My heart healing shows me in retrospect how long it was crippled ! Wow... I'm thinking maybe always even. I feel it's efficiency now at times and I've never known this confidence or nerve calmingness before. I'm quite different than the me I was a short time ago, and appreciative and astonished I'm praying I can solve ways yo help spot and treat this even sooner in patients... Somehow.
I used to just get utterly gassed wrestling but I'd slug it out, but it was like someone, in an instant stole my breath and all my energy. Growing up with asthma, well I just attributed it to that.then I hurt my back and was never ever that regularly ridiculously able to be so very physical again like the demands of wrestling.
My fight against my sound has distracted me greatly from the known fight against my heart. I'd even been winning against my heart issues greatly, however when Takotsubo Syndrome strikes upon my already intermittent heart issues, it's an imperfect storm in waiting to steal one away.
I believe a pacemaker years ago, as I asked for many times would have prevented this 15 or so many years back when I first asked. According to protocol, I didn't fit the profile of a recipient so no pacemaker would be fitted. I sure do you I did, or should, and it still amazed me that with evidence in hand at that time I was still not a candidate.
Well I became the perfect and ideal candidate recently, and after 15 rounds of a slug-fest, I walked away with a trophy called life and it's in my chest next to my heart keeping it synchronized and efficient and getting this old body ready to finally puck up the peices and make something of my time and life so offered.
If you,
Get breathless easily
Cannot dedicate to planning
Have passion and lose desire
Have anxiety
Have chronic fatigue syndrome, or fibromyalgia
And suffer myriad other conditions that are hard yo pinpoint and have increased with age, you notice you heal slower and your drained most always and cannot sleep restoratively it feels ever, I suggest we look more closely to the heart.
By a Fitbit and know and learn about your heart...monitor regularly.
Check blood pressure daily.
Eat heart healthy !
Get regular blood work.
My heart was born with a mermur. It was enlarged a long time. I had a terrible case hsv-1 that was not healing until I suggested to my Drs my ideas about what these non healing wounds in my head were. Tests proved my theory right.
By using Curcumin only, and no heart medication (that could possibly have prevented my events of Aug 12, 2019 but I chose to quit over a decade ago, my heart had returned to normal size.
As my HSV-1 took hold and was stealing from me, my heart weakened and was damaged I believe.
I drank abusively once upon a time, and I admit that could have contributed to my conditions, however it doesn't look likely.
I was also once bitten by an Assassin bug 12-15 years ago and I had to tell my Drs what Chagas disease was. It could be that too...but nobody ever wanted to test me! Repeated requests and responses of unprofessional disbeleif, like I'd be too stupid to know what I'm alleging ! Lol
People slowly dying apparently are bit often taken as serious or competent, and i contend, because we look like bloody hell and don't present well. What the full happened yo empathy ? You should not be able to be a healer if you cannot display empathy !!!
I'm glad to see the medical paradigm shifting to what works, and that is science backed with passion and compassion and the proof is look at the healing that's possible today.
My most recent care was precisely what I felt I needed as i suspected at age 29 or 30 in 1997 or 1998. That's when this all started. After a terrible fall down steps. A haunting repeating theme of my life somehow. Always solid wooden ones too ! Wet shoes twice (ran out yo get newspaper in rain in board shoes :() , heart attack, and whoops once down i went. GMU I did a few summersaults down two sets of long concrete steps. No idea how I survive but I libes evil kenevil growing up.
Damnit
And concussions galore.
I have a list somewhere in my blog unpublished. 7 times the work of my published utterings !!!!!!!
I now need yo comolile a list of all my past suspected heart attacks and heart events. The main one documented was diagnosed nutcracker of the esophagus LMFAO...really ? And my heart beat 240 beats a minute for 14 hours because I was anxious !
Glad I waited to call this time until I was literally standing dead...no heart beat but breathing... hoping...and then ... Down the steps on my way to the door fast to unlock it and then lie down.
