Getting Older & Moving Possessions Along

I'm nearly 52, and at Dad's house, belongings I couldvoavk into my truck and haul home still abound. I don't want to make a full exit, and in sure Dad, as mom didn't want me to either, so hmmm, odd but interesting things of my past to comfort me and keep my room comfortable. The space comfortable. We, an aging family fast, want a home that represents love and a happy nest, and no need for a full retreat anyhow, yet still, at my own age, possessions must be now quickly shed. I know now how ive done what I use to easily do. I don't have the same desires. I already know the easier way coming, and ive fought against it hardcore, even though many would think not perhaps. I've been a warrior against disease that will have me eventually, but never today, and thus far I have survived over odds for many days, it will only win one, again, eventually, not today.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

I have a lot in Pittsburgh.

What's the cheapest quickest way to excavate a driveway up from the street and onto the property so I can dump some crush and run gravel?

Maybe place an ad on Facebook & craigslist and try to contract it out?

Anybody know anyone interested possibly or that is themselves personally qualified, inbox me!

I'd probably be even more inclined to sell/trade the lot too if anyone wants a lot in the Spring Hill subdivision and right close to the stadiums downtown and the casinos. It's not much, but it will make a cool camp to park and overnight once a driveway is cut and electric and water hookups are added. Perfect to pull a camper or dock the RV at!

I've got to simplify and make useful all in my life, or give/do away with where it serves the best interests and therefore I'm flexible. It's next to at johns Lutheran church's cemetery, and I may approach them about possibly buying the property, or bequeathing it to them after I use it with a driveway as outlined, essentially, to enjoy tone in Pittsburgh without making a more permanent commitment, like the house that was once next door to the property that I own... now demolished and gone, I'd some it and kept only the land last time health kicked my ass and took everything.

So, generally speaking... I'm open-minded to ideas that either simplify life and/or make use of my possessions or otherwise I must depart with many things soon.

Hmmmmmmmm

If you read all that and your me... what would you do? I enjoy the idea that I can skip from Cumberland west to Pittsburg @125 miles, or east to Baltimore at 125 or southeast to Alexandria (DC) @150 miles and be able to comfortably nest a couple of days. That's been the dream anyway, but no connection to Baltimore any longer.

I want to explore and enjoy the arts while I skip from city to city, from my home city cradled in the mountains that are Cumberland, while learning more about what works and what doesn't concerning populations of people.

I cannot help but be fascinated but still want to be able to hero my distance, like an animal that has from people, I must be able to escape to the primal reality that is the woods so I can commune in spirit, or I feel disconnected to my higher power. The mountains speak volumes loud and clear to me, the cities too often tragic tales and terribly difficult lessons. It simply challenges of humanity concentrated at high numbers and more easily able to observe that which is fruitful and not and how do we next go about remedying these concerns, or not.

Something of each one of these cities and its people that I find deeply charmed by, and at ease too. I grew up in Alexandria, visiting DC in my youth often, and I've visited Baltimore since youth too, and once had a contract to purchase a home there, ...and Pittsburgh was the return to my birth state but otherwise really a personal adventure of my own completely, attracted by the professional team's, the arts, the entertainment, and the casinos together, and the rest of the growing spirit if the city. I dream of watching the steelers one year in the future. I was in Alexandria when our beloved skins one several super bowls, and I've been close to Baltimore, but I want to live a single season in Pittsburgh and watch a super bowl...because what even better perspective could there be to write about? I'm waiting for the next alignment in Pittsburgh, and my health and those things are happening now.

So now, what would you do?

It's just really hard to give up on my dreams.

...and in all these travels, music and musicians always surround me, celebrating and sharing life and helping another maintain balance through difficult times.

The Look I Realized Was Fear of Death, On Turn, Fear of Life

The fear in everyones' eyes is so obvious, once the fear has departed from within your own soul permanently first, as now you realize with clarity what you saw within everybody else eyes before that puzzled you so. Life from this new perspective is fresh and revealing instead of scary as before; as now I'm certain of the realm that awaits, and the beautiful and perfect journey that will lead me Back Again to His. Kingdom, no matter how difficult the journey. In life i'll fear, but fear death any longer, i'll not ever again.

Remembering and Building Faith Shared with Me Freely, Together We Survive, May Peace Reign Forevermore

So... yesterday while visiting Alexandria, Virginia, I went to vidit a friend at his home. I was certain it was behind Carl Sandburg Intermediate (old Fort Hint High School). I got back to Ramparts and stopped. I knew, only just now, that my memory was completely incorrect. I'd only been there once before, but it wasn't here... it was somewhere erroly close.

