Wednesday, September 11, 2019

September 11th Holiday & Observance Plea

Why hasn't September 11th been declared a national holiday; as a day of recognition, mourning, and resolve?

Isn't this long overdue?

After 18 years, let's reunite the country and it's beautiful citizens decisively divisively split, and start with this!

It's time to heal, reunite, grow and prosper further, and thrive like never before alongside our international friends. Working harder and harder towards the betterment and evolution of society in general and supporting the general wellbeing of others and humanity.

Everyone now an adult since the historic tragedy struck our nation and truly others too!

Let's all unite and let the healing begin, as we've been an adolescent emotionally crippled nation, stumbling in pain and heartache for a very long time.

Blessings friends.

Let's make September 11th a National Day of Observance and a recognized official holiday, as it's feels disrespectful to do anything less.

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

My Black Box ~ Poetry / Lyric ~ Cyborg ∆ Steve

My Black Box
My black box
(creepy voice)
(echo x6)
I'm inside,
You can't hear me or see me,
you don't miss me or know I'm even gone.
I'm alone within depressed,
you've forgotten my existence,
my heart is broken evermore.
Depression,
my little black box,
where I often hide a lot.
Like somehow it can become my comforting friend,
getting dragged further and further away, and down into the eternal blackness of depths unknown to anyone before.
A nothingness but thoughts of terror on replay,
that fill my tired evermore mangled meandering mind,
how Am I still inside?
I'm right here,
you can't see me,
past my seemingly perfect smile.
My trusty facade,
I keep you intruders that hurt me purposefully so,
so far away.
Outside of my little black box,
I embrace my dark insanity for her,
even further.
Chorus:
(Chant / echo)
My black box.
My black box.
(Scream next two lines)
My black box !!!!!!
My black box !!!!!!
(Whisper/echo next two)
My black box.
My black box.

Saturday, September 7, 2019

What Are You Going To Do ??? ~ Real Concerns of Modern Society ~ Battered Women

Where are the men when a "lil' punk bitch man" threatens a woman with a gun?

I'm not at inner peace, nor do I stand by idly.

Volatility is not my forte and I'm pissed and simmering towards insanity after the toughest year of my life...i'm tired of getting pushed, but you'd be amazed what I can take and what I've taken unbeknownst to anyone.

Our community must come together and stand together against and over violence and ignorance!

If i have to survive to testify and bear witness to such ignorance, or offer my life against it, that's my duty, otherwise I'm as bad as them, but I'm honestly unsure how to act right now when I would like to hurt this deserving pos.

I pray... pray they don't find themselves near me.   I pray for us each to think healthier and not hurt others. It's a fukked up sick cycle that repeats too. I still want to smash this person until I know they will never stop seeing me in their face again, until they never threaten another again... I know the hurt they are the only causation of, and it's going to stop.

What's your move if your me? Really?

There's nobody to speak to. That part of law enforcement has already transpired and failed, it appears, thus far.

So what's next? I know my studies and statistics. I want to prevent whats likely next. I want to make certain there can be zero further escalation in a case I understand, as a fly on a wall, and objectively... but equally passionately.

I watched the escalation in this difficult situation nobody can turn and run from, as it involves a family.

Where do we solve these problems in society and in the home and in the spirit?

How do we lead others to answers and with open arms?

I'm getting older, angrier, and bolder...and it's not at all my hearts desires, but the experience of life around me is really shredding me in several directions right now as I gain my strength and footing into a world I'm not very fond of anymore.

My house is sanctity to such insanity, I always promise this!

I can't be the Saviour, and if i don't say this, I don't want to be a hypocrite.

How do we heal?

Why do others abuse substances until a state of intoxication?

Why and when do we need interventions?

What's a cry for help?

How do you escape a dangerous volatile situation and save yourself when your a woman in need of help with children?

Without being ignorant please, share your experience towards positive answers or warn of cautions, as this record is nearing some kind of certain end.

Where is the corrections in rehabilitation?
Where is the accountability in the courts with the judges? The judicial? The legislative? The family and the individual?

Why do we settle for today abundant societal failures?

Why do we accept the multi pronged attacks upon our finest of well intended, solid, proven institutions?

Thursday, August 29, 2019

" Healing - Bridge - Kratom ", the Introduction to Naturopathic Healing

Let's start Healing Bridge Kratom, a non-profit.

We design and tool out a nin-profit all can follow that emulates each states' medical marijuana programs. Voluntarily. Pay for testing source material and run this to distribute at fair prices and heal!

Also distribute educational information I'm going to publish.

Could help prevent abuses, and gouging, and insure the plan is to heal populations as the indigenous have for 1000's of years.

Each plan different as each states program. Probably be highly effective, and document all with 100% transparency open to the public for scrutiny 24/7 online.

