Desensitized
Washed and rinsed repeatedly on repeat
Nothing left underneath
Lost track of reality
Brainwashed but wasn’t dirty
Thought I was thirsty
Went to water my mind and lost all reality
Chemicals coursed through my veins and changed me
I was no longer me
Not part of reality
No longer me
What’s reality?
Who am I and who is me?
Dreaming or reality
Is that a building over there
Elevator up and out, floor 13
Down the hall I see a window, maybe
Or am I imagining?
Nothing is even real
Living inside a projection hologram universe
A game-theory character with absolutely no meaning
Every moment a moment, always perpetually dreaming
I never wake up
The only reality is the dream itself
Fuzzy, floaty auras
Glowing, luminescing all around
Psychedelic colors
What?
I have a family?
You mean I do have a family?
I have a family.
I have a family?
I have a family.
I have a family?
I have a family???
Are you kidding me?
A job and kids three?
A wife and siblings and bills
And I earned a degree
This is all ridiculous dream
As I step off the edge and begin to fly
But not weightless
The ground below getting closer
What happened?
Not floating, falling
Sinking back to reality
A deafening thud
I should have asked for help
But appreciated the dissociation
Depersonalization break from and of reality
Detached now on the asphalt
Depersonalization permanently
Then I wake up
And because I asked for help
Fortune, this was all just a dream
But I don’t feel like me
I don’t know me
Beside myself
Here and there simultaneously
Beside ourselves
I don’t know us or me
Waking from my dream of a depersonalization reality
Or am I dreaming still?
Nothing seems real
Brainwashed but wasn’t dirty
Thought I was thirsty
Went to water my mind and lost all reality
Chemicals coursed through my veins and changed me
I was no longer me
Not part of reality
No longer me
What’s reality?
Who am I and who is me?
Dreaming or reality
Desensitized
Washed and rinsed repeatedly on repeat
Nothing left underneath
Lost track of all of myself
And all of dreams and reality
Dreams and reality
Dreams or reality
Dreaming of reality
Realistic dreams I believed
Am I awake or dreaming?
Or is this reality?
Up here it’s pretty high
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