I suffered a heart attack / stroke (and far more multiple applications) last Aug 12, 2018 and this in apparently one of my black hole memories, as I call them (very few and very light).

I was certain I was correct 100%, as I'd already informed my father, whom I'm visiting, where he resided.

Fortunately, ..."Google"...and i had a proper address, an AHAaaaaa moment, and i was personally refreshed...however, i definitely distinctly remembered this... WRONG :(...not terribly wiring though...parts we're right or close, and do somehow, neurologically overlap.

It's also, I'll mention, a completely different feeling than... "you know what's his name...oh, from school days, oh um"... well, it's not like that. It's a for certain with either an unexpected blank at the end or just completely wrong as in this case (worst yet, of very small handful)...as weird as it is/was, it's insignificant overall, however, it shows a percentage of damage which is an offense... sometimes i have a new deja vous like feeling too, but it's hard to describe too. A few new strange peculiarities. I'm like myself,with a few surprises from time to time.

I use to be great with names years ago, less so more recently, but i think I'm getting better there again... still not great though.

Other memory has new dead ends where momeort just quits (as normal) and then sometimes its like I'm looking into a file for the rest. It's like it's all my memory, then the rest was added. That's a bizarre feeling!

Our minds are incredibly powerful, and I'm so very thankful i did not suffer catastrophic damages under the extreme circumstances i suffered.

Beyond incredible professional medical help, I attribute this success to aspirin and faith.

Chew one large aspirin in a heart / stroke event... if you do not have a history of stomach stomach, bleeding ulcers.

I had a stroke, heart attack, asthma, lactic acidosis, viral sepsis, CPR & fell down the steps and dislocated two vertebrae (still)...the doctors we're certain if broken my neck indeed.

I'm in shock daily, truly, still, that not only I survived, but that I'm able bodies and even in less pain then beforehand, but differently too. I've not been advised as to what i can and can not do. As far as my heart goes, i can fi whatever i want! Just hit that all clear, but my neurologist is sending me to another neurologist (my 4th or 5th in life) for nerve testing, as i have nerve damage Fri. my neck injury, but also carpal tunnel in both hands.

Oh, well...life is about the adventure. For now, i have yo spiritually be one larger than my pain. I must move like the wind with god's grace and thankfulness.

Yesterday, i cried on a good part of my trip through the mountains, and down and southward to our nations capital, where I was raised.

The growing thankfulness for my upbringing, my life, my friends of yesteryear and today, all growing immensely, as i journey into a spacetime, i had already moved forward towards in death once, and returned from that definite brink.

As part of my mind mends or has missing memory, other memory, new, is just hard to even describe or tell others about, as it's experience from a realm not physical and it sounds insane, except that it's all in perfect alignment with others who have NDE's (near death experience)...abd u wasn't near death. I stopped breathing and had no pulse a while before I returned. I'm unsure of those specifics, but I'm going to ask, soon. I'm not ready for other details quite yet. What i remember is insanely traumatic, and most don't believe I remember what I do and can. Most never get to make the phone call i made to get help. Of just my heart condition alone, Takotsubto Syndrime, 6% survive what I survived... that's not including all the other things I suffered.

My team of miraculous healers performed what I feel is without a doubt a pure multitude if miracles, as though they brought Light back from over the edge of the event horizon of a black hole.

Fred Zevin, all data was not fully lost... but close... so very, very close.

I'm thankful we are only offered that which God is confident we can handle.

I'm looking forward to soaring again, and soon! This is everything I've ever lived for, everything!

Thank each of you for being part of the blessings in my life. Even those of you who don't believe in prayers and blessings, you too have blessed me! What's that make you?

I've only got ahold of life because others re-used to give up on me! Why do we give up on too many others??? Why??? Others want to live too, and we turn our backs to them all too often...lets help lift others up past life challenges and past the point of giving up on the self and let's restore the inner personal value to life we should all hold and carry for another.

Sadly, today we can look around and read about or watch the consequences of instilling a poor value for life upon a generation, as seemingly, we have mistakently burdened a generation or more as such, as we must unite now to overcome our shortcomings and heal together.

No more purposeful division, because we all must be very determined within that we came thus far to heal and also because we are firgesd now tougher than ever, a part of each our inherent destiny, to prove that life has a deep and meaningful value that all should be able to cherish, protect, and in the pursuit if happiness, should always be able to pursue through their dreams to their heart's content.

