Emotional Dysregulation ~ Poetry/ Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

intense numbness
numbed intensity
nothing nothing nothing
nothing as it's supposed to be

I'm scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming

painful isolation while I rest and try to break free
I can't feel a part of public society
it hurts to leave the house it's painful to go out
I stay in a loud silence a cocoon ripped open from only the inside

no one can really even see me
see me
see me
see me
see me
see me
see me
see me

can't you see
from my eyes I bleed
it hurts to watch reality
it numbs me when I run and flee
but nothing balances in this mental fantasy
nothing calculates properly

why can't I just be like you
why can't I just be me ???
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me
why can't I just be me

I'm scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
scree
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming
screaming screaming screaming

inside screaming screaming screaming

Hypervigilance ~ Poetry/ Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

At rest
it’s like I’m on meth
hyper energy, hyper intensity
meth on crack
paranoia
do I ignore the signals?
do I react?

I don’t do drugs
what the fu—
what the fu—
what the fu—
fuckkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

I don’t do drugs
what’s freaking happening?
trapped inside like an atom split
I try my best to resist all of it
but here we go again, oh shit

oh shit, shit, shit
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt
shitttttttttttttttttt

hostile rejection, paranoid attack
nerves and emotions running off the tracks
insanity to the Nth degree

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please
please, please, please

I don’t do drugs
do I react?
do I ignore the signals?
paranoia
meth on crack
hyper energy, hyper intensity
it’s like I’m on meth

insanity, then heart attack
attack, attack, attack
attack, attack, attack
attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk
attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk
attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk, attackkkkkkkkkk

Paranoid Ideation ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

They walked by, smiled, and said hello
It didn’t fill me with a warm, comfortable inside glow
I wanted to know how they know
how do they know
how do they know
how do they knowwwwwwwww

what I’m thinking
what I’m up to
what I’m really about to do
how the sinister thoughts
are about to finally play out
how my paranoia is busting out

breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free
breaking free, breaking free, breaking free

why are those folks staring at me
I know they can see right through me
I’m being chased, surrounded—in front and back, beside me—chased, followed in my reality
over there, behind that, up on the roof, helicopters overhead, sirens maybe only in my head
I hear them all looking, staring forever at me, echoing laughter

and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh
and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh

as I swan dive and leave behind this misery, trapped inside, constantly haunting me
swan dive into deep therapy, leave behind this misery, leave behind this paranoia, self-haunting, always-daunting misery

leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery
leave behind this misery

paranoia inside says I’ll never be free

Illusory Superiority ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

I’m a pyramid’s paramidian at para helion
peak pinnacle piqued all peaked and piqued out
capstone brilliant shining bright golden light
above and beyond anything mankind has ever known or has ever seen
don’t forget you’re looking at me
you’re looking at me you’re looking at me you’re looking up to me!!!

looking up to me
looking up at me
permanently recognizing me
praising me
religelizing me
worshipping me
an idol on a pedestal
want to be like me
me me me me me me me
want to be like me
me me me me me me me
want to be like me
me me me me me me me
want to be like me
me me me me me me me

don’t forget you’re looking at me
you’re looking at me you’re looking at me you’re looking up to me!!!
above and beyond anything mankind has ever known or has ever seen
capstone brilliant shining bright golden light
peak pinnacle piqued all peaked and piqued out
I’m a pyramid’s paramidian at para helion

I Am The Sun Dawg
sun dawg sun dawg sun dawg
ultimate superiority
mother fucker look up here at me
right now up here at me
I Am The Sun Dawg
I Am The Sun Dawg
I Am The Sun Dawg

Illusory Superiority

Learned Helplessness ~ Lyrics / Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz

We are Gen Z

you owe all of us especially me !

