Scizophrenia's Sinister Plot ~ Thank God Karma Is Quick ~ Poetry / Lyric

Black sinister seeds planted and nourished with illicit chemicals,
a mind quickly disentigrates,
a sick jealous man steals you away forever,
his own tell tale heart his life to insinerates!

I lost you down a NIN black hole spiral,
you changed before my very eyes,
your reality distorted not real,
your hallucinations distorting,
both our realities and that of everything around us now so quickly falling down.

Hurt

The illness came a definite theif in the night and sense then your not there much anymore left of the beautiful do sweet lady I lived and knew, my Queen, damn it I miss you so, thankful for a year and a half we at least got to one another know.

Something I can never have.

Black sinister seeds planted and nourished with illicit chemicals,
a mind quickly disentigrates,
a sick jealous man steals you away forever,
his own tell tale heart his life to insinerates!

The people you hear that are not even there,
only the Lord knows what you see and perceive,
I lost you quick knew not how to react,
I was your lover your friend, forever Steve.

Help,
Get help I demanded,
I screamed,
I was no longer the rock,
together now adrift in this storm,
I'll prepared and ignorant with no experience or foreshadowing,
I fell ill and I'll equipped,
tripped forward,
unfortunate blackness and sin,
finds me somehow,
chases me over and over again.

Black sinister seeds planted and nourished with illicit chemicals,
a mind quickly disentigrates,
a sick jealous man steals you away forever,
his own tell tale heart his life to insinerates!

The hand that feeds.

Ouch, you bite the hands that feed!

An ex-husband chasing the 🐉,
lost focus on what we fought over and he won,
he had no value for the victory,
thrashed and trashed you all and now fading fast,
it's a dismal place ahead,
I think unfortunately somehow,
a while this will last,
always getting deeper,
and darker faster,
blackness always comes so fast.

Will we ever​ escape this black dysmal​ abyss?

My Queen,
almost my wife,
a Mother,
a lover,
taken,
all lost in an instant it seemed,
a sinister plot,
a neighbor was sick,
tried later to take me and another,
I thank God karma is quick !

Smothered and Choked ~ Poetry / Lyric ~ MobiusTripz

Lives two,
shared close,
we created,
adored & loved.

Illness, not an exact science, now wished, worked for and prayed,
a smothering presence destroys,
chemicals steal dreams of futures and identities of past's proof,
track records,
who we once we're.

A stranglehold ever tighter,
can't you see as I say I love you?,
as I can now only think I love you?,
as I now can only pray,

I love you...

I begin to fade,
you are squeezing harder,
cannot you see through your rage?,
We are all turning blue.

Life,
a delicate balance of resilient will power,
grip getting tighter,
I'll again make it through,
a survivor always makes it through.

I love you,
I love you,
I love y

Good Riddance Terrorists - Free Verse Poetry - Goodbye Kim Jong Il

Don't Tread On Me !!!

As went Saddam Hussein,
so as Mumar Khadhafi,
and oh yes, Binladen too,
the same fate belies Kim Jong Un !

Goodbye,
and good riddance to each of you.

Terrorists cannot change an American way of living!

You will never change the way a single American or other free human being lives.

Actions only paint huge targets upon yourselves and your brethren,
soon you too shall have eternal sleep !!!

You traded eternal life for eternal rest !!!

Understand the errors of your ways I pray today this instant,
and cease the hurt you dispense doing the evil ones work! ...
and open the mind to accommodate and accept freedom and culture from all.

The mind and body and spirit God given and therefore shall forever shall be individually free.

Listen hear as I'm only saying​ this once,

Don't Tread On Me !!!

Unity Is The Only Road To Victory ~ Excerpt ~ I Am Program

Next, when nobody ever would have expected, the zombies and the humans had to band together to fight Artificial Intelligence, yes old A.I. had to come of evil age as Hawking head predicted !

I have to admit personally it was one of the most difficult transitions to all of a sudden embrace the culture I couldn't stand but against AI that we had no choice and we figured if we were going to hate we would postpone our personal hate for later because we had a much greater enemy at hand.

It's amazing right when you think you know so much in life, you get one of these lessons that follows up and shows you don't know squat. Moving forward I try to open my mind further but you can never open to mind further up to the unexpected that I know and have seen and have lived for such a long, long, very long time.

Stem cell therapy revolutionized the medical industry and artificial intelligence let us maximize the very few professionals we had left in the medical field so that we could indeed administer to our "collective". Personally, I am on my 5th Century and I have no regrets... and I'm younger than ever !

I agreed I would only father children once every five centuries as there were rules in place so that we would not jeopardize the human race which had grown into an even more evolved and more diverse greatness than mankind had ever known at a time when we also had abundance and efficiency finally dialed in and equality through spirit at last no longer a battle but a guarantee.