Thanks each of you for blessing me. Blessings and prayers are the gifts and manifestations I receive from the outpouring of love from the actions and sharing of others... and even through a selfish storm, I've been blessed more deeply than known possible to me previously, except that I do believe in Faith and I KNOW what Faith can do if it's even just Faith in minute an amount as a mustard seed.

In death, mountains moved for me to survive, and upon my return, Faith in humanity once lost, was forever in an instant restored. I've been baptized in water of peace now, at last, and so may it Reign, for ALL, forevermore.

Kratomism ~ New Religion ~ Basic Introduction to Idea

Kratomism

The worship of plants and the use of plants for health, well being and all other facets they so offer.

For the pain different, the elders, the weak, etc...Kratom is a life changing gift we cherish and are thankful for to our Higher Power.

We, as a group, are not organized nor does those funds, however, we do congregate and treat condition with plant and phant extracts as part of our protected religious rights.

Many of us are herbalists, practice multiple different varying other complimentary religions and ate a wide and vast array of the population. We include all and exclude nobody, we have no membership but your declaration, which includes a self commitment to personal due diligence, education and application of lessons in life, and sharing wholeheartedly and free, these lessons. We understand that services alone are not free, however we minister help where suffering awaits our arrival with keen mind and desire.

We pray to free the soul of the bonage of addictive chemicals, and we look to our natural and organic toolbox first, however reflecting all tools available, and professionals that are complainentary in philosiphy too, we seek to understand all tools at hand and their proper possible application(s).

We promise to never tamper or contaminated any source and with respect to nature itself, we practice this good stewardship in all of our motions through life.

We live the Christian, the Jew, the Muslim, the Aetheist, the Agnostic, etc and we understand with deep devotion that denomibation only divides.

We seek to heal and cleanse the vessel (body) and the spirit to offer the mind the clearest view.

Today, we are like the most powerful telescopes, but obstructed because when our vision is blurred, we are controllable and predictable, both...both, highly valuable to those with the ability to exploit those attributes.

Kratom is our blessed plant of source that treats our disease of addiction in the most kindest way known, but only as it is a leaf.

Once extracted and concentrated (MG&H7MG) then we will have an evolution and historic problem mirroring the history of cocaine!

Respect is undersyandibg how the indigenous have used this powerful compound(s) related to gardenia and coffee and that works on the opiod receptors,  for thousands of years!

To otherwise regime what they have already evolved as a simple practice, is foolish. Much would be gained, however far more likely lost. A new powerful analog could be synthesized however that would absolutely end the opiod crisis without a doubt. Ask me how I know how!

There will be great movement by the $$$ from big pharma and lobbying groups to outlaw this plant, here in the USA, and this push will only continue and increase in it's assault on healing.

No healthy person has ever overdosed on clean, tested from source, properly fosed kratom! NOBODY ever!

Those that have died have been either ill, used too much (almost impossible in natural state) or used contaminated sources of leaf or combined this with other drugs, mixing a deadly cocktail...still, very hard to do.

There is plenty at my blog to read and plenty available online, so DO NOT let the mainstream media tell you nobody knows about this trees leaves. That's complete and utter hogwash and scare tactics.

Kratomism is here, and we Kratomists insists that we be always allowed to utilize this powerful herb in it's natural form in order to practice our methods of faith and devotion in healing, and I pray others respect this natural birth right.

We believe this of all plants and use them medicinally, however not necessarily solely individually.

We find statistically that the body better knows how to metabolize and excrete organic molecules as opposed to synthesized molecules or compounds, and therefore when we use plants, there is a much less likely statistical likelihood for autoimmune responses.

I will expound on some of these statements and further organized as life progresses and make a very presentable rational logical decision why you should think about practicing this religion alongside your religion. Compliments every single religion in the idea is to promote life and to keep your body and spirit and mind clean and healing quick and as efficient as possible with the least likelihood to have long-term problems ahead because of what you did today and even more so to promise that you are living a life of preventative maintenance and care with your actions in thought and concern about what you consume and even how it is packaged it harvested so much so that in every motion of your life you are truly paying your homage to life itself in the gift that it is while trying to hold on to it as healthfully as possible.

The basic tenets is to promote healthful life. Promote life, all else is a lie. Understand that denominations divide.

Do your due diligence.

Together, we survive to thrive.

