Friday, May 24, 2019

Alone or Lonely ???

Question:

Ever feel like you really have no one?
Alone is alone.

My Answer:

Do you have a pet ?

Are you lonely or alone ?

These two are very often confused... just curious. I often feel lonely, but never alone.

What is pulling me off center right now (I ask myself when/if I feel this way) ?

Faith is a most interesting aspect here very often.

You have a beautiful, sweet and sensitive, soul...it's easy to see in you.  My experienced guess is your probabbly easily hurt / upset and overly sensitive like me...which leaves me often alone because I'd rather just delete all drama by stating to myself most often... sadly that's become to easy too suffering from poor health.

As I'm getting healthier (personally, pacemaker/defibrillator in Aug 18 after massive heart attack, stroke CPR etc.) And I'm out a touch more each month, this overall feeling very similar to what you describe is departing.

In the past, I learned to often if not my initial feelings (never intuition) and address these things first if feeling anything at all peculiar.

H hungry
A angry
L lonely
T tired

Typically once one or more factors that need to be addressed are, the rest typically disappears honestly.

Quick healthy bite to nibble on. Pray / talk to nature, etc / remember your never alone and that your own personal higher power is always with you/ then I'd either take a nice short walk or take a nap.

We can't always as soon as possible, but on e we can, we should take care of ourselves.

Most folks in your boat are people pleasers that place themselves last too often out of life's necessity often.

Do something nice for you too...it's okay !

;) Hugs friend

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

Medical Marijuana Periodic Table & Medical Marijuana Color Spectrum / Marijuana Basics / Understanding the Medicinal Properties of Medical Marijuana Basics

Medical Marijuana Periodic Table (a.k.a. Swygert Marijuana Periodic Table)
&
Medical Marijuana Color Spectrum (a.k.a. Swygert Marijuana Color Spectrum)
&
Marijuana Basics
&
Understanding the Medicinal Properties

This will give you a very BASIC overview and primary foundational understanding of marijuana as a medicine, and also how to categorize it by it's appearance.

I call it the Medical Marijuana Color Spectrum

Keep in mind CBD oil is pitch black !

Essentially, if you have a bar color graph (or bar grap) imagine now that the lightest colors... whites and greens, etc. are on the right. On the left would be the extremes of black, the darkest browns and purples.

Often, if you break a bud apart and you will see multiple colors. You might see lighter whites with dots of purple and red or orange hairs perhaps. Pay attention to each of these facets as this is what's going to help you unlock this colorful spectrum.

If you were to just be observing a cured flower that was prepared and ready to smoke, upon breaking it apart and observing the facets mentioned above you will notice that overall this will fit somewhere from either the left side of the spectrum to where the darker colors are all the way to the right side where the lighter colors are.

99% of the time as your rule of thumb if you are on the right side of the spectrum you're smoking or utilizing marijuana that is higher in THC and of the Indica variety and if it is darker in color it is of the sativa variety and will be heavier in CBD and remember that you're going to be really looking at these comparatively on a ratio and so it's better to cross-reference this particular chart as your general rule of thumb against the other chart that I have not released yet and if I don't somebody else can because I am planting the idea here to make this exact science available to everyone and an easy study.

And another entry on my blog soon I will break down When you would rather have a sativa versus indica and what CBD does and what THC does and we will go over the finer points of what will be Medical Marijuana Periodic Table.

Essentially these will be things that are only quantifiable beyond basic identifi

Name / Strain
Type (Sativa /Indica)
Amount of THC
Amount of CBD
Ratio of another respectively ?.?%/?.?%
Parent strains, ancestery

We can have scientific ancestry of medical marijuana this way too

All Sativa will be color coded red and all Indica color coded blue. Green would be any hybrid(s).

The lightest colors in the spectrum on the right will mostly be indiciative of your "Indica" strains, and the other extreme the Sativa's on the left side of the bar color graph. In-between you have all the hybrids.

There are only these two types of marijuana plants, and what we want to understand is the aspect or ratio of THC to CBD respectively.

For Indica(s), my personal choice for many/most of my ailments, are heavily laden in THC, and less so in regards to CBD.

Sativa's essence is typically reverse to this.

Thinking of Indicas, they are the ones that are heavy in THC. Thinking of the Sativas, these are higher in the CBD content than THC... or opposite of the Indica(s).

