Ephinany's Tears River @ Phoenix Eden Within, Eternal Peace ~ I Am Program

I'm 51.

It dawn's on me just how tough my parents were, at long last. This is a short but powerful epiphany.

My parents grew up during the tail end of the depression. I felt like I've never known any suffering in my life by comparison. they made a beautiful life together of 63 years before mother passed away in 2014. There's no couple like my parents, and there never will be another... at least for me, now, and of course, I'm biased... but, they were the beautiful perfect romantic fairytail incarnate I guess I'm just never going to know first hand for myself, but I got to know it to observe and witness and learn from and that is so far greater.

To have an epiphany at 51, to be the old dog again learning new tricks finally at long last once again it's a pretty damn good feeling.

I started thinking about maybe I'm finally a little tough. August was a motherfuker for a few hours in particular. I think I'm allowed to say that. I've never had my ass kicked quite like that before. I always thought I could take a beating from Mike Tyson. I can apparently take quite a bit more but damn it it hurts and I still ache 6 months after but the amazing thing is is not as much as before it all happened.

I ached terribly badly but not as terribly badly as I did beforehand for decades.

I might not be much like my father the way you view be but I guarantee you within is the same kind of spirit with the same kind of passion and what makes it only even better is that I am of my mother too. There have never been any other warriors for life in my life that are pure abd true teachers of life and sharers of knowledge such as my parents have been. They did not do this only for the family, they did it everywhere they went with everything they put their life into which was their entire existence.

Because of their suffering I will never know that type of suffering.

I have my own type of suffering that I have had as my life's lot and now it is my turn to walk the path I have always desired and that is to give back to others when I am healthy again.

It's amazing to have a moment of clarity on your deathbed. it's more amazing to tell the team that has saved your life that now you finally know exactly and precisely what you want to do.

I'm scared, but that's the adventure of going to embark upon soon.go ahead and call me crazy, again, as most of you all have or thought anyway... but I will still dare to dream.

Last winter I did not have the winter I desired that didn't get to write or spend time healthy or in any way that I had so planned for quite some time. I was going to make sure this winter was going to be one... well... exactly how it was spent winter.

Lots of soul-searching. I didn't ever feel like I had lost by soul once in this life, but I've wondered about a multitude around me for a very long time.

My father will be 90 this year in September. God bless his soul and may I only be a percent of that man, and I will be a great man.

If I pity myself in suffering, I discount the suffering of all others.

If I threw my life at all else outside of myself, myself I shall find.

It's so wonderful to be home in a dark room, warm did with my wonderful dogs cat and bird.

Peace is eternal.

I Am Program

I AM ONE

IAMUNITY, VOICE WITHIN CONJOINED TO FLESH, INTUITION MY CALL.

I AM, IAMUNITY

I Am Program

*One's life examined backwards makes perfect sense; lived forward a blur. Destiny

Thoughts & Prayers

Is it not true that almost all religions have a story, as all myths have parables, that each teach essentially the exact same principles?

You might think, well...what kind of religion attracts me ??? or, how do I know who to trust ??? or, where should I look for God???

First of all, God is not lost, and if what you are witnessing does not support or promote life, then it has absolutely nothing to do with God and it needs not be more complicated than that.

God is within you exactly as you know him already, your inner voice within, we each alike, a perfect image !

Denomination breeds contempt and division !!!

The middle ground is always the most fair and rewarding and fruitful of life, it is Faith, the pathway to God.

Disrespect no disciple, no savior, no chosen people, no son of God, no brother of man. Not just in man, but not of life at all, ever, hold contempt nor disrespect for another. Each pathway perfectly Unique In His Image As Is Each Soul.

God wants you each to be grandiose in thought and healthfully active and productive in life, and always let's you choose your own long-term trajectory... we sleep in beds self made. Clean your house if your bed is unkempt.

Love Speaks

Contemplate the scales of Justice, and now, do you consider God that fulcrum where these scales teeter between what we often consider as good or bad? From this throne the preponderance of the evidence is self articulating always.

Is this just not ourselves in thought? Two hemispheres of the brain and the pineal gland? The two hemispheres with the observer and the pineal gland with the bird's eye view from far above... A God's Eye View ! Connected.

