I Am The Squirming Toad ~ Poetry ~ MobiusTripz

The Doors,

Riders on the Storm,

Two candles flickering,

In the darkness of my room a lay alone.

In the pitch blackness of my mind's heart and soul,

I still only see me and you,

other than the flicker,

All here that remains is cold & dead.

The music blares,

as loudly as love I thought we shared,

I thought you really cared,

Didn't you even care?

My eyes runneth' over,

Into the darkness... dazed... for months now,

alone forevermore...

I've stared.

The love I had for you boundless...

Its still an ember,

but fading... burning out,

I'm too fading away.

You don't even answer me much anymore...,

My friend once,

Again simply,

Betrayed.

What never truly started,

Certainly seemed to end.

Certainly seems to have met an end.

You... I'd still now forever love & defend.

Almost love shared,

We had in our grasp easily and perfect if so wanted,

Denied.

At life's table together we once dined,

"Girl, you gotta love your man",

I guess I'll never understand!,

Do you understand?,

My life on you depends.

That killer on the road,

Always chasing me,

My mind is the squirming toad,

All, just... Riders On the Storm.

Tea candles like love... both flicker out,

My heart hurts still months later,

This darkness envelopes me,

As my mind still that squirming toad.

All just riders on the storm,

Is to suffer just my norm?,

Riding out this lonely cold dark storm,

In darkness all alone... with only thoughts of closing Doors.

Life always just a storm,

Always is a storm,

Love evades me yet again,

My life as black & blue with scorn.

Killer on the road.

Love,

a killer on the road,

This storm on me bestowed.

A killer on the road.

Patrick Crites Poetry ~ The Reaping Scout ~ Poetry

Mayhaps you've met the crow
That caws thoughout the night,
Who's onyx color is omen of
Chaos harbinger in flight.

Upon a night yet moonless
The demon there did call
Flitted into shadow shape
And from out of shade did crawl

A pleasant sight at first
Until talon did reave
The souls of several alley cats
Where life no longer breathed

I was off that night to bar
To fetch warm pint of hops
To quench this thirst arose
And satisfy mine chops

Recently been widowed
Sweet Mary Mcree
Came tumbling right out of
That barroom jubilee

I met her then at corner
Of Solomon and Toll
And ghastly grimace spread upon her
As the crow came for her soul.

At first I nearly shrieked
To drunk me thinks t'believe.
eyes wide and white and empty
As the contents of her bleeds

Twas then that this crow
First took in my own sight
And the terror spread upon me
Yes on that moonless night

I asked if I was crazy,
Or perched upon the peak
Of insanity or madness
Either outlook bleak.

The crow did caw to I
As chilling wind would blow
"Beast are we acquainted?"
Reply : " not for you to know."

He said just then with red eyes
"You may call me Virsago."
"I'm here as scout for now,"
"You see the dead go where i show."

Twas then I begged the query,
"Why have you appeared to me?"
"To lead you home my son"
"And make your path be seen."

"I take from earth the strong."
"To leave only the weak."
"Preparing here a dinner,"
"Or a feast for demons yet asleep."

I stood there frozen now
And wondered at the reason
"Because you are to lead,"
"For its the devil's season."

"Surely youve mistaken me,"
"I'm certainly no asset.
"Oh but little man..."
"You're perfect in every facet."

I questioned then again
My sanity- where stand?
But looking down i noted
The scarlet blade in hand.

"You see its quite inituitive,"
"For those here that are marked"
As charcoal wings emerge
From shoulder they embarked.

The pain of splitting bone
As sinew parted way
To free up feather rot with all
Maggot, worm and decay.

I felt the hiss of heat
As I grabbed onto my face
But shocked i was to find that
All my skin had melted 'way.

I smiled then with laughter
As I wondered at my name
But the words then rushed upon me as
I lost all worldly shame.

I felt my self then thinning
The weight of body gaunt and slim
As a black cloak rose around me
And I spoke the words "The Grim"

-Patrick Crites
  "The Reaping Scout"
July, 7th 2018

QUEENSRYCHE LYRICS album: "Operation: Mindcrime" ~ 1988

QUEENSRYCHE LYRICS

album: "Operation: Mindcrime" (1988)

PLAY ALBUM AND READ ALONG

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ij5e36hjPz4

1. I Remember Now

I remember now
I remember how it started
I can't remember yesterday
I just remember doing what they told me [echo].

