Utter Waste ~ Excerpt ~ I ∆M ¶®GR∆M

Wow...

Just An utter waste of a day... Totally unproductive !!! Should have known when I woke with a massive headache, of which I almost never get .... Arghhhhhhhh arghhhhhhhh arghhhhhh...

So tired of feeling like my ducks are all finally in a row but the world doesn't do what I want. Nit feeling very patient, as there is so very much to accomplish. Back to working around the house. I'm done trying to reach out to anyone. Done extending my hand. Just done... and shouldn't I be?

Patience is a MF !!!

Being self centered today is far worse...

I just have to sit back and stay on course within, with God, and remember the world and all of its beautiful inhabitants are not my personal chess pieces to move at will on any given whim.

I have to admit I'm tired and feel a clock ticking faster as thankfully age takes hold, physical limitations take hold and have a fucking really tight grip, mire problems start there badly and I'm leaning against this massive machine I'm building that is really a huge snowball atop a mountain of which gravity wants to take down easily without energy from me, I'm scared to let it go and see myself crushed by the liabilities its taken to get here, and in balance my entire she'll of an empty life thus far ... No I'm not giving up, I'm simply stating that what appears is bit what it seems in financial situations.

Others think they have me pegged but know not a single percent of the true responsibilities I have earned, bitten off, and I'm chewing in currently.

I'm a facade.

I'm simplifying in most areas, shedding dead weight, and trying to learn how to set my ducks along that downward mountain slope.

I'm the snowball, now human on skis, blasting down the mountain with skill and ease and celebrating life again, my ducks easy to assimilate into life now finally, steps, little tiny, steps, these integral parts soon I must gain along my way, already possessed by me, they  possess me, drive me further, to faster fly onward down along my way.

I want to fly, however at the bottom of the mountain, I have work I've commanded, and of what to do with it and where, space for everything without personal insult???, and back on that lift upward I go, parts behind me positioned at last, more ducks to go grab again, all in a row.

Today, however, I idly sit... It feels like such wasted time...

At least my pooches, bird, and cat remain so true,
it's easy to relax again,
because of each of you.

I  ∆M  ¶®GR∆M

Beacon J In Spacetime ~ Poetry / Lyric ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Every time you depart,
a breaking begins within my heart,
when next will I have your mind,
a beautiful beacon you are while I float lost and unfulfilled through spacetime.

You are the only ember for which my heart still a little-left burns,
It's you next to me that my soul deeply yearns,
I feel love that makes me dizzy such as the Earth surely turns,
I'd watch the tide ebb and flow with you for eternity,
watch life unravel with you together bathed in light as the young unraveling tendriled fern.

Usually though I'm lost without you,
waiting an eternity for exchanges of only moments,
still sharing together somehow...I know now a different love,
something so new being slowly revealed.i
I'd give my everything for you.

Otherwise I'm trapped in the cold black vacuum of spacetime,
Afloat all alone with no true life or friends,
When it gets bad like buzzards and hawks circling they each coordinated together in secret hone in,
Always spiraling a Fibonacci spiral pattern as they prepare to descend,
No reason to myself defend,
I find it rather perpetually entertaining,
These selfish greedy worthless pigs.

Your my only bright beacon in the night,
My beautiful and last eternal live guiding light,
Otherwise fukk it !!! ... I feel I should just give in, at last, been one hell of a flight,
I'm tired and old and worn in the soul and I'm running long last out of fight,
In my peace and golden years I just want to know your still with me and I with you, I never want to lose sight,
I never want a life without you, eternally connected forever, in mind, body, spirit,... Forever, me by you, you by my side.

Otherwise, I'm trapped in the cold black vacuum of spacetime,
Afloat all alone with no true life or friends,
When it gets bad like buzzards and hawks circling they each coordinated together in secret hone in,
Always spiraling a Fibonacci spiral pattern as they prepare to descend,
No reason to myself defend,
I find it rather perpetually entertaining,
These selfish greedy worthless pigs.

Usually though I'm lost without you,
waiting an eternity for exchanges of only moments,
still sharing together somehow...I know now a different love,
something so new being slowly revealed.i
I'd give my everything for you.

Every time you depart,
a breaking begins within my heart,
when next will I have your mind,
a beautiful beacon you are while I float lost and unfulfilled through spacetime.