A "hybrid" will be a breed of an Indica and Sativa often, although you could have a hybrid of two indica or a hybrid of two sativas as examples also, but referring back to hybrid that would be a breed of indica and sativa, you would have an overall ratio of THC to CBD which you would have to find desirable to your own personal tastes because ultimately that is precisely what gauge is what works best.

You may be treating a physical ailment that requires a certain ratio that you find works best. You may find that you focus best for a certain type of task with one type of marijuana versus another, but this is not to suggest that focus is better through the use of marijuana as opposed to not using it at all.

I can never stress strongly enough, moderation with respect.

THC is your psychoactive component and CBD is your non-psychoactive component. Both of these compounds and others found in the marijuana plant, act upon the cannabinoid system found within the human body.

THC is different for each user but it is something that you will immediately know has somehow seemingly almost altered your reality even though nothing around you changes.It's totally within you and your perception. When you are high, you know it. THC is therapeutic.

CBD has a powerfully calming effect upon the Central Nervous System and the body in general ! It's both calming and soothing.

There are many other cannabinoids in marijuana also, and many other chemicals as well, so it is important to understand that we are studying. These are the two most powerful aspects here, THC & CBD, but that does not include everything else through it's use and therefore, consumption.

The finest way to consume CBD or THC is in the absolutely purest form. Edibles and vaping are sensible if properly measured and respected.

There will be no pollutants in that way of consumption, and the body will have nothing to deal with as far as metabolizing pollutants, beyond its specific use within the cannabinoid system, an system you can read about and study through medical science.

Smoking marijuana is easy, but it is also detrimental to our overall health and is something that we need to try to shun more. It's an irritant & allergen. As society becomes more accepting of medical marijuana, so to will we pave the way to healthier ways of consumption. CAUTION: Edibles are wise but watch your dosage ! Give Time, Time !

One thing that is absolutely very critical to understand is that when you eat medical marijuana the liver metabolizes it completely different than if it were inhaled into the lungs, therefore these different chemical biproducts result in a completely different therapeutic and physical resulting metamorphosis that can be very important to understand and not be overlooked in medicinal use.

Of note,CBD will absolutely take away the cravings of marijuana which are purely psychological after long term use,and CBDwill help to crave the physical dependency as well.

With any drug,it is always wise to make smooth and gradual transitions so that the body is not charged in such a way that it sends shockwaves throughout our entire systems and this should be done under medical supervision or at least the knowledge of your doctor.
Again,as we move into a more progressive future where the average common knowledge rises to its highest levels and we evolve in the way we are able to practice medicine on the self with supervision, it will to be also understood that we will except medical marijuana in a short-term future coming soon and such a way that we might just be going to our grocery store to pick it up. When the shock and awe has worn off about this being legalized, and then we realize how commonsensical it is, it should be available to any adult.

For those that must hold on to law so that there will be some type of oversight then it would probably certainly be fine if it were made illegal to profit to grossly from the growth of marijuana, and it could become illegal to be conspiratorial and nature trying to control the pricing of any marketplace in the medical marijuana field, etc etc and we should follow through with more commonsensical and logical rational laws as such but remember where there is more law there's more government and where there's more government there is more cost in less efficiency, more bureaucracy and a greater cost to you the citizen in the end and this to the greatest detriment so really what MY CRY IS SIMPLY, LEGALIZATION NOT LEGISLATION.

I've made some tall orders herein, and as my health gains, I too will gain the upper hand on the promises I have made here, and elsewhere in my blog, and in life... as finally perhaps I will get to now enjoy the finer health God has granted me. That didn't mean it doesn't take due diligence. my own knowledge has come at great great cost and it must be shared so that others shall not suffer as I have, for what is a life not shared worth?

The main concept is to develop this as a tool so that others will be able to visualize the medicinal use of marijuana and how it breaks down from Indica to Sativa and this Periodic Table for Medical Marijuana will coincide with my graph, The Medical Marijuana Color Spectrum.

Essentially, there will be a protocol the breaks down the different facets as described and why they were chosen and based on this protocol a computer would order any strain based on its actual results or its median results depending on what criteria you would like to choose. You could use an electron microscope and be 100% right where you could meet use the median literature and probably be within range well enough to at least understand precisely how this medicine works.