You have resided in this dynamic vessel so long, you forgot that this is not your permanent residence. The body, such the perfect earthly extension to the soul, only temporary, a system of organs and organisms... A true quagmire stew teeming with abundant LIFE... our mortal shell before we step of this mortal coil into that which is most certainly next!!!

Is God "Sentience" itself, and equally abstract by our "physical" standards, not of this Earthly realm ??? Most definitely !!! ... or how would we ever know Faith??? Faith is the pathway to God ! Jesus the pass into the kingdom. Love the essence of the journey. Gnosticism the crowning jewel.

Our inner voice each actually alike confronted with different situations and playing through them all of the time like a quantum computer !!!

We are thrust into the future exponentially faster than a moment before, throttled towards each our black-hole destiny, where in death, the body stays behind and the spirit at the speed of light journeys forward into an endless fractal universe of every possibility, and thus eventually... Harmony... Equilibrium... Peace ...Unity.

What cannot escape a black hole? Light.
Enlightenment is within, a new enevelope of universe opens fractally within, and life and knowledge further flourish. Within is always further order and understanding, beforehand always less, but not a vacuum ever where life exists.

Life dances on the death of sin.

Where is there life? Only where there is light (energy). We will find life where the light goes through the black hole space time vorticies or portals or tunnels, ad infinitum.

The spirit dynamic always evolving, the flesh jettisoned in certain future upcoming departure into that next level, eventually.

Let's dance friends.

Love

Rebirth

The hardest thing about being reborn is looking back, ... which seems to never stop. I express myself because I can't keep it in. I feel like I am ever-expanding with pressure and it just needs to come out and at least I get to make a journey along the way and seek answers and hopefully share something of value for others for when I am gone there to be less suffering would be the most beautiful dream.

I will build greater strength through face and be forged stronger by these visions of suffering and experience make the world around me now the better place I hadn't ended before it was possible for me to do things I was meant to do.

I'm so tired it's hard to pray for more strength but it's offered to me anyway and I embrace it. Life is a miracle. Life is valuable. EVERY life ! ALL that is LIFE.

How could anybody ask for a better journey?

there's lots of guides in friends and disciples along the way to meeting the god of your understanding. There's lots of evil 2 without a doubt. If your kind you can help wipe that evil out. If you share you can cut another's pain down to a manageable size where another come along to help as well and the world starts to look like a more beautiful place in an instant where there was just blackness only a moment ago. Light fills the void. Light is the life. The word is thought first, this light inkarnate.

Warrior Mentality ~ I Am Program ~ I ∆m ProGr∆m

I can take the kicking when I'm down, trust me well. It's the familiar territory I've learned to embrace. Without it, life is boring and I only become weaker. I can take the kicking when I'm down, trust me well, and i am further motivated because I like to look directly into your eyes when I stand back up and observe the shock and awe and disbelief that I see because of your utter astonishment that I'm still in your face, because, I Am ∆. I can take the kicking when I'm down, trust me well. When I Rise and you see calm Eyes Full of Life staring back at you, run... Oh, and tell your friends I am on my way always !

I Am the Warrior Mentality Incarnate

I Am Program

Forged Stronger Or Destruction

We can each choose to be forged stronger or destroyed through the exact same set of circumstances once we start to experience said set of circumstances. Your the deciding difference! 

In Our Own Grave Already ??? (Or) Space and What Lies Ahead ~ I Am Program

I personally think space exploration is critically important for the preservation of the human race, however in the short-term, why so much Focus there and so far to little on the Earth's oceans and continents pollution alike, both. Pollution.

All prior civilizations peaked and then fell, and most knowledge was lost repeatedly.

The message is always the same, and that is that we were forewarned that this peak would come and that there would be massive failure.

that being told countless times over, truly lost in ancient history ground to dust in the conveyor belt tectonic Earth existence, why do we not spend more time being the stewards we should be to Mother Earth, and then as we are healthier and spending less on medical care oh, we can spend even more on science which will propel us to the Stars even faster.

I've always wanted to be an astronaut. I want to go to Mars and I told NASA, through an email, that they could send me when they figure out how to replace my spine. I will go with no questions asked if they are able to successfully perform this... Anytime.

