I've never known the growing loneliness I am experiencing, as I am today, and recently.
The world seemingly gets colder, as I grow older.
Forsaken, as what do I have left to offer?
There are no golden pastures of sunshine left ahead, no rainbows upon which to dream, nobody who cares to love me anymore, loneliness just screams.
Once my oyster, this world betrays me, and the overwhelming thoughts tormenting me, in silence, I've been left behind, left to die and rot, forgotten completely and utterly.
I understand my friend's note upon death about desiring release, and it's haunting me.
Did I fight back for this? For all of the nothingness? And alone I sit on my throne, a king in his castle, alone.
I look at the volume of wealth in my surround, and for who now to enjoy it with, I'm more broken than my already broken heart.
Who would want to share any of this?
Welsch, Cyborg∆Steve the BrokenHart... its a royal damned bloody genetic disease, indeed... You've crushed me in your silence, you of all, I never dreamed would forsake me.
I will never ever measure up for my Queen, and so a choice... go mad, or go quiet and fast, is now all that's left in front of me.
I dreamt of family, and joy, and love forever shared, and then made my return forom death... thought you'd find me by now, ten months passed, passed my first death, heading now to part two fast... the heart hurts because of my damned love for you.
I'm a delusional fool, too old to rule, to young to die, and I promised God & myself, My Dearest Sweetest Love, never to give up on you.
I only came back for you... the only love I've ever felt so perfectly true, it's your love for the taking, this one sided affair, this love and even all of my makings, but more likely returning to heaven fast, in my head I jumped, to my death soon, just as my friend before me, behind my home from the "Bridge To Heaven", I flew.
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