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Gotta have an escape plan ;) ... reincarnation. Hmmmmm
What next ? Or just rise one last time.
I'm spent, perhaps soon to cycle not further, and to smile while in flight lifted I'd be kissing God's face waiting for you each and all, soon.
Whatever all these lives, they were incredible.
This one the finest of them all...and what an ending, whatever it is.
I'm listening to howling wolves on YouTube and my dogs both came over and snuggled to me.
This one's what we were listening to. There are others that they will howl along with but this one definitely makes them want to rest.
https://youtu.be/ArFicwCRupU
Then I had this thought...
Listening to wolves howling I just realized it's because their heart is broken because they miss the indigenous man that was wiped out from that environment or rose up and left them. The crying heart of the broken hearted, the best friend, left behind and forgotten.
I want to smother this dragon of death, and those that chase it set free, and those that distribute smash. It is a quiet trail, often with only hindsight making visible the destruction but only until it's done. One answer of a quick easier softer way is Kratom, take it out now, escape fast and only in a way of great respect, this plant mitrogena speciosa, cultures use and proof thousands of years now used, use it still with only the deepest respect, and less is always more, no less than 2g though or sedating, more than 6-8g, overstimulating. MG & H7MG, the two main molecules, my tea. Filtered water, microwave 125, two teaspoons (2.2g perfect level teasooons per each) perfect start, but if you have a broken heart diseased, like me, once again I'll say forwarned you start !!!
10 months past and I'm a free man of narcotics , and once a day this tea. Set me free !!!!!!!
It helps miserable spinal diseased too, in terrible pain, Cyborg∆Steve.
I've had other bouts too now since death and revived,
and I'm quite amazed I still not 100% yet, have still with my cyborg help now, 500% more fight !!!!!!!
Now I'm finally getting down to business, and when I start rolling, you best watch me heading your way!
Next, the dragon smothered,
no more killing my sister's and brothers,
China White, black tar, fentanyl illicit, all narcotic illegal derivatives, legal and abused too, whatever molecular mix narcotics from this poppy is the flower with the promise of death sealed upon sins lips, away this problem now it's time to take, at last, this fight quiet, but no myth.
Black Ops prepare to defend proactively, identified and quantified evil factions now downtake in instances coordinated swiftly, clusters wirldeide, react, react, react... dispatch and dismiss.
If your uncertain, we are looking for hundreds of millions yet justified income, who has not paid their tax, who has clusters of friends dying far to fast???, and still stands tallest of all feasting on the dragon flame breath seared sin???
Before my fentanyl journey and other narcotics, I was just Steve, then Takotsubo, death and elsewhere fast I departed, revived, pacemaker / defribrillator implanted, Cyborg∆Steve
∆, because...
without "the evolved beings" that through dedication (work), promote life together, even past their human death, forward next generations along, so this gift past, and we further evolve medical science, to have the ability to serve longer here, so deservedly damned.
Promote Life
Denomination Divides
A good life, is a simple, not over complicated, life,... time for love and family,... friends,... know no enemy ever again, and no enemy ever again by which life promoting rules so not played, them deal with if needed quick, erase, time to long given, these ill, the undeserved more so suffer when these we don't quick finish business and quickly deal, is it time for public boilings?
Shall we boil the dealers of heroin and fentanyl, in public for all to see???, from sea to shining sea ???
Somewhere right now, near you this reader, is this monster killing and you know precisely it's very den, it's time to turn the table and let the light shine in on this smothering darkness, you can conquer this and in one fail swoop, all your sins...
call now and share this information.
Go and speak with those who will take a report and listen, and these facts you display for them... or the problem you are yourself a part !!! Don't you see what happens when everyone else around thinks the way you already are right now? It's pure, shear madness and it's getting darker fast.
No Light Shall Sign, Until You Let It In
Let It In
My heart healing shows me in retrospect how long it was crippled ! Wow... I'm thinking maybe always even. I feel it's efficiency now at times and I've never known this confidence or nerve calmingness before. I'm quite different than the me I was a short time ago, and appreciative and astonished I'm praying I can solve ways yo help spot and treat this even sooner in patients... Somehow.
I used to just get utterly gassed wrestling but I'd slug it out, but it was like someone, in an instant stole my breath and all my energy. Growing up with asthma, well I just attributed it to that.then I hurt my back and was never ever that regularly ridiculously able to be so very physical again like the demands of wrestling.
My fight against my sound has distracted me greatly from the known fight against my heart. I'd even been winning against my heart issues greatly, however when Takotsubo Syndrome strikes upon my already intermittent heart issues, it's an imperfect storm in waiting to steal one away.
