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I got zero get well cards !!!

I'm so much happier that money was spent on home cooked food that was prepared with love and offered to me instead of given to that getwell card company !!! I bet a lot of people have died because of good sentiments ;( ..."dry death humor" !!! ...sorry.

I hear there's going to be a big revival so I'm just writing some jokes ahead of time for The Big Show ;) see you there !!! (Again maybe ;) )

Hallmark..., I can make a great commercial for you all about healing, nutrition, heart health &  "fresh vegetables and fruit get well deliveries" for sick loved ones!!!

Save the trees, heal yourself and the planet too... eat the veggies and fruit!!!

More Thoughts On Life, Part 2

I'm 51 and I don't even know me anymore. I'm a different man in a different body that looks the same, worn and Haggard but looking younger. I've got a few close friends but everybody else is scared of this cyborg. I guess I'm just a freak that I knew I was stand on this island on which water approaches all shores from 360 degrees around, I'm more alone but never lonely. Faith

Whoever believes stories such??? Especially from the storyteller.

I'm not a man who has told no lies, but when judges twice past called me a liar... I promise no lies had come from these lips on those topics so spoken of as inquired about... and a truthful man I have been in those regards of which I have taken an oath to my God, as it's only myself I've ever betray. Judge of Social Security and Judge of Loudon County (I'll fill in the blank when I think of it). Thank you each, sirs, for your service. Even the wisest of men are, at times, wrong. What else would you expect of an imperfect world?

We have the best system in the world, but... it has more room for improvement then it does not !!! This attribute is part of what makes it the best system, it's innate flexibility.

What would it be like if less perfect gendered beings (the modern way of saying men or men and women, without getting into the stupid controversy of men and women and oh yes other genders as if things weren't already too complicated... Nobody understands that where there is denomination, there is no unity.) were serving? Think about that. What would it truly be like if lesser "gendered beings" we're serving?

Self-loathing in Cumberland.

This country I love has f***** me and left me alone, but not my beautiful state of Maryland and not its people in this desperately sad post-industrial City clinging to survival and beating our way out of this wet paper bag until we find ourselves shining bright with halos of gold for all.

My heart hurts so much and I am so tired and rivers of tears I have cried but still I have fight and I must fight forward, for the value of life because others are all valued.

All the arguing between friends about politics and I did not even receive one get well card. ;( It's okay... I don't need them and I don't need people. You all hurt and you hate too much.

I have had a few souls that love me, so few. mostly the rest are just lying faces saying what they think will get what they want because selfish is the way we designed together, sad.

I can't love, because nobody will let me love them.

It is beautiful to stand here alone with God and know that everything is in perfect order and will make even more perfect sense with the passage of sweet and precious time.

Do you not truly know what you hold in your own hands?

When will man realize he is a God?

Man, Woman... Mankind Is God

Spirit Blessed So Manifest In Surround and Lift Us Each Now.

If you witness anything that you can mend and you do not, you are of ill soul. Heal yourself this instant with the answer you in your heart know now.

Why do you lie so to yourself, each, so?

Outside In & Downside Up I Riseth' Through Faith

I've been in some pretty serious car accidents, but never anything so bad that my internal organs hurt. I'm pretty good at doing this when I go down my wooden steps wherever that might be or concrete.

My question is, what's the longest it's taken your internal organs to heal since a traumatic event?

Impatient and resting a ton but...

I cannot consume as much fluid as I used to. Not even close !

My metabolism is drastically, drastically different than it used to be !

I'm not exactly the same me that I was before I departed and came back, nor is my body. This is quite an experience, but it's not that big a deal either... really. perhaps more than anything it's the deepest most incredible psychological adventure one could ever imagine, and then some !!! Quite a bit beyond imagination, meeting where I was and where I went there aren't words because they are places that are not of the human realm.

I respect and appreciate each and every one's points of view on religion and spirituality and the likes. I've read many books and if you've read this books we could discuss this books. I only know a couple of people that went where I went. If you haven't been there, you're not qualified to talk about it like you know anyting about it whatsoever.

Have you ever been dead and then woke up and heard gasps of doctors and nurses? I think I did. I'm pretty certain I did. In fact I know I did. But, who would believe me???

Do you want to know what kills???

What kills the spirit of another human being is when the ones that they love have lost trust because they don't understand illness and they think something else completely different is happening but they stay closed mouth and only build their distance and shut you out and shut you down until truly everything is blackness.

I never had faith in man, and man saved me. I knew man would most definitely fail me, but that doesn't mean that man will always fail you it just means that most often they will. I knew God would never fail me and he has not. I know his destination is far greater than the minuscule imagination I have. you can't imagine what God can imagine and you can't tell me that God doesn't exist when you can't prove to me that he does? I don't have to prove to you anything personally because I know where I have been and I know what I have witnessed and I know what I have experienced and I also have professional highly esteemed witnesses to this as well as friends.

