Perhaps the most powerful literature I have ever read was during my twenties struggling as an alcoholic and taking spiritual adventures through the writing of Deepak Chopra.
If there was a man outside of my family that can single-handedly inspire me, and even maybe more is that what you're incredibly with mere words, this lingual artist I feel almost single-handedly saved my life and taught me things that I didn't understand or no and helped me come closer to being an evolved being.
I died in August of 2018 and I've come back. That's not a joke or a twist of words that's true fate and destiny and all with proof. I don't know what it means other than that I'm sharing the facts.
I feel I was but a heathen in a family of angels once, and that now I've come back if evolvd and ashamed and dare I say humble, not even close says the evil ego, but closer indeed, for no man that says he humble, is.
But forget all of that personal stuff, the distractions, you know the details... That's all there to exist to keep you from becoming an evolved being, but what does that mean?... To become an evolved being ?
When I came out of the hospital I did smoke a few cigarettes because my nerves in the trauma or just unbelievably, well there's not words in this lifetime to describe what transpired and what I can recall !
There are circumstances in life today that would make the heathen me a murderer, but by praying and then listening quietly and isolating myself for a long time to safeguard myself from myself and my powerful emotions which will and have killed me three life's circumstances that I have observed, again just the facts that nobody seems to ever wants to believe, what I have learned is that I don't need to be a murderer.
Part of me really wants to act on this but as a higher evolved being I don't have to turn to my animal instincts and lower myself to that which already is and become that which I despise.
I can't tell everybody what I want to do but I can tell you that those who I have told, well... None of them have told me don't do it !
I don't know what that means, but the lack of words is scary because I'm unsure if I'm getting this signal telegraphed to me that says I'll go because I've been sick living in a sick world and that's the way you get wired up to think when you're not evolved, or all of a sudden I have the prayer answered in the realization that God offers me that this just purely isn't my responsibility.
I could even be making this all up, but hindsight will likely prove these words, many times I've done before, and it's not about me it's about the words, truth.
It would be easy to wipe out that which wipes out a community, trust me, I could do it in a moment and quickly.
Think of the decades of turmoil and familial suffering that would reverberate forever when people act stupidly as I described above and if you are one that is thinking about something heinous, please turn to God and listen for answers and trust me as an evolved being, violence is not an answer.
I am a fighter, but today I will try stronger than ever to not be combatant and lay down and let you take me, but only if it's because your vile and that's your desire, to stay less evolved.
I will not be the reverberation of time shattering a family never again or any more or at any part or things of that nature, for I want the blackness far behind me and away from my brethren and sistren.
I always underline any statement above that's peaceful with a strong alloy of determination and will alongside warning that says that what I will stand for is Justice, and where Justice calls to be served, I will serve her, this daughter of my country.
As an evolved being what that means is that I believe in the societal systems that are in place in that they are most often statistically productive enough to safeguard the greater majority which is exactly the point of being in evolved being, that you are part of a greater sum that the individual elements that make up the whole cannot add up to individually, ever.
If a murderer I'd become, the money that could be spent on medical science which saves lives, precisely like mine, could be spent instead helping instead of healing.
healing is critical, but helping is most critical if it's beforehand and in a way that is not reactive but proactive. You cannot place enough funding in proactive measures that are efficient and effective because it is through these types of measures that money's spent will Garner the greatest fruit for everyone, and evolved beings understand ethics and rules and they choose to play by those societal norms that we have long-established through truly thousands of years of evolution since recorded history, and who knows how long by word of mouth.
We too often discount the old and forget about so many things that we should be considerate of and respectful towards and in that lesson with the greatest retirement generation in recorded history heading into retirement, we must underlie powerfully that it is time to be respectful and considerate towards our elders and treat them properly upon their exit.
If you want to heal and you want to talk to me about pain and suffering because you are going through pain and suffering and you need to heal, you may reach out to me and when as quickly as possible I can I will return your kind words. In the impossibility of life's busyness, if I were unable to do as such, realize the above isn't the promise but that the above is more to let you know that you are never alone and that even though you may not hear my words I am listening, and if you are aware answers you shall see.
I'm thankful I prayed.
I'm thankful with a few short hours of rest and just a tiny bit of closure and still with maybe even now the greatest pain ever in my life because it's the totality of all pain and the newest tragic pain that I am just thankful for a moment of clarity.
I've told many people what I'm thinking that I might be doing soon and it scares me to even articulate it but I must let these things burst out of me in constructive ways that hurt no one and it is only human to think such absolutely terrible thoughts to be haunted by when going through such complete and utter strife.
Now, I feel confident I absolutely would never harm another human being and I've never wanted to before. I have and I will defend myself of course in a moment, and if I'm more evolved, perhaps not. This concept is rather new to me so I guess I'll have to mull it over and see what happens in the moment but I'm thankful I didn't leave the house the other night.
In 2018 I died one week after my niece's birthday. I was revived unbelievably 2 most and if you understand what I went through it's quite unbelievable and if you don't believe in miracles you might start thinking about it at least, but anyway my niece then died one week after my birthday in December. I was reborn a Leo, formerly a Capricorn and a feel like I'm making some crazy transition like I thought maybe I have been reincarnated, and so in a philosophical and theological sense for those that are studied, then you would understand this properly and not with an attitude of scoffing.
As a Leo and feeling calmer and more centered and you have to understand that it's the month of August in that August is a powerful name !
I'm not your typical Capricorn of my old self, then as a Capricorn I was almost more Sagittarius on the outside but the interior was completely Capricorn. Very much a complete facade on the outside and probably just the way I am but I'm changing Swift.
I am an old man that it's working really hard at saving what's left and I am going to work in my community and I'm going to give back now and I'm going to remember that no matter my daily struggles, they are nothing in comparison to what I have conquered with the help of the local Angels here, and I will not let those people down and hurt all of those that saved me by hurting another even so deserving.
I will work hard funneling old anger from a past life into this positive funnel of productivity and I will surround myself with those like-minded people that want those that are not yet like-minded to benefit and heal and then soon perhaps not know suffering any longer so that we can all share and prosperity in each other's pursuits of happiness and with respect and civility and most importantly of all with the value of Life absolutely the only thing that matters.
We know the arch angel that fell to Earth and we know who rules the kingdom where we reside and we know we are born of sin, so what will you do of these things ?
an evolved being will always do what is principled and that which is principled is that which promotes life.
Then we should promote all life and in my past life I wanted to be for the death penalty but as I aged I wasn't so sure anymore and now...
...but don't you see that this is not a discussion we all need to have, it is your experience and you need to not react upon it, just accept experience in to be flexible into ready for everything you know to change and turn upside down in for reality to be that which once you thought purely impossibility.
The future we see collectively when we use our energies funneled in constructive ways towards the betterment of all of mankind and never just a select few, will always pave the road to heaven where we will together in one spirit Co communicate through thought and wear that which we will desire will manifest in an instant perfect for all.
This new beginning is going to be fantastic, however it doesn't come at no expense, because apparently without the cornerstone of pain oh, the spiritual growth, the evolution into being an evolved being cannot take place.
there is no pain like the indelible pain of suffering from direct experience and there is no deterrent against acting out against of the self or against others like that type of experience.
There are a great many animals that prey upon society, obviously not yet evolved beings, these animals I speak of our men and women that are serial killers and the like, and in time perhaps two whatever their life story is as it unfolds, they will in turn become evolved beings as well. I do not have to like them today for that reality to be a possibility and the possibilities that exist are infinite and if you don't believe that then you do not have an open mind, and with a closed mind nothing Grand ever will you see.
I have to choose