2. Anarchy X

[Instrumental]

3. Revolution Calling

For a price, I'd do about anything
Except pull the trigger
For that, I'd need a pretty good cause
Then I heard of Dr. X
The man with the cure
Just watch the television
Yeah, you'll see there's something going on

Got no love for politicians
Or that crazy scene in D.C.
It's just a power mad town
But the time is ripe for changes
There's a growing feeling
That taking a chance on a new kind of vision is due

I used to trust the media
To tell me the truth, tell us the truth
But now I've seen the payoffs
Everywhere I look
Who do you trust when everyone's a crook?

Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Revolution calling you
(There's a) Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Gotta make a change
Gotta push, gotta push it on through

I'm tired of all this bullshit
They keep selling me on T.V.
About the communist plan
And all the shady preachers
Begging for my cash
Swiss bank accounts while giving their
Secretaries the slam

They're all in Penthouse now
Or Playboy magazine, million dollar stories to tell
I guess Warhol wasn't wrong
Fame fifteen minutes long
Everyone's using everybody, making the sale

I used to think
That only America's way, way was right
But now the holy dollar rules everybody's lives
Gotta make a million doesn't matter who dies

Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Revolution calling you
(There's a) Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Gotta make a change
Gotta push, gotta push it on through

I used to trust the media
To tell me the truth, tell us the truth
But now I've seen the payoffs
Everywhere I look
Who do you trust when everyone's a crook?

Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Revolution calling you
(There's a) Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Gotta make a change
Gotta push, gotta push it on through

4. Operation: Mindcrime

It just takes a minute
And you'll feel no pain
Gotta make something of your life boy
Give me one more vein
You've come to see the doctor
Cause I'll show you the cure
I'm gonna take away the questions
Yeah I'm gonna make you sure

A hit man for the order
When you couldn't go to school
Had a skin job for a hair-do
Yeah you looked pretty cool
Had a habit doing mainline
Watch the dragon burn
No regrets, you've got no goals
Nothing more to learn

Now I know you won't refuse
Because we've got so much to do
And you've got nothing more to lose
So take this number and welcome to

Operation: Mindcrime
We're an underground revolution
Working overtime
Operation: Mindcrime
There's a job for you in
The system boy, with nothing to sign

Hey, Nikki, you know everything
That there is to do
Here's a gun take it home
Wait by the phone
We'll send someone over
To bring you what you need
You're a one-man death machine
Make this city bleed

Now I know you won't refuse
Because we've got so much to do
And you've got nothing more to lose
So take this number and welcome to

Operation: Mindcrime
We're an underground revolution
Working overtime
Operation: Mindcrime
There's a job for you in
The system boy, with nothing to sign

Operation: Mindcrime
We're an underground revolution
Working overtime
Operation: Mindcrime
If you come to see the doctor
Yeah he'll give you the cure

Operation: Mindcrime
Make something of your life boy
Let me into your mind
Operation: Mindcrime
There's a job for you in the system boy
With nothing to sign

5. Speak

They've given me a mission
I don't really know the game yet
I'm bent on submission
Religion is to blame
I'm the new messiah
Death Angel with a gun
Dangerous in my silence
Deadly to my cause

Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak the word
The word is all of us

I've given my life to become what I am
To preach the new beginning
To make you understand
To reach some point of order
Utopia in mind, you've got to learn
To sacrifice, to leave what's now behind

Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak the word
The word is all of us
Speak the word
The word is all of us

Seven years of power
The corporation claw
The rich control the government, the media the law
To make some kind of difference
Then everyone must know
Eradicate the fascists, revolution will grow

The system we learn says we're equal under law
But the streets are reality, the weak and poor will fall
Let's tip the power balance and tear down their crown
Educate the masses, We'll burn the White House down

Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak the word (Revolution)
The word is all of us
Speak the word (Revolution)
The word is all of us
Speak the word
The word is all of us
Speak the Word
The word is all of us

SPEAK!!!