This would work well accommodating the ever growing lusts if strains from myriad hybrids that will continue to flourish beyond even mankind, as likely it existed long before.

Plant life may be the most sentient of all, adapting and persisting in it's environments dynamic. We have much to learn in it's consumption and shall hold sacred it's gift of health and perspective.

Be not a fool in consumption of anything whatsoever.

Concerning medical marijuana, e're looking at more than just medicine. We're looking at science. We're looking at aspects of science that are critical to understand and therefore it is also wise to have a well-rounded foundational knowledge of those things of which this Science is based upon. That is simply so that you will draw forth the better understanding of the material that you are aasimilating today.

I am doing my best to compress for you, make a zip file if you will, more than a decade's work so that you can learn in an instant what it took a decade to compile studying and researching diligently.

Healing through more than most can fathom.

The body is a miraculous machine !

Plants give it it's best opportunity to heal naturally and through it's own systems.

Sometimes it's almost like each one of us is a Mother ship without a captain, and that is something that must change.

The basics of nutrition truly need to be taught and understood both, far better, and we must push further this envelope of becoming better, and better, stewards to our beautiful Mother Earth.

Being a good steward doesn't contain politics !

Care for your elders, as your turn awaits.

Saturday, May 18, 2019

As He Creeps Closer ~ I Am Program

The closer death creeps, the harder I work to evade him... he thinks. He thinks he has me often, but I've proven more elusive thus far than he. I've got him out-smatrted, as I Am already here and there too, omnipresent and a sentinel against his call. In time we each humbly depart, but not ever early upon this watch.

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

One Time At Quantico ~ Stories of A Truthful Variety ~ MobiusTripz

I swam across a lake once. Definitely stupid, as I'm no distance swimmer, much less a swimmer !!! Insane, yes please... but I was following a green beret right ??? I'd be fine...I can hang ...my Daddy... blub blub blub

Ok...I made it but damn...half way is the worst time to think you cannot make it and so you want to turn around. It's confusing and terrorizing. Glad I didn't drown in Breckenridge at Quantico Marine Corps Base !

Ok, I swam across a quarry.

On another time ...

I ate a black snake there with my friends, like my Dad did at ranger school. I killed it, gutted it, shinned it and had a nibble while my friends feasted.

In another ocassion there I was filled up in my 1984 Mazda b2000. I can tell you when because I got in troulble that day pretty good. I coyldnt remember lyrics all if a sudden and next thing I know red and blue lights are swerving behind me... No I'm swerving.

Before that though I had an adventure in the woods on the Marine Corps Base until some guys told me yo get lust before a tank flattens me or a humvee demosishes my tuna can b2000. Funniest drills I bet they ever had...you should have seen their faces !!
My first car, a 1968 Torino GT went four wheeling back there !!! Tough fucking car!!!! I beat it like a truck and still drive her  home.

The fun we had ... I miss that old red gt c striped 289 fastback. She was a 302 but got a 289 transplant. I've got a pacemaker defribrillator now. Go figure.

This life will contain none if those shenanigans this time. Re-Born hard and evolved.

I convinced the beer truck to stay an additional two hours after the Texas a & m reunion. It couldn't hurt,...right...but the tequila and the dominoes.... Oh boy !!!

Then the drive through the woods in the Mazda.

I eventually made it oyt of the area... eventually, after driving lost outside the base too. The oil light on too, all the way to Zed's bar on route one in Alexandria...floored !!! 2.0 was flying and wouldn't blow up !!!

I'm not scared of much of anything, especially when I'm drinking. That was a weird life before. This new one is like looking back at an really entertaining movie !!!

Friday, April 19, 2019

A Note To My Longest Known Friend I Abandoned Selfishly Decades Ago

Julie,

Unsure why I became less close... but between being molested (?-12) and turning to alcoholism strongly as a fun social crutch & a coping mechanism, and having to testify against a murderer...well... I shut everything and everyone down and out and became a superficial fool on my journey for decades... Lost

I've owed you a long over due apology for abandoning my best buddy but I guess I've been unsure about the "why" aspect of that until this post death # 1 thought I felt compelled to share.

I'm simply sorry for not being the friend you were to me... we once were for another.

Fukk... life is so weird and wild and wonderful and wicked too... MOSTLY MERRILY WONDERFUL !!!

Like looking back at memories you can view again that make today finally start to make a but more sense... At long last.

