Everywhere I go, there I am
I just need a vacation
A daycation
I can’t stand any more staycation
I need weed, propofol, Thorazine, DMT
Anything to make me leave me
Let this trapped soul launch away temporarily
From this jail-cell body torturing me
I want to be free
No stress, no abuse, no pain
No psychological misery
No repeating filmstrips in my head—tragedy
No God damn voice within
Cursing me with words
Or cursing at me in words
Anymore, please, permanently
Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave
You’re not a fucking part of me
Not a fucking part of me
Part of me
You’re not a fucking part of me
Not a fucking part of me
Part of me
Dissociation
Dissociate
Disappear and dissipate
I don’t want to return
It’s time to part the pearly gates
But what if I get repelled
And sent back to myself—me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
Or oh my God—noooooooooooooo
Purgatory
Purgatory
Purgatory
No, this can’t be happening to me
Not purgatory
No, I can’t enter
St. Peter’s turning me away
Just because I dissociated
Needed a vacay
Vacay
Vacay
Vacay
Vacay, vacay, vacay
Vacation, vacation, vacation
Vacay, vacay, vacay
Vaycay
Vayvay
Vaycay
It’s about time I get myself back to me
Am I dreaming or dissociating?
I’m up here looking down, floating
This might be the permanent end of me
In this body
What are these doctors doing to me?
Now why are they stopping doing anything to me?
Mottling
Not breathing
Not gasping
Not wheezing
All I wanted was to temporarily dissociate from me
From myself—me, oh my, oh me
From myself—me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
Me, oh my, oh me
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