6. Spreading the Disease

She always brings me what I need
Without I beg and sweat and bleed
When we're alone at night
Waiting for the call
She feeds my skin

Sixteen and on the run from home
Found a job in Times Square
Working Live S&M shows
Twenty-five bucks (a fuck)
And John's a happy man
She wipes the filth away
And it's back on the streets again

Spreading the disease
Everybody needs
But no one wants to see

Father William saved her from the streets
She drank the lifeblood from the saviour's feet
She's Sister Mary now, eyes as cold as ice
He takes her once a week
On the alter like a sacrifice

Spreading the disease
Everybody needs
But no one wants to see

Religion and sex are powerplays
Manipulate the people for the money they pay
Selling skin, selling God
The numbers look the same on their credit cards
Politicians say no to drugs
While we pay for wars in South America

Fighting fire with empty words
While the banks get fat
And the poor stay poor
And the rich get rich
And the cops get paid
To look away
As the one percent rules America

Spreading the disease
Everybody needs
But no one wants to see
The way society
Keeps spreading the disease

7. The Mission

In the wooden chair
Beside my window
I wear a face born in the falling rain
I talk to shadows from a lonely candle
Recite the phrases from the wall
I can't explain this Holy pain

Six days ago my life had taken a tumble
The orders came from high above they say
A need to use me once again they've got my number
Further the cause boy yes you know the game

I'll wait here for days longer
Till the sister comes to wash my sins away
She is the lady that can ease my sorrow
She brings the only friend
That helps me find my way

I search the past back to a time
When I was younger
A target for the new society
Picked to displace the leaders
Countering objectives
Of this new underground reality

Waiting for days longer
'til sister comes to wash my sins away
She is the lady that can ease my sorrow
My love for her
Will help me find my way

My mission saved the world
And I stood proud
My mission changed the world
It turned my life around

I look around my room is filled with candles
Each one a story but they end the same
I'll hide away in here the law will never find me
The walls will tell the story of my pain

Waiting for days longer
Till sister comes to wash my sins away
She is the lady who can ease my sorrow
She sets the pace for my delivery of pain

They'll say my mission saved the world
And I stood proud
My mission changed the world
The underground will rise and
Save this world we'll all stand proud
Our mission changed the world, we'll change the world
We'll all stand proud

8. Suite Sister Mary

[SPOKEN]
[Dr. X:] "Kill her. That's all you have to do."
[Nikki:] "Kill Mary?"
[Dr. X:] "She's a risk, and get the priest as well."

10 P.M., I feel the rain coming down
My face feels the wet, my mind the storm
Flashing lights as people race to find shelter from the pour
Moving silent, through the streets, they're mine, they're
mine

Midnite, she sings praises in the Hall
To saintly faces hallowed be their names she can't recall
Sister Mary, virgin Mary, silent with her sin
( [Mary:] "What are you doing out in the rain?" )
She feels me, I can taste her breath when she speaks
( [Mary:] "I've been waiting for you. Come in." )

Mary, Mary just a whore for the underground
They made you pay in guilt for your salvation
Thought you had them fooled? Now they've sent me for you
You know too much for your own good
Don't offer me faith, I've got all I need here
My faith is growing, growing tight against the seam
What we need is trust, to keep us both alive
Help us make it through the night

[Mary]
I've no more want of any faith
Binds my arm and feed my mind
The only peace I've ever known
I'll close my eyes and you shoot

No Mary, listen, you've got to pull your strength from my
lips
I pray I feed you well
Your precious cross is gone, it made me wait so long
For what you gave to everyone
The priest is cold and dead on his knees he fed
From my barrel of death, he turned the Holy water red
As he died he said thank you
I just watched him bleed

[Mary]
I feel the flow, the blessed stain
Sweating hands like fire, and flames
Burn my thighs, spread in sacrificial rite
The hallowed altar burns my flesh once more tonight

Mary, sweet lady of pain
Always alone
Blind you search for the truth
I see myself in you, parallel lives
Winding at light-speed through time

No time to rest yet
We've got to stop his game
Before madness has the final laugh
Too much bloodshed
We're being used and fed
Like rats in experiments
No final outcome here
Only pain and fear
It's followed us both all our lives
There's one thing left to see
Will it be him or me?
There's one more candle left to light

[Mary]
Don't turn your back on my disgrace
The blood of Christ can't heal my wounds...so deep
The sins of man are all I taste
Can't spit the memory from my mind
I can't cry anymore

Mary, my lady of pain, always alone
Blind you search for the truth
I see myself in you, parallel lives
Winding at light-speed through time, you're mine

9. The Needle Lies

[SPOKEN]
[Nikki:] "I've had enough and I WANT OUT!"
[Dr. X:] "You can't walk away now."

