do my best to make things proper again.

there's a lot of undoing to be done and there's a lot of life ahead to be lived, and I'm really scared I have to admit it, but I think it's time to forge forward. I feel a powerful title wave of youth washing over me that makes me cry and prayer several times a day, rejoicing.

How can I not hear the song amazing Grace playing a symphony in my soul.

I thank God so much for this most perfect extension of the most fascinating voyage I have ever known, life in that pursuit of happiness that every single human being should always know no oppression against any way shape or form.

Where there are barriers, there is no God. I never said God was omnipresent.

That's going to be very tough to figure out here (barriers of every single type) on this plane or in this realm we call Earth, but just think about what it means.

What on Earth are we so scared of?

Death itself is incredibly peaceful.I look forward to that day but I wanted to be an eternity away from this moment. I adore life. I can't say I have always adored life as much as I do today. I pray I will adore even more tomorrow. I pray I will become the man that raised me, in due time. I pray the ladies of my family to become the woman that raised them, all fine. I pray we are all a part of that same family, and let our family each now grow, when you know in your heart of hearts that we are all from one.

Anything past 1, is the start of division.

I'm wondering if Jesus would be happy here today if I could chit chat with him about denominations, and their effectiveness with Christianity.

I can play that game theologically with any religion.

I'm a born and raised Christian. I died that way. I'm not sure if I am still that way. I'm just different and appreciate and adore the way I know, and I equally adore and appreciate other ways that I have learned that work for others that I love and call friend. What I do know is that there is one ahead where I have been to the great council in the sky come up and we all know one another and we all know all and we all hear each other speak without words uttered and we all are thought manifest.

The experience is extremely dreamlike, but the reality is what happened to me happened after I died. The journey began really before I died as the tunnel vision started. of course there's a lack of oxygen and your eyes aren't working as well and your organs are shutting down. My heart is stopped from heart attack and I can go on and on about the medical in the scientific in the why this happens in the why that happens and then I died.

in the black place where I was only conscience in that is all, I thought of the love I held for another and my two beautiful dogs that are the sweetest to animals I've ever known. My buddies that give me love unconditionally oh, something human beings are not possible of, unless they are a mother or father with a child, because before that time it just seems an impossibility almost. this is good not God talking, and I'm Not Jesus, and I'm not delusional, and maybe a couple of sentences don't make sense and so this isn't a new religion or anything like that. It's just experience an observation praying to what I understand and sharing with those that I love that we might find a better way together.

It breaks my heart to watch my country and my countrymen falter, while the countrymen of the other countries my ancestors are from faulter as well.

I'll tell you short and simple what I know about evil on this Earth. It most certainly exists !!! It seems clear that souls are either good or evil, and that's a huge statement to make but tell me that's not true?

Truth is salvation, salvation truth.

Save yourself. Then save another immediately. Just be the guiding hand of help when so called. Never throw caution to the wind, operate in faith, and work in measured units towards directed goals that benefit all.

There are lots of ways to describe what's next, but none of them work because words aren't used in that place in that place it's nothing like this place we each know.

It is great beautiful and perfect and indeed you know you are with all of your loved ones and more, indeed you know that th