We could build it and let others control the entity. Watch from a distance with a neatral panel.

Wednesday, August 28, 2019

Influential Artists of A Fleeting Past, This Future Britgher Than Any Previous Shooting Star

But if you're up for those that know me deeply. I know perhaps some of the most influential artists of the modern time... without a doubt once removed from anybody. Not three or five degrees of separation but probably just one maybe from almost anybody named today, honestly.
All of that means nothing that's important is what I'm about to say... Of my entire past leading up to let sit today of knowing some of the funniest people I have ever known in my entire life, I now know people that are even of greater talent than those that were some of the most productive in history perhaps. And I hate to be quick things for comparing things but it is part of the reality of the world we live in and so we can.
What I even more deeply meaningful to say is that I am so incredibly excited about what my new associations will fruit-forward and it is going to be incredible to watch and be apart of these celebrations and truly life-defining and even art in trend dictating and setting types of certain rhythms to follow. I've seen this all before but never as perfectly as what I'm starting to see the groundwork laid for today.
don't give up before the miracle and don't sell yourself short and if you are hurting you need to remember to just reach out to one of your buddies don't hold it all inside to yourself. Find out he's strong and lean in that direction, and other days find out he's strong and lean in the other direction, but remember when we all hold on and we swear to and fro we are dancing together and we won't fall over and stumble.
I have had some of the greatest friends to be honored to call friends and I to only see that growing more beautifully and more fondly in my heart than what I've already experienced which is a little over a half-century of bliss on top of tragedy because that's the top of the mountain we all should get to see once in a while.
It doesn't matter where you've been if you have the right perspective at the moment.

Kratom Is Fully Known, Quantified and Understood Perfectly Well... Don't Believe the Propoganda

https://www.inquirer.com/health/kratom-ban-pennsylvania-lobby-20190828.html?outputType=amp

Absolutely do not be fooled by the lying media that will tell you right here in this article that this is a compound that is unknown. It is fully quantified and can be tested and what only needs to be done is shared that 6-8 grams is the proper maximum dosage, but start as low as 1/2 and find you eficaccy level yourself, and that you better start slow and find your range. If you take too much, you'll puke!

This is an unbelievably powerful natural alkaloid in the fact that it can take you completely off pharmaceutical narcotics, a problem across America that is wiping out our communities and it doesn't matter if you look at it from the professional perspective with prescriptions or you look at the illicit Black market. I know this all much too well from my studies in my observations through life and my own personal experiences. I never used kratom until after my heart attack and revival. I have to share these things because I am not on fentanyl anymore, and I am not on morphine anymore, and I am not on oxycodone anymore. That is not to all be offered up as credit to kratom because what the truth is that I have had remarkable healing in some areas before my heart attack and stroke etcetera of a year ago and thenmy pain levels went down so my pain management was able to offer morphine instead of the more powerful dosage of fentanyl that I had been on for a long time. That was successful thankfully and then we were able to step down once again to oxycodone. Strangely the day before my heart attack I didn't take my pain medicine because I knew my breathing was very poor. But I had grown up with asthma and I'd fought through this before so it was no new phenomena to me and I knew the hospitals just about a mile from my house. My phone sits next to me on charge 24/7 or it's in my pocket. That's how I lived before that's how I live now those are my practices because that's what you do when you're not well all your life. My physical life has made me put off pain management until these last few years and now I don't even go at all. I don't even take tylenol today. I still have two dislocated vertebrae in my neck and all that keeps me going is this simple kratom tea which I have refined now to a species of white maeng da at 2 milligram mg in a tea that I will drink once or twice a day diluted into 16 oz of water and sweetened with usually about six to eight teaspoons of sugar and you would understand if you taste this alkaloid at it is one of the most bitter alkaloids I have ever tasted next to a persimmon perhaps. I didn't mean to imply that a persimmon is an alkaloid but I would bet money on it that it is. if you understand your science and you study and do your due diligence you can define any molecule and quantified etcetera etcetera and understand it and study it but you must understand with things like this there is a history also with the indigenous cultures that have used this effectively for thousands of years and if you understand and study how it is utilized and why then you two can respect this plant with the greatest appreciation.

The biggest problem today is that it is not monitored in such a way that the source is tested for purity and what that means is not just that it doesn't have illicit drugs in it but that also it is not contaminated with heavy metals as where this plant grows, mitrogena spisiosa , it is often by rivers that are polluted with industrial waste and in the form of heavy metals.

there's only one truth about what's happening right now and that is the struggle for a multibillion-dollar marketplace. I would actually say in today's economy it could be more like hundreds of billions to even a trillion because a trillion almost seems like nothing today. A trillion is like a million in the 80s.

We have the media playing games with everybody's minds and now everybody's so confused and truly deeply passionate but also so sick on pharmaceuticals and confused about how to live their lives like they want used to it that we are inundated with all of these problems and it's very purposefully trying to tear us apart and I am telling you right now that this is part of a solution but just like anything it can be abused.