it's all always about me

disgruntled highjacked brainwashed always angry

so fucking hateful and angry hateful and angry

hateful and angry

so list o. the sauce you're cooked in you don't and can't see reality

like a frog in cold water then the gas is turned on

the water slowly simmering angering and conjuring emotions inside but numbed and oblivious you are manipulated and blindly naievely can't understand fathom or see

then the water starts to bubble and steep

you never even knew you were in this deep

always over your head

always way to deep

making threats and promises your fucking mouths and souls can't keep

cooked from the inside out numb in permanent misery

you think you have mastery. knowledge and hold all the keys

bubbles bubbles bubbles and steam

bubbles bubbles bubbles and steam

bubbles bubbles bubbles and steam

ridiculously oblivious to what's happening 

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening 

it's almost over 

froggie preaching and hatefully commanding their delusional dreams history teaches never come to fruition 

as the pot boiled over and you can't listen watch read think for yourself or learn what's really happening

froggies in a pot

all froggies in a big old pot

thinking about only yourselves and always asking too late what's happening 

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening 

happening happening happening

Addiction Mathematics ~ Lyrics / Poetry ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Addiction mathematics, then inverse replay
Addiction lies and says it’s pleasing me for free
Addicted, addiction, addition subtracted from me
Paradoxical minus plus

Addiction is the subtraction
Of every addition that could have been
My reality
Our reality

Reality
Reality
Reality
Reality
Reality
Reality

The future addition subtracted from me
The subtracted what-could-have-been reality
Now
Not reality

Not reality
Not reality
Not reality
Not reality
Not reality
Not reality

Addiction is the addition stolen and subtracted from me
That could have been my reality
Our reality
Paradoxical minus plus

Addicted, addiction, addition subtracted from me
Addiction lies and says it’s pleasing me for free
Addiction mathematics, then inverse replay
On repeat

Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat
Replay on repeat

Derealization ~ Poetry / Lyrics ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Desensitized
Washed and rinsed repeatedly on repeat
Nothing left underneath
Lost track of reality

Brainwashed but wasn’t dirty
Thought I was thirsty
Went to water my mind and lost all reality
Chemicals coursed through my veins and changed me

I was no longer me
Not part of reality
No longer me
What’s reality?

Who am I and who is me?
Dreaming or reality
Is that a building over there
Elevator up and out, floor 13

Down the hall I see a window, maybe
Or am I imagining?
Nothing is even real
Living inside a projection hologram universe

A game-theory character with absolutely no meaning
Every moment a moment, always perpetually dreaming
I never wake up
The only reality is the dream itself

Fuzzy, floaty auras
Glowing, luminescing all around
Psychedelic colors
What?

I have a family?
You mean I do have a family?
I have a family.
I have a family?

I have a family.
I have a family?
I have a family???
Are you kidding me?

A job and kids three?
A wife and siblings and bills
And I earned a degree
This is all ridiculous dream

As I step off the edge and begin to fly
But not weightless
The ground below getting closer
What happened?

Not floating, falling
Sinking back to reality
A deafening thud
I should have asked for help

But appreciated the dissociation
Depersonalization break from and of reality
Detached now on the asphalt
Depersonalization permanently

Then I wake up
And because I asked for help
Fortune, this was all just a dream
But I don’t feel like me

I don’t know me
Beside myself
Here and there simultaneously
Beside ourselves

I don’t know us or me
Waking from my dream of a depersonalization reality
Or am I dreaming still?
Nothing seems real

Brainwashed but wasn’t dirty
Thought I was thirsty
Went to water my mind and lost all reality
Chemicals coursed through my veins and changed me

I was no longer me
Not part of reality
No longer me
What’s reality?

Who am I and who is me?
Dreaming or reality
Desensitized
Washed and rinsed repeatedly on repeat

Nothing left underneath
Lost track of all of myself
And all of dreams and reality
Dreams and reality

Dreams or reality
Dreaming of reality
Realistic dreams I believed
Am I awake or dreaming?

Or is this reality?
Up here it’s pretty high