I believe a pacemaker years ago, as I asked for many times would have prevented this 15 or so many years back when I first asked. According to protocol, I didn't fit the profile of a recipient so no pacemaker would be fitted. I sure do you I did, or should, and it still amazed me that with evidence in hand at that time I was still not a candidate.
Well I became the perfect and ideal candidate recently, and after 15 rounds of a slug-fest, I walked away with a trophy called life and it's in my chest next to my heart keeping it synchronized and efficient and getting this old body ready to finally puck up the peices and make something of my time and life so offered.
If you,
Get breathless easily
Cannot dedicate to planning
Have passion and lose desire
Have anxiety
Have chronic fatigue syndrome, or fibromyalgia
And suffer myriad other conditions that are hard yo pinpoint and have increased with age, you notice you heal slower and your drained most always and cannot sleep restoratively it feels ever, I suggest we look more closely to the heart.
By a Fitbit and know and learn about your heart...monitor regularly.
Check blood pressure daily.
Eat heart healthy !
Get regular blood work.
My heart was born with a mermur. It was enlarged a long time. I had a terrible case hsv-1 that was not healing until I suggested to my Drs my ideas about what these non healing wounds in my head were. Tests proved my theory right.
By using Curcumin only, and no heart medication (that could possibly have prevented my events of Aug 12, 2019 but I chose to quit over a decade ago, my heart had returned to normal size.
As my HSV-1 took hold and was stealing from me, my heart weakened and was damaged I believe.
I drank abusively once upon a time, and I admit that could have contributed to my conditions, however it doesn't look likely.
I was also once bitten by an Assassin bug 12-15 years ago and I had to tell my Drs what Chagas disease was. It could be that too...but nobody ever wanted to test me! Repeated requests and responses of unprofessional disbeleif, like I'd be too stupid to know what I'm alleging ! Lol
People slowly dying apparently are bit often taken as serious or competent, and i contend, because we look like bloody hell and don't present well. What the full happened yo empathy ? You should not be able to be a healer if you cannot display empathy !!!
I'm glad to see the medical paradigm shifting to what works, and that is science backed with passion and compassion and the proof is look at the healing that's possible today.
My most recent care was precisely what I felt I needed as i suspected at age 29 or 30 in 1997 or 1998. That's when this all started. After a terrible fall down steps. A haunting repeating theme of my life somehow. Always solid wooden ones too ! Wet shoes twice (ran out yo get newspaper in rain in board shoes :() , heart attack, and whoops once down i went. GMU I did a few summersaults down two sets of long concrete steps. No idea how I survive but I libes evil kenevil growing up.
Damnit
And concussions galore.
I have a list somewhere in my blog unpublished. 7 times the work of my published utterings !!!!!!!
I now need yo comolile a list of all my past suspected heart attacks and heart events. The main one documented was diagnosed nutcracker of the esophagus LMFAO...really ? And my heart beat 240 beats a minute for 14 hours because I was anxious !
Glad I waited to call this time until I was literally standing dead...no heart beat but breathing... hoping...and then ... Down the steps on my way to the door fast to unlock it and then lie down.
Down the steps and I think face first into the solid plaster and double brick wall. somehow I stood up and I could not straighten my neck and I ended up sitting down on the floor while screaming and then slammed my neck and keep the floor trying to not the vertebrae back in so I could straighten my neck. It did not work the first two times and on the third time I knew it was my last time just like the two before and I knew that I cannot fail because I was running out of time and so I screamed at the top of my lungs and Drew in the deepest breath I possibly could and I don't even know how on Earth I was breathing or alive at this point but I knew where I was and then I swung back words hard as I sat from that's the last I remember until spewing out fit and having the wind pipe tube ripped out as they had just provide me with CPR but I don't know how long yet I waited.
I was very competitive when I came to and was immediately chemically placed into a coma and then in 24 hours I came to and remarkably the last time I swear my neck into the floor even then my vertebrae are dislocated still my neck is straight and you can't see anything wrong with me but the MRI showed two different from before and it was very obvious to them as they thought I did break my neck and I told them I think I did too. I've never told any of my doctors all of that part of the story. I didn't want them to keep me at the hospital. I wanted to go home and I took my brace off in 5 days. They just really don't understand this is not my first rodeo and I've been fighting and fighting and fighting so long it's not funny.
I'm looking forward to getting all of this organized so that I can paint the bigger picture for others to see and then with greater scrutiny we can develop and design a new protocol for the diagnosis and treatment of disease and I've actually already written about it. it would be something that of course can be flexible and always involve and I just been doing this because my experience says we have great terrible vest feelings and I don't think you'll find one person that will argue against that statement or against me and what I have to say here. We also have great triumphs and we must make sure that these triumphs are spread far and wide so that others may share in the midwife and be able to enjoy the pursuit of happiness as has been returned to me by the countless selfless individuals I can't even begin to name. To start to name anybody would be a disservice to all of the people I would get which would be a multitude because it is truly taking this beautiful city, between city of Cumberland, to put this bum back together again.
