It's amazing how I felt more at home dying in the hospital and being given the attention I needed and deserved then I do out in this world amongst what are friends.
If that felt like a slap in the face, good. Wake up. I want your attention. not in the selfish way you're thinking. Not because I'm a narcissist like you think, but because I want your undivided attention to make sure you're listening.
If there were one of me, and ten thousand of you... If I kept you all busy fighting, think what I could do !!!!!!!
My friends are in such trouble they don't have time to share love with me or lift me up. I finally have bootstraps and they are mother fukker.
Compared to what I've been through recently, I'm really tired of other people's complaining. Quit being a bunch of little pussies and grow up. Start treating people properly and just promote life and keep it simple like that and keep your lips sealed.
I was a wild Capricorn a life ago but I am a Leo now and I am starting to see things in a different light. I am not the center I was nor will I be again.
I don't expect the Great wide World At Large to forgive the man I was, s*** I couldn't forgive myself. God did though in an instant and he still has an outstretched hand for you each.
Many would think this a lie and scoff but my experience has only reinforced all of these things to myself and I wonder even more so of the World At Large, those that know the real me.
I was once accused of being holier than thou and you know that means that they thought that that's how I think of myself, and I would like to think that nothing could be further from the truth to a degree but then I'll just take it as a compliment also. If you want to hate me that's not my doing. Where others have wanted to hate me and if what was my doing I will fully accept that responsibility and we'll work diligently always to try to mend my Wicked Ways but again that's a different life.
Today oh, I have choices to either promote life or to not promote life and I have choices to participate in events that will unfold that will either do one or the other above as well. I have the choices to make that I surround myself with people that promote life or people that don't and that too is my choice.
I speak about me because I don't want to offend the you out there, the worldwide audience that is over-sensitive like an emotionally immature child and a spiritually bankrupt being that will never become an evolved being that most people don't even realize that that is the answer to the ultimate question, the meaning of life.
If you want to understand what is the meaning of life, then you must understand what it means to become an evolved being or else this will never come to pass until the cycle in which it does for you, and then you will know exaltation, but until that time failure will most often surround you with only glimpses of the promises ahead possible for you with the right choices.
I cannot clean up the debris of a wicked passed swiftly, but I can work at it diligently like the amends I know must be made.
I think soon the human journey will take great adventure and it will be in a way that you will not hear from me anymore for quite a time, if ever.
I heard my calling and I stated it and I have since been offered a job and I want to chase that dream as fast as I can run while there is still time as everybody is dying around me.
It's going to be chasing those dreams trying to save the loved ones in the lives of those being swiftly taken by the Wicked This coordinated theif in the night.
If you all have time to b**** and complain all the time, certainly you have time to reach out a hand in it help to another, right ?
If not, come look me in the eye and I will tell you to go fuck yourself.
I heave the boulder at my own Glass House, as I pray to continue to shatter the past wake I made and only amends and service from here forward be known.
I'm going to live now a life of more service than I have ever known and of being the man that I have desired but upon the path of which I have never walked. I've had a glimpse or observed others and I can tell you about every single thing not to do. Now however it's my turn. I did have to fight a long time angry to find the healing that God offered me and it was definitely through angels and those are First responders and folks that work at the hospital that I prayed to join in that mission and in that spirit so shared.
I pray that nobody ever knows the pain and suffering I've known and served and testified to and against or committed or truly been a victim of.
We all make up this imperfect world and we all need to learn how to share responsibly in making it a better place for the things that we have done in the past together too.
Remember for every soul there's eight fingers to possibly point for blame from each one individual other person. That's a lot of hurt and pain to go around and that's what we all sling today with both hands in action and our vicious sword like tongues.
I have held a vast social influence in reality and that is upon the digital world and klout which is no longer, once a website that rated individual artists from YouTube to an individual like myself, rated me in the top 20% of social influence. For what and who ?
$ doesn't spend in my Father's House.
Also please, spare me your religion. I find it all sickening and it truly only through denomination divides.
All human beings will fail you and it is the importance of understanding that Faith must be placed in something, really truly anything, other than a human being.
Again take the confusion out of everything because that which does not promote life would instantly be evil, and in the other direction move swiftly from this place or sound or voice or event or happenstance or whichever way it is manifested in the moment because wickedness is this elusive trick.
If there's somebody out there that thinks I don't know what I'm talking about, go ahead and call me out here now.
My time is already marked and I know where I've already been and I know where I shall return and I have no fear.
I hope not to depart anytime soon, but there will never be anybody that will hold my mind or my tongue so that I may not articulate my very souls desires with them and I certainly understand civility and I certainly understand the law and I certainly understand respect for nature and mankind and all of those things far beyond this and greater of which support life and trust me I don't need your lessons, I know precisely where to find exactly what I need to sustain me for eternity.
A leader of men says I know a better way and this is it and that's the way I'm going and I hope that you will walk side-by-side with me if you would like this better way but you to have free will and until whatever time should come to pass I only pray to call you friend.
My heart truly hurts for the wickedness I've known and the hatred that I have bared witness to my soul.
I'm just as heathen as another and I very poorly relinquish anchor and I very poorly forgive and I think those things now have been granted a pardon but only time will tell.
I'm finally becoming quiet and calm her inside and determined in the man I thought I might never become because I never felt within that I would be granted this much time or opportunity and which to really become the man I knew I could be, my father & My Father.
My Mother even more so too, or dare thee that looks any other way !!!!!!!
I'm quite tough as nails and I will beat your ass and I have a lot of experience in a lot of crazy environments and I stand up for everything I said above and that means that you get a second chance but you're going to get an ass whipping if you're doing those things that are not in alignment with promoting life.
You can't be an evolved being without first having been unevolved.
We all live in a glass house.
There Is No escape, truly, from The god's-eye view.
Whatever beautiful religion you worship that promotes life, carry it close to your heart and soul and be an example of the greater love we all know within.
One Voice
One Source
One
~ofLove
~withLove
~byLove One
~ throughLove
~forLove
One
I Am ProGram
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