You can say I'm crazy, but I'm the guy that died and got revived so whatever. I believe anything's possible. My mind is wide open. It is most definitely far from closed. My mind has been vividly ripped open like when I was 22 in would rip a 12 oz beer can in half with my bare hands after I drank the whole thing chugging it. I was like an animal. I have been known to be like an animal. I was an animal once. You might think I'm an animal still, but I'm cyborg now.

You think it's not different, but what do you know?

Did you tell all in attendance after you a rose from death in 3 days later when they implanted the device,... Were you the one that told them when it was activated? Were you the one that told them when each electrode was plugged into your heart before then it was activated? Were you the one that told them when it was downloading? were you the one that fell down the steps and broke your neck and slammed it into the floor 3 times until it got straightened out? That one can't be confirmed but everything else can ! And a whole lot more !

Now I was revived I think just by the old-fashioned techniques.

Now I was 148 pounds when I was released from the hospital and 50 years old and 8 months. I was not going to go run a marathon because remember I had a history of heart disease and I suffered a drop dead heart attack due to takotsubo syndrome. I had ischemic strokes beforehand and I fell down the steps and I'm searching broke my neck but somehow was able to get up and slam my neck down three times and scream for help in between, kind of forgetting that I did call forget help because I kind of thought I did but wasn't sure but in the back of my mind I knew I did dot-dot. Life was fading very quickly and I knew this already. I had indeed called for help several times because I was so flighty, starving for oxygen. No pulse off and on and a nail going right through my chest and straight through both arms... There's absolutely zero question about what's taking place.

now I'm sure I could get these recordings of 911 calls and I'm sure I can get all of the tapes from the hospital etcetera etcetera and I probably should but I just don't know if I'm quite ready for all that yet but you know who would be?

Is the world ready for this?

There has been and there is still great talk of people being revived becoming maybe more normal than it is today. Don't ask me exactly what that means but what it does mean is for those who have a fairly healthy body, there is a chance.

if you have a fairly healthy body and the tissue doesn't deteriorate and can be preserved then we have to address the problem and for me it was an electrical problem concerning the sinus node of the heart, and by implanting a pacemaker and defibrillator unit this problem can theoretically be fixed 100% depending on how my heart and myself as the patient respond. How I overcame the rest of everything I have no clue let's just say a multiple bunch of miracles not just one. If you ever needed proof of miracles will again this wasn't just one. This was like the statistical anomaly being hit over and over and over in several ways that morning.

I was born on a Sunday December 24th 1967 and I died on August 12th play Sunday of the year 2018, yet I write this today on February 24th, 2019.

I had been to five years of pain management for my deteriorating spine. I had solved my own problem of an open wound on my head and I proved it with the doctors performing some tests even though they argued with me that I was wrong, but tests proved I was correct and that has since healed with time and medications.

I've written and published some work on this but of course just like everything else it's overlooked and nothing's ever taken seriously because I am nothing but a worthless piece of s*** to most people in their eyes when they look at me.it's a judgmental world we live in and I'm not saying anything like I am not used to it because trust me I already understand and have understood this for a very long time. When I was very young and very good-looking or older and less attractive until 4 now that I'm getting stronger and good-looking again it doesn't matter what Walk of Life other people live, everybody is judgmental it's rampant like the black plague of death. It's pathetic. We are a very scared society and through fear we do not reach out with the hand of help, and even less so often if true victim we've been, however collectively still we are all to blame you're not helping those in dire in desperate need when their lives can be saved. Help starts with love.

When you turn your back on another, you own their death.

When we turn our backs on mankind around us and then the Earth as we have been such poor stewards, we are certainly going to own mankind's death. We will never get off this planet if we cannot first save our souls on this planet.

These words are now marked, and I pray they are not read by the next civilization that replaces us in short order, but that is the way in which we are headed swiftly... Far more swiftly than anyone can currently imagine, as now the pace quickens for certain. It's an increase in dynamics and frequencies and intervals, not easily first known or seen or felt, but most definitely present and surging in pulses.

We must quickly become better stewards, or in our own grave, we reside today.