If anybody has ever been prescribed human growth hormone and or has any experience with it, please inbox me or comment here.
After everything I've been through, and the strength I'm starting to feel I'm just thinking that's what I need to get back up to where I'm supposed to be as fast as possible. Of course I want to know if I'm going to upset the apple cart and I won't go in that direction if it looks that way but if I hear excellent results and I get doctors directives that allow this to be a possibility then it's something I want to explore because I had a lot to make up for and I've never been more motivated in my life. I hope that feeling remains, and lately it's just growing each day. I haven't known that for over 20 years. I kind of don't know what to think !
Life is looking even more beautiful daily.
Tough things surrounding me though and I need to be strong for service. Lots of work ahead.
I guess it's a great thing I want to give mountain climbing one day. No not K2 or Kilimanjaro you know just a nice mountain trail and an inclined okay but not too much. I don't need to be suspended by ropes and wearing climbing gear ... I'm not quite that crazy... yet.
This is no promise about attempting to work with these medications but I do know a friend that broke a leg and had multiple operations and finally wants the human dress or man was administered, he made a remarkable recovery and from my understanding last I heard was stronger than ever oh, maybe even stronger in those areas in before as often been and will indeed men this way. However there are long-term considerations that are critical and who knows, that sure could be something that includes my heart conditions and something I want to steer a million miles away from.
I'm thinking of supervised Dan 3 to 6 months and me working out and busting my ass to get in the best shape of my life hey, if my doctor would approve.
I'm starting to feel like I can go out jogging and I hate jogging hahaha I'm just saying it's weird to breed well in for my heart to breathe well before my stamina to be here in for me to be energetic and not need much sleep.
oh, and to all my friends that asked me why do you sleep all the time? Why are you so depressed? Well I wasn't sleeping all the time I haven't felt well for a while just like I told you, but nobody wanted to hear that. I did diligently work on my own projects inside where I could do them without exerting too much physical strain on myself. you know what I let my body be my guide and I pushed myself when I could and I didn't when I couldn't and I really didn't give a s*** what everybody thought because I grew up this way and I've take pretty good care of myself regardless of what you might think you see or know.
to the friends that have been able to stick around and hang out you don't know how much I appreciate it. You are each the tree Lifesavers cuz you kept my spirits high and lifted through all of the difficult times and there's too many countless people to ever answer but that is every single one of you on Facebook. Probably a hell of a lot more people I deleted LOL
it's funny to me I'm sure it's not funny to them but I was in a bad place for a long time and I just had to get things focused and refine so that I could take care of me and I feel like I'm back, and then some.
I'm praying this lasts in the confidence is growing within that it's definitely going to.
believe it or not I smoke for 2 months after all of this but I quit again so about four months now I guess. I decided I'm not going to count I don't want to know the date and whatever this time I'm just done you know. My nerves are calming and it feels wonderful and I don't mean comments from not smoking although that certainly helped, I mean, hanging from his being rattled through the whole experience of this event.
LOL
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