God... One day we just need to sit with your husband and all laugh and talk.

I need beautiful people to restore need and I've been shredded inside and out a good long while now. I'm finally had enough of me, and left me behind and found myself. I like myself, I didn't much care for me.

I'm drowning in tears if epiphany again, good tears friend ;)

Toast and a ciggy, on a porch in a tee-pee ! We were surely once crazy ;) & wtf about a Xmas tree ???

Shhhhhhhh

I'm so thankful God has spared me ;)

I'm so very proud of your Carolina Tiger Paws and your drive to enjoy life through triumph over tragedy.

I bet we have a little wisdom we didn't understand as kiddos.

Did you see that "thing" streak down the length of Morey Lane ??? We sat on a green grassy field, surrounded by scientists and military leaders and modern families, a stone's throw from the Fort Belvoir Proving Grounds.

...and so much more, and more.

What a childhood we shared... forever !

Hugs

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Death On August 12, 2018 ~ Pacemaker / Defribrillator Implanted August 15, 2018

Takosubto Syndrome Death August 12, 2018.

CPR & Defribrillator & Revival overall fails.

I lay dead on the emergency room bed.

I choose life (very consciously) and begin to speak after death...to the witnesses shock and amazement. As I was dead and I believe only two people were left in my room (emergency room ?).

Who wouldn't be a bit traumatized ???

20 + years of terror is kind of just calming down with this pacemaker. I have felt for decades like a tuning fork that was slammed against a concrete floor at a million miles per hour. I'm finally starting to be the me I remember and hoped some of my newer friends would finally get to meet. I don't know how anybody has tolerated me for the last decade. I'm far more than any handful. Now it's time to make up for lost time and I'm just very thankful that I am accepting of this pacemaker which for most people in my pacemaker support group, well even if they've had it a few years there mostly still freaked out. maybe the first coherence thing I said to anybody at the hospital was telling the doctor, I told you I needed a pacemaker and of course this was one of my cardiologists. That's when I woke up with all kinds of wonderful instruments hooked up to myself and well I knew I wasn't getting out of bed anytime soon when they told me just go ahead and pee LOL and then I said well I didn't look at my chest did you have to crack me open or not? I felt CPR and I just didn't want to look anymore so I knew at least well CPR and thank God only that but it was really not only that it was far more than that...

You can't even begin to understand the trauma I have experienced and that I'm just going to let it fade away like all the other tragedy in my life... I've watched tragedy like this kill many others and I'm still choosing life, like always... I choose to not stay centered in the tragedy and let it follow me but let it stay in the past just like when I was molested or just like when I saw a plane crash for my first memory or just like well whatever... that's life !!!

Here's what I can tell you...

What they say about Faith of just a mustard seed is no joke... but I tell now... please have much greater Faith than that little mere teeny tiny miniscule amount... don't be scared to have all of the Faith in the world within you so that you know that you can stand up and rise to life again through His Spirit !

I did !!!

I rose (started first speaking... I knew I would shock anyone listening (I think only two people still in the room and I think I was shocked three times (defribrillated) but I'm not sure since I was technically dead !!!) from death and witnessed it !

I had a choice and chose to come back after the fight I lost (CPR) and breaking my neck down the steps !!! .. all for love I can only dream about, and that perfect plutonic love I've only ever known once, pure as my Mother's love,... well, it saved me.

I was allowed to step back in town this body or choose to depart, and I only knew greatness was ahead either way, but here on Earth, I'd suffer even more but not in a way i once did either...as now I know of it's complete unimportance in fact as far as controlling me. I fear no death, no satan God and I outrun, nothing!

I'm free more than any man on the face of this earth today !

Smashing satan, Know Who I Am

What would happen if we were all really all feeling love at exactly the same time ?

Shame we must still imagine what should be reality.

Today, I smash satan even more in & under His name... contained.

Today, we place satan away and fear not anything ahead.

Fear is a tool of the weak to control the weakest. In knowledge of this fact, fear / satan is banished.

In God, The Word, The Life, The Gift, and call Him as you do, for no Earthly name can ever be perfectly correct or anyone ever know His other worldly non-Earthly name.

The Spirit, One,  Father & Son, Holy Ghost, what language and name have you now? ...and to fight over the Almighty's name & message ? Who are you ?

Watch how and where you conduct business in or near thy Father's home !