I'm in awe if every day and as the trauma fades in everything kind of starts returning to whatever the new normal is I'm just so appreciative and can't wait to give back now.
My life is completely different but it's completely not it's the same but better in every aspect like what I had dreamed of just a short time ago oh, we're almost every aspect oh, there's certainly no perfection in here has that awaits us all.
After all the trauma it's pretty amazing that my ct scans recently were normal ! no I honestly don't know 100% what that ensures but I do know that it beats having CT scans that show for developments, that's for sure. I don't think it rules out things like CTE
I was also I pain management for 4-5 years and on as much FENTANYL as 90mcgms per day prescribed through transdermal patch.
Once I solved the hsv-1 proliferation and we treated it, my pain started to to subside greatly, but not wholly !!!
We tapered down to 90 mg morphine daily, then 30 (way too large a cut !!!,) If oxycodone. This made me anxious which I told my professionals that it brought anxiety backand so I returned to smoking. I felt like I couldn't control that urge wish I had stopped for 3 years ! I have had countless times where the professionals of absolutely not listen to me ! Why ?
The Friday night of August 10th 2018 I went down to help at the local theater where I serve on the board of directors and I did take one pill of oxycodone in a few hours before my Walt time. That was the last time I was outside until I was on my way to the hospital. Saturday I felt so miserable I took no medication and I had none Sunday morning and I'm so thankful that I was wise enough you just rest and not take anything for pain.
I somehow survived that journey first.
I now utilize Kratom which I never took until very shortly after I returned home from my heart attack in my pacemaker and defibrillator implantation.
I had ordered it before my heart attack and it had arrived while I was in the hospital and so my transition would continue and once I was done with the narcotics prescribed to recover from my surgery and pain from my fall, I started to experiment with very minut amountsof Kratom after doing well over a year of my own due diligence on the topic.
My heart was functioning at less than 15% and yesterday I had an ejection fraction of 55% which is extraordinary.
My heart is feeling and I take somewhere between 428 grams of Kratom one time a day and very very very rarely twice a day.
This is a very mighty herb that truly must be respected and when utilized properly hold straight promise. Trust me and trust the science and a listen to propaganda not.
You must know that your source is clean from heavy metals and any other type of contaminants so go to a source that offers testing no matter of the price and have a reputation of excellence.
When you have a new supply delivered start with only 2 grams or maybe even one depending on your own sensitivity and see how powerful and potent your particular new type is.
I've written elsewhere about Kratom but I want you to remember my uses started after my eventanf helped greatly!
Original HardHeadRokk, Now Cyborg∆Steve
If you want something done immediately, what are your force multipliers at hand? What's your stock at hand? What's your personnel? They too are parts, factors, of the first question, meaning powerful force multipliers in their own right, and certainly not limited to just these alone, as the list is endless but a question always that should be asked, with task soon in hand.
Excerpt...
When you are praying to any God or idol or a demon what is really happening? You are really resigning to shake and Destiny and that you are powerless you admit, and you are asking for directives of a greater power. That's Faith
...and none of that would matter if we would all just agree to promote life and just live just one simple and civil principal and stop dividing 3 denomination.
The goal to The Art of War, is Peace.
Be a warrior for peace and stand up for others and share so that we shall all flourish and prosper.
Think of those that are ill near you now and whatever way shape or form and reach out and lift them or you are failing.
Trust me, time is short and we all have much to do those who think them perfect in those who know they're not and all in between... perfectly flawed, otherwise the coming elections would be meaningless.
Prepare
If you're paranoid you think something's going to happen in the next second minute day a week or maybe even month and if you're already prepared your leaning back in a chair relaxing and if you're arrogant and cocky you might have a cigar in your mouth and if I describe you you best watch it most of all. We are each humbled oh, and none of us humble today. Not close !
We are a people full of itself and seeing not of this world. We stopped at the aliens and if there was anything alien about the Earth it's us. We laugh in our own faces.
Fukk, this isn't easy. I really need you guys now to step up with me, rise.
Rise
I Am Program
If you don't believe you're the master of your own universe, you definitely never will be. Dig deeper now and create the life promoting vision of future prosperous you see while still you can your beating heart. Blessings are thoughts of good deed manifest upon the journey, and if course they matter. What if nobody gave a shit? Then what? Enough of them I've had. It's time to create the vision burning bright within, and to do so without fear.