There were times during my travels over these last centuries that I wondered how long could my spirit keep teleporting along through different biological matter where I always would find a new home just like everybody else except the newborns, the angels from above of which we knew not exactly what gifts we would be bestowed with.

Like always I could talk all night but it was time to get moving and I have to say I've never felt better in all of my life and I'm thankful for every experience good and bad and for all those that have forgiven as I have as well and to know that we have achieved some forms of greatness but yet still there is the struggle, the adventure, life.

I must get dressed early for tomorrow starts yet another incredible chapter.

Excerpt ~ I Am Program

Flying High ... Bring You Lows ~ Poetry / Lyric

Flying high...

Paid $300 for my 95 E320 and fixed her with a chisel and a hammer and it's been a year and I haven't put one single penny other than gas in her sense.

I'd say this old dog still knows some pretty decent good old tricks and I might be a little bit slower but anything but dense.

I picked up a beautiful 79 Lincoln Mark 5 for 750 because I save every penny like none have never been spent.

I got to put a quart of transmission fluid in her power steering pump every time I want to take her for a spin but once a month it's worth it and she's beautiful and doesn't deserve where others would have sent their long ago...
I get out of here and I always want to dance.

It's these cars these projects that sometimes keep me alive just because I dream about getting out there and being a part of them and that future when we're going to have Destiny collide.

I've got an old RV another $300 that was like something I could not believe in to you the angel who reads this you will know who you are I just still can't say thank you enough.

I'm just a guy like the rest trying to get along and I don't know how I can even think so many for all the handouts and the prayers when I don't deserve anything I feel most of the time because sure I've took my licks.

Sometimes brings you lows...

But the times I always remember are the times when I was the jerk and I just want to continue to apologize from the bottom of my heart because so many times I screwed up and it's not everybody that always knows how to forgive.

Hang on and stay tough,
Life is most definitely going to rock and it's hard to believe sometimes the circumstance,
The circumstance of the instances frame by frame   sometimes before my eyes reality,
I must numb it out comfortably forget and remember in the moment now to sing non-sensical praise and dance about.

Innocent Beginning Black Endings ~ Poetry / Lyric

Innocent Beginning

Before it started,
it was all cake and ice cream,
the Pentagon & a 65 blue Mercedes 220 S.

My Mom and Dad married young college grads,
West Point the Pentagon,
It's hard to believe time passes so fast !

I was in school

Murder,
murderer you theif,
you decided for more than yourself,
you decided you'd act out and changed and ruined so many others destinies.

You can't have me!

Married,
I'm married...
I'm leaving being hurt so many times all behind,
Happily married,
I got married,
Finally my life would settle finding bliss.

Fukk no,
Full no,
I can't believe my wife was a hoe !
Fukkin' for $$$,
Still all these years later now she is sick,
thought she hung up,
I heard it all,
lying to the doctors,
trying to score the drugs,
I get it but it makes me so sick...

As I wean off Fentanyl and transition to morphine,
with supervision while I'm disentigrating,
I'm pitching fast balls of stone at glass houses.

Black Endings !!!

I'm begging for your prayers,
nobody hears anymore,
Nobody cares...

It's getting blacker, blacker, blacker quickly fast,

Flying high,
You have no idea the rides,
what I have seen,
sometimes I'd rather die,
than to survive,
and yet somehow,
yet still I still stand!,
Alive, alive, alive.

screams neglected I...,

Load the bullet into the chamber,
ease my coldness into my trigger finger as I ease that trigger back,
my heart starts racing,
as I release the safety,
the sweat is pumping,
Next I...

I fucking wake up soaking wet,
Breathing heavy,
I'm losing it man,
Losing my fukkin' shit !

Losing it so fukkin' fast...

Going down so fast !!!

Cooking & Art Over Pain ~ Poetry/Lyric

I ache so bad,
Morphine I.R.,
I ache so bad,
I ache so bad,
finally at last,
Zzz.

Days I'd been awake,
until that bitch took me away,
when I awoke refreshed rjuvenated,
A fucking feast we had !

I hold on,
Coping mechanisms,
A strong Constitution as my body fucking screams,
this is always spine disentigrating,
shorter and shorter I'm shrinking away,
day after day,
Three decades writing in pain until,
morphine that bitch just took me away,
Zzz.

Tempo and wisdom a steady slow pace,
youth with this drug will permanently take you away,
This has only just begun,
as fentanyl supervised for 18 + months now I leave in my wake,
so far still onward tough intestinally, I survive!

and feasts we shall have each time I wake,
I'll cook for you friends just bring fresh ingredients,
lost in art on a blue wonder buzz I cook,
above pain lifted,
Lyrica helps negativity keeps it's ugliness silent permanently,
Occasionally I run with a few friends when youth so less often visits,
for now though find me here,
Cooking,
Fueling,
Rebuilding an old man body renewed soon reborn,
and in between,
Zzz.