Innocent Beginning
Before it started,
it was all cake and ice cream,
the Pentagon & a 65 blue Mercedes 220 S.
My Mom and Dad married young college grads,
West Point the Pentagon,
It's hard to believe time passes so fast !
I was in school
Murder,
murderer you theif,
you decided for more than yourself,
you decided you'd act out and changed and ruined so many others destinies.
You can't have me!
Married,
I'm married...
I'm leaving being hurt so many times all behind,
Happily married,
I got married,
Finally my life would settle finding bliss.
Fukk no,
Full no,
I can't believe my wife was a hoe !
Fukkin' for $$$,
Still all these years later now she is sick,
thought she hung up,
I heard it all,
lying to the doctors,
trying to score the drugs,
I get it but it makes me so sick...
As I wean off Fentanyl and transition to morphine,
with supervision while I'm disentigrating,
I'm pitching fast balls of stone at glass houses.
Black Endings !!!
I'm begging for your prayers,
nobody hears anymore,
Nobody cares...
It's getting blacker, blacker, blacker quickly fast,
Flying high,
You have no idea the rides,
what I have seen,
sometimes I'd rather die,
than to survive,
and yet somehow,
yet still I still stand!,
Alive, alive, alive.
screams neglected I...,
Load the bullet into the chamber,
ease my coldness into my trigger finger as I ease that trigger back,
my heart starts racing,
as I release the safety,
the sweat is pumping,
Next I...
I fucking wake up soaking wet,
Breathing heavy,
I'm losing it man,
Losing my fukkin' shit !
Losing it so fukkin' fast...
Going down so fast !!!
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