I am in a vacuum of confusion that is far larger than the vacuum of confusion I was in before I experienced death and rebirth in the same body. I hope my body will continue to bounce back as quickly as my spirit never ever faded.

Work hard and appreciate the laughter in the music because it's quiet head, and greater than all the combined words of which you have ever read of this place, not of our realm, but definitely ahead, a destination for all... just believe ! I implore you friends.

There's some of you I will never again see in this life. I pray that you make it there. Believe.

Prayers Always

Law Enforcement Smart Phone App

Would you use an smartphone app that sends / corresponds directly and immediately to the police department so you can upload video or pictures of drug transactions or any other crimes ???

Heroin / Narcotics / Fentanyl Overdose App Coming Soon

Did you hear about the new app???

You can mark the name and address of the last person that you bought heroin from. If you don't check-in to the app within 24 hours, it sends an email to the police of the person that sold you the drugs that killed you !!!

Only You Know

Am I a...

Snake ... Tiger ... Eagle ... Lamb

???

Do You Only A Cyborg See Me Now ???

I was supposed to be unconscious or at least not able to remember any of this, but I told the doctor and those others in attendance not only when my pacemaker / defibrillator unit which was now implanted was first hooked up, and then I told them when it was updating, meaning downloading information to update its software package to the newest version. I think I told them it flashed the BIOS first too...but I'm not certain. I was also visiting the grand Council in the sky at the same time. You have to understand that ketamine Fentanyl and propanol are awful lot of heavy-duty drugs to be on and how on Earth I could possibly be somewhat coherent and mindful and of very lucid thought is almost Beyond imagination as well. LOL. I heard gasps every time I said these thibgs... and uttering like that is absolutely impossible how could I eat know the timing and how could he even be saying any of this or be awake or understand any of it. I explained the whole operation to them beforehand after the doctor said do you know why you're here, and I said yes and I can explain it to you precisely, which I proceeded to do to their shock in the basement. I never been so super focused and I'm already a quick study so you can imagine how quickly I studied all of this stuff on my smart friend from the hospital bed. They couldn't believe that I was even able to do anything I was able to do so you know go figure LOL

After my crazy event in August one thing I can say is that I have never been so visual, or at least not since maybe early childhood. When you go through trauma you turn inward and everything becomes imagination and when DMT is released in the mind it's very easy to have a flood of it and become very visual. There are ways to achieve this but actually starving yourself for light for 7 days but most people will get crazy said it's not really suggested to try this without training, just training takes years so again... don't play with fire.

This has been such an incredible life and I am looking so forward to getting stronger as I am each and every day determined to live life to its maximum. I am going to get my life back now at long last after a couple of decades far away in ill health.

I want to be careful and guarded and not overly optimistic but I want to look forward to a medical career in my mind where perhaps at long last there will be something that I will have to contribute to mankind that will leave an impression and offer life long and far after I am gone.

When I lost all faith in humanity, but never in God, Humanities lifted me to the heavens and brought me back to Earth. My life here restored that I never wanted to leave and have always loved so dearly.

It's truly okay when others depart. I promise they are at Eternal peace and you will be with them again. I promise you they know no pain anymore. The Life Energy we know transforms and where we go next is not an Earthly realm and therefore there are no words to describe these places. I went to these places in death and not through the medications above during my procedure. I was dead before my procedure and before those medications, so please do not be confused.

Science and medicine say perhaps it's all just chemicals of wash and just all a projection of the mind but tell me this, what is life?

You can say I'm crazy all you want, but I can guarantee you you not been where I have.

I believed in God beforehand and I believe in God after. I believe in there being just ONE. Not just one God just one God I refer to as 1, or ONE or UNITY. It's something that cannot exist here on Earth, yet. It exists in the next Realm. Some people called that next round of parallel universe oh, I find that quite acceptable by the laws of physics and through experience and through my own understanding and due diligence this far, but I am often wrong and therefore open-minded to the idea that there are other possibilities always and often multiple possibilities overlapping one another, sometimes not seen nor detectable, but definitely there.

What now do you think of Faith?

I had a Moment of clarity there that I knew exactly and precisely what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I was going to now work for this cardiologist. That Future Would soon come when my health would meet my career. Right now I'm working on restoring my health which is easily and Far and Beyond the most difficult Mountain I have ever had to climb, after resuscitation after death. I still can't believe it and it's been over 6 months ago. I'll probably kind of always think of this that way but it is my reality nonetheless. Please don't ever give up face and please don't ever not value all lives, especially those we think most lost. You only value life as much as you value the weakest life amongst yourselves.

I'm a very free spirit in the pursuit of happiness and I appreciate the angels that carry me. I don't know what to make of this world and my heart often aches but I'm glad to have each and all of you in my family tree.

I pray God May bless you each a thousandfold more than myself, as always question my worthiness. I appreciate the society that lifts me in my physical health today, a society that said leave fails a majority too often. May others know life such that I do again, healthful youthful vitality being restored. May we all be thankful.

Denominations make not Unity !

Do you only a cyborg See Me Now ???