I looked back once
And all I saw was his face
Smiling, the needle crying
Walking out of his room
With mirrors, afraid I heard him scream
You'll never get away

Cold and shaking
I crawled down alleys to try
And scrape away the tracks that marked me
Slammed my face into walls of concrete
I stared, amazed at the words written on the wall

Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle, it lies
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle when it cries...
Cries your name

Wet and raving
The needle keeps calling me back
To bloody my hands forever
Carved my cure with the blade
That left me in scars
Now every time I'm weak
Words scream from my arm

Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle, it lies
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle when it cries...
Cries your name
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle, it lies
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle when it cries...
Cries your name

10. Electric Requiem

([Nikki:] "Anybody home? Mary?")
Even in death
You still look sad
Don't leave me
Don't leave me...here
I want what you feel, believe me
Turn the current on

11. Breaking The Silence

They told me to run, but just how far?
Can I go wearing the black mask of fear?
The hate in my eyes always gives me away
The tension building slowly
Now I lost everything I had in you
Nothing we shared means a thing
Without you close to me
I can't live without you

Breaking the silence of the night
Can't you hear me screaming?
I look for your face in the neon light
You never answer me

There's no direction to my stare
No more flame burning in my heart anymore
Quiet, I keep it to myself
Until the sun sets slowly
I hear your voice in the evening rain calling
Nothing will keep us apart
No more lies and fear
There's no end to our story

Breaking the silence of the night
Can't you hear me screaming?
I look for your face in the neon light
You never answer
I could make all the wrong seem right
If you were by my side
I'd gather all the tears you cried
And hide them deep underground

Can't look back, it's just a waste of time
Can't erase this hate from my eyes

Breaking the silence of the night
Through the streets I'm screaming
Looking for you in the neon light
Why don't you answer me?
Breaking the silence with my cries
Can't you hear me screaming?
We could make all this wrong seem right
But you never answer me

12. I Don't Believe In Love

I awoke on impact
Under surveillance from the camera eye
Searching high and low
The criminal mind found at the scene of the crime
Handcuffed and blind, I didn't do it
She said she loved me
I guess I never knew
But do we ever, ever really know?
She said she'd meet me on the other side
But I knew right then, I'd never find her

I don't believe in love
I never have, I never will
I don't believe in love
It's never worth the pain that you feel

No more nightmares, I've seen them all
From the day I was born, they've haunted my every move
Every open hand's there to push and shove
No time for love it doesn't matter
She made a difference
I guess she had a way
Of making every night seem bright as day
Now I walk in shadows, never see the light
She must have lied 'cause she never said goodbye

I don't believe in love
I never have, I never will
I don't believe in love
I'll just pretend she never was real
I don't believe in lovev I need to forget her face, I see
it still
I don't believe in love
It's never worth the pain that you feel

No chance for contact
There's no raison d'etre
My only hope is one day I'll forget
The pain of knowing what can never be
With or without love it's all the same to me

I don't believe in love
I never have, I never will
I don't believe in love
I'll just pretend she never was real
I don't believe in love
I need to forget her face, I see it still
I don't believe in love
It's never worth the pain that you feel

13. Waiting For 22

[Instrumental]

14. My Empty Room

Empty room today
And here I sit
Chalk outline upon the wall
I remember tracing it
A thousand times, the night she died.
Why? (Why?)
There's no sleep today, I can't pretend
When all my dreams are crimes
I can't stand facing them
Now who will come
To wash away my sins
Clean my room, fix my meals
Be my friend?

15. Eyes Of A Stranger

[page:] Dr. Davis, telephone please. Dr. Davis
Dr. Blair, Dr. Blair, Dr. J. Hamilton, Dr. J Hamilton

All alone now
Except for the memories
Of what we had and what we knew
Every time I try to leave it behind me
I see something that reminds me of you
Every night the dreams return to haunt me
Your rosary wrapped around your throat
I lie awake and sweat, afraid to fall asleep
I see your face looking back at me

And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare

Is this all that's left
Of my life before me
Straight jacket memories, sedative highs
No happy ending like they've always promised
There's got to be something left for me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare [Lies behind my stare]

How many times must I live this tragedy
How many more lies will they tell me
All I want is the same as everyone
Why am I here, and for how long

And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare

INSTRUMENTAL / LYRICS (with effetcts)

REVOLUTION

I REMEMBER NOW