Down the steps and I think face first into the solid plaster and double brick wall. somehow I stood up and I could not straighten my neck and I ended up sitting down on the floor while screaming and then slammed my neck and keep the floor trying to not the vertebrae back in so I could straighten my neck. It did not work the first two times and on the third time I knew it was my last time just like the two before and I knew that I cannot fail because I was running out of time and so I screamed at the top of my lungs and Drew in the deepest breath I possibly could and I don't even know how on Earth I was breathing or alive at this point but I knew where I was and then I swung back words hard as I sat from that's the last I remember until spewing out fit and having the wind pipe tube ripped out as they had just provide me with CPR but I don't know how long yet I waited.
I was very competitive when I came to and was immediately chemically placed into a coma and then in 24 hours I came to and remarkably the last time I swear my neck into the floor even then my vertebrae are dislocated still my neck is straight and you can't see anything wrong with me but the MRI showed two different from before and it was very obvious to them as they thought I did break my neck and I told them I think I did too. I've never told any of my doctors all of that part of the story. I didn't want them to keep me at the hospital. I wanted to go home and I took my brace off in 5 days. They just really don't understand this is not my first rodeo and I've been fighting and fighting and fighting so long it's not funny.
I'm looking forward to getting all of this organized so that I can paint the bigger picture for others to see and then with greater scrutiny we can develop and design a new protocol for the diagnosis and treatment of disease and I've actually already written about it. it would be something that of course can be flexible and always involve and I just been doing this because my experience says we have great terrible vest feelings and I don't think you'll find one person that will argue against that statement or against me and what I have to say here. We also have great triumphs and we must make sure that these triumphs are spread far and wide so that others may share in the midwife and be able to enjoy the pursuit of happiness as has been returned to me by the countless selfless individuals I can't even begin to name. To start to name anybody would be a disservice to all of the people I would get which would be a multitude because it is truly taking this beautiful city, between city of Cumberland, to put this bum back together again.
I'm in awe if every day and as the trauma fades in everything kind of starts returning to whatever the new normal is I'm just so appreciative and can't wait to give back now.
My life is completely different but it's completely not it's the same but better in every aspect like what I had dreamed of just a short time ago oh, we're almost every aspect oh, there's certainly no perfection in here has that awaits us all.
After all the trauma it's pretty amazing that my ct scans recently were normal ! no I honestly don't know 100% what that ensures but I do know that it beats having CT scans that show for developments, that's for sure. I don't think it rules out things like CTE
I was also I pain management for 4-5 years and on as much FENTANYL as 90mcgms per day prescribed through transdermal patch.
Once I solved the hsv-1 proliferation and we treated it, my pain started to to subside greatly, but not wholly !!!
We tapered down to 90 mg morphine daily, then 30 (way too large a cut !!!,) If oxycodone. This made me anxious which I told my professionals that it brought anxiety backand so I returned to smoking. I felt like I couldn't control that urge wish I had stopped for 3 years ! I have had countless times where the professionals of absolutely not listen to me ! Why ?
The Friday night of August 10th 2018 I went down to help at the local theater where I serve on the board of directors and I did take one pill of oxycodone in a few hours before my Walt time. That was the last time I was outside until I was on my way to the hospital. Saturday I felt so miserable I took no medication and I had none Sunday morning and I'm so thankful that I was wise enough you just rest and not take anything for pain.
I somehow survived that journey first.
I now utilize Kratom which I never took until very shortly after I returned home from my heart attack in my pacemaker and defibrillator implantation.
I had ordered it before my heart attack and it had arrived while I was in the hospital and so my transition would continue and once I was done with the narcotics prescribed to recover from my surgery and pain from my fall, I started to experiment with very minut amountsof Kratom after doing well over a year of my own due diligence on the topic.
My heart was functioning at less than 15% and yesterday I had an ejection fraction of 55% which is extraordinary.
My heart is feeling and I take somewhere between 428 grams of Kratom one time a day and very very very rarely twice a day.
This is a very mighty herb that truly must be respected and when utilized properly hold straight promise. Trust me and trust the science and a listen to propaganda not.
You must know that your source is clean from heavy metals and any other type of contaminants so go to a source that offers testing no matter of the price and have a reputation of excellence.
When you have a new supply delivered start with only 2 grams or maybe even one depending on your own sensitivity and see how powerful and potent your particular new type is.
I've written elsewhere about Kratom but I want you to remember my uses started after my eventanf helped greatly!
Original HardHeadRokk, Now Cyborg∆Steve