Big Tobacco Victory Banning E-cig Flavours, Other Than Tobacco Flvour

The recent tragic death from upper respiratory concerns which have been blamed on vaping have spurred a ban on e-cigarettes flavored juices and all will be banned except for tobacco flavored. This is a huge win for big tobacco. Was a bandwagon build upon tragedy and abused in such a way now to impact a multitude of business and investors with big tobacco coming out on top looking for this precise strategic blow they had without a doubt planned for and waited patiently for it. It is the illicit Black Market drugs that have introduced contaminated products into the marketplace and put others Health in jeopardy. Vaping is not a great alternative to smoking anyway, and those that are immune-compromised should really pay attention to what's happening around them regardless of what the total outcome is of this and we know part of that or just a small factor of that outcome is contaminated illicit Black Market cartridges that people were vaping but that will not be because totality of the health concerns at hand because we will be watching those play I've ever the next several decades.

The bigger truth is fishes a trillion dollar market place and there are big corporations looking to lock in on their share of that Marketplace and there has been a great amount of covert behind doors lobbing and I promise you you will see who benefits the greatest from this, and also who is hurt.

I am one hundred percent never for any marketing that promotes anything towards children especially negative things, however anything really should not be marketed towards children. It should be marketed towards educated adults and then making decisions in the best interest of their children. But we know that's not the reality that we live in nor will it ever be.

What we need to do is flush out the criminals and that's going to take proactive and reactive measures at this time and it's doing cost more lives before we start reacting also. That's just the nature of things also sadly. There's big money to be made and people want a slice of that pie and greed goes a long way towards these so far unaccounted for fully, deaths.

Don't fall for he bullshit politics and shirt gap half measures being taken from an oppitmrtunistic pint of view. What proof if we have that flavored vaping juices that are legal have to do with any of this?

Don't market that's a children! However, more alternatives to hideous smoking are better than less any day!

Ultimately, vaping should be a bridge to cessation only, not a new habit.

Life Exists Inside Black Holes, and Other Interesting Contemplations to Consider

Life is present only past the event horizons of black hikes...or at leafy somewhere close enough to just almost get a glimpse over that "edge".

Think about it, where else could life be but where light can not escape?

Can't a star be a black hole on a 90° (or some other angle) tilt to our planetary axis and point of view?

It's too dark elsewhere.

Think about it and how matter and light is drawn into the black hole  It makes sense that matter gets shredded and becomes gaseous next, breaking bonds that can it survive the forces there. Stars are burning gasses, or the gasses are so hot that they turn to plasma and luminous perhaps through the nuclear fission of the natural condition due to the physics of that particular area of spacetime.

So life might not live past the Event Horizon but think about the point that it has to be closed, and therefore from one black hole to another black hole it would be hard to spot in life without using some type of Observatory that is ready to look into that at the right Celestial angle or from the proper plane perspective. This is very critical when understanding and considering the real and fascinating shape of the fabric of space-time itself.

We are adrift, a black hole like a magnet keeps us a flat at a position planarly speaking, and sets us into motion at a galactic height and we move and orbit and circle in this way. The fabric of space-time like a funnel holding the earth as we ourselves are in a planetary hole. The moon a lunar hole, and other planets in their own planetary holes, with the force of the galactic black hole keeping us all in perfect synchronized lockstep union in perpetual regards with another, as if gears of a celestial angelic clock.

We cannot see into or past that event horizon to observe other life.

We, as they, will learn (maybe / likely have) already warped spacetime with powerful focused energy beams and sailed across the vacuum of spacetime with microwave drive sail ships that soon will go from unbelievable yo mothballed projects eventually not been believed to have ever existed, as will happen most recently with the space shuttle.

I'm amazed at what my eyes have witnessed in a short 52 years, truly. Especially since about 1977-1979, since our first family computer...and even before that a bit the TRS-80 model iii, that still works by the way ;)

Nobody believed things I shared once long ago, not do they often now...thinking I'm in some fantasy land, however, I very clearly see in minds eyes the future that will most certainly be, unless mankind is throttled by nature in such a way that the entire shift makes society itself go into a tailspin... the usual demise the rising past populations that were toppled by nature.

Let's get onward to the planets, their moons, and next, out of our galaxy and far, far away. A new people that were born in space will appreciate that we gave them that opportunity to explore far past these boundaries.

Let's built space cities and ships that scare with coordinated design and engineering and thrust into this new world we are already living in today.

It takes a new economy, and we are firing up that forging process of economic power today with only the finest technological standards, and the highest quality most modern design materials combined to offer the finest design and machine mankind has ever known to date and all while continuing to be better and better stewards to mother earth, understanding it's in our own best interests to strike balance regularly in all of our endeavors, understanding that mother nature, through the laws of equilibrium, will restore that balance sooner if we don't maintain it ourselves. It's natural law, really indisputable. It the way of the ancients, the indigenous, the tribal, the Indians, and it should be the way for all to survive.