The facts are the people are statistically better off treating themselves with kratom than they are seeking professional help and treating themselves with pharmaceutical pain medications. you don't really need to pay to have any studies done to site that work you just need to do your due diligence like any focused objective scientist and read through the paperwork and talk to the people and we can even do that today through chat groups and all types of different things and you can vet your own sources yourself if you're wise.

And aye, then there is the rub, are you wise?
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MUST READ:

This is LOADED with very intentional mis-information.

https://www.inquirer.com/health/kratom-ban-pennsylvania-lobby-20190828.html?outputType=amp

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Back to my article herein...

It's very hard to make wise decisions when ill. Thus why doctors are so critical in our health care to keep us directed on the proper path towards managing our health until we can make better decisions for ourselves and that has been a very big struggle my life but I'm going to say my former life because I have a clarity today that I didn't in those regards and I am more deeply appreciate that clarity than anything I have ever known. I appreciate that others must have seen me and I owe everybody I know an apology for the way I once lived and carried myself but I was the wretch Amazing Grace.

I'm not allowed to yet call myself in if I have two spirit, however I have definitely evolved from the spirit that I was that looking back I'm still fond of in most ways but really don't like in quite a few ways also admittedly and I'm happy that there's just been this great shift polarrly speaking.

I went from fentanyl to morphine to oxycodone and was able to wean off and on Friday night took my last 10 mg tablet and on Sunday morning at 2 a.m. or something like that I was having a heart attack and I had been deathly ill I think it had absolutely nothing to do with my narcotic use which I did my best to stay very perfectly structured to over my time frame in pain management which in some ways was the most amazing transcending time in my life you make me what I am today but it was a battle I knew I probably might not win. I'm not saying I won I'm just thankful I made it this far.

Most people can't tell you the stories that I can. Most people won't tell you these stories that I can. Most people do not have the medical paperwork to back up what I say.

Pennsylvania is my state that I was born in and it will always feel home to me. I was born in Cumberland County and now I live in Cumberland Maryland. I think Pennsylvania will be making a huge mistake if they outlaw kratom. If they want to have a state agency that regulates it in test sit in markets it at a reasonable price and let's businessmen do that they could emulate the state of Maryland medical marijuana program and they would be doing a service and able to make a profit at it as well to help the community and the residents of the state but I promise you right now that if they outlaw this powerful compound that reham powers the population, and can help towards weaning off of narcotic medications completely, you will be doing a disservice if you outlaw completely this herb used safely for thousands of years when used with respect and properly.

This alkaloid reacts in the synapse with the same receptors that narcotics do and the molecules active compounds are MG & H7MG.

So again, let me promise you everything that needs to be known about this is already very fully known. I will likely be publishing a book on this topic soon because maybe it's not as well known as I know it but I have the tools in which to study because I have been taught how to study in such a way and I understand that my curiosity and my problem to help me seek answers to live a better life and a healthier life have brought me to this precipice.

If I don't share My success then I am an ignorant fool to not help others.

as a caring and compassionate individual I also warned you to do your own due diligence and be safeguarded and every single thing that you place into your body and just live a careful life and be good to yourself and others and promote life.

what's best is the finest of pure food and wonderful pure water without pathogens as we are biological organisms that need perfect nutrition without any pollution or pathogens and anything that deviates from that starts the imbalance of our health and we'll throw our immune system completely out of balance and it is important that we keep the microbiome, which reside in the human stomach and is the basic foundation of the immune system, and proper balance and intact because when we have this chakra area out of balance your truly radiate outwards and throws the rest of the chakras out of balance. There's many ways to describe these things I could use scientific words, I could even use religious words, metaphysical words etc but all paths actually seem to lead to the same places and that is either this ultimate Nirvana or this place of utter blackness.

This is not the place of utter blackness when we go there with respect. This is an herb that is transformative and will save the lives of the people that are getting wiped out at a higher rate than that of the Vietnam conflict. I'm just speaking of American lives that are being lost to the fight against narcotics right here on American soil where we are under chemical assault.

If you scoff or laugh at anything here in, I hope soon you awaken to reality.

Glimpses

I've had a few glimpses of the old me returning... up 20 hours sleeping four and waking perfectly restored. Would love for this to become the norm again... another miracle will come to pass. I had a terrible persistent cold for a very long time, but I stubbornly fought it off myself...also something I've not been able to do for ages. My immune system seems to also be becoming slowly stringer and stronger again too ...I'm just going to stay on this course and pace working for me,  and pray I never forget these lessons learned. I'm focusing hard working to capture positive energy and staying in the moments planned ahead and regularly booking ;) ... Nothing perfect by any means, but everything that matters perfect at last.