Every time you depart,
a breaking begins within my heart,
when next will I have your mind,
a beautiful beacon you are while I float lost and unfulfilled through spacetime.

Somewhere In Life ~ Poetry/Lyric ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Somewhere in life somebody is dying,

Somewhere in life somebody is crying,

Somewhere in life husbands and wives are lying,

Somewhere in life someone laughing another sighing,

Somewhere in life one is challenged but keeps trying,

Somewhere in life acquaintances not positive equal permanent good bye~ing,

Somewhere underground flowers just bulbs planted waiting to bloom in due time right now dormant lying,

Right now another has pinnacled and through all of life challenges gets to enjoy the moment shining and flying.

Never give up and never stop trying,

It's okay to feel it all it's okay if you're a man or a woman and crying,

Be honest to yourself there's no more time for within yourself you are lying,

It's time to spread those wings and work hard and be true to yourself and all others and learn how to stay elegant like soaring Eagles flying.

Right now another has pinnacled and through all of life challenges gets to enjoy the moment shining and flying.

Somewhere underground flowers just bulbs planted waiting to bloom in due time right now dormant lying,

Somewhere in life acquaintances not positive equal permanent good bye~ing,

Somewhere in life one is challenged but keeps trying,

Somewhere in life someone laughing another sighing,

Somewhere in life husbands and wives are lying,

Somewhere in life somebody is crying,

Somewhere in life somebody is dying,

Never give up and never stop trying,

It's okay to feel it all it's okay if you're a man or a woman and crying,

Be honest to yourself there's no more time for within yourself you are lying,

It's time to spread those wings and work hard and be true to yourself and all others and learn how to stay elegant like soaring Eagles flying.

Never give up and never stop trying,

It's okay to feel it all it's okay if you're a man or a woman and crying,

Be honest to yourself there's no more time for within yourself you are lying,

It's time to spread those wings and work hard and be true to yourself and all others and learn how to stay elegant like soaring Eagles flying.

Patriots Crush the Eagles In the Super Bowl Final Score 52 - 10

I haven't watched an NFL game this year but here's my prediction.

In a tumultuous 2017, leading into what will be an even more tumultuous 2018 we are in now, it will be very fitting that, of course, the Patriots are going to meet the Eagles.

You have to understand you have the greatest team in NFL history with the same quarterback the entire time against what will be the Eagles after the defeat the Vikings in the NFC championship game.

This is all about symbolism. The Patriots will blow out the Eagles, and as much as I am rooting for the Eagles to pull through, I'm a secret Eagle fan, as I was born in Pennsylvania.

You have to understand that two of the most playoff disappointing teams in history have met (will) in the NFC championship and it's not hard to see what's coming. Historic chokers of massive disappointment for decades!!! So I'm going to project a score of 52 to 10. Patriots crush the Eagles in the Super Bowl.

This looks very similar to globalism versus nationalism, and isn't it fitting and seemingly scripted?

I never make predictions this early but I have to because I can't help but keep seeing the same thing and I've been thinking it for a while and it just keeps going in the same direction.

I haven't watched a game all season but it doesn't mean I haven't kept a score myself.

Would it really surprise anybody if that was the case? Not a perfect script but a well-planned choreographed overall goal?

Brady will simultaneously wisely retire while accepting and hoisting up the Super Bowl trophy handed to him by the commissioner Rodger Goodell.

Everything else seems to be this exact way, funneling money away from everybody that will throw it down the funnel for entertainment and personal gain.

I'll be surprised if I'm wrong and I haven't looked at the team statistics yet but that's what I'm going to study now. I'll be studying all four teams that are headed to either the NFC or the AFC Championship game. This prediction is made though beforehand as I have stated.

I respect the Patriots very deeply as an organization and I hope my Eagles are the bunch of tough blue-collar guys that go and give them a knockout blow and ego check just like the New York Giants did twice, and I had hoped Eli would do once more. Peyton gets all the recognition while his brother best the best team in history twice !!!

We are in days well past Giants, and you kind of get to think about being a Patriot and an Eagle and in the end it really doesn't matter who wins what matters is that we all win together and winning is the preservation of life and the deeper meaning of the value that life offers us each, and to know that no life should have a price tag associated with it and others should never be taken advantage of so that they will be prayed upon for financial gain.

I went to George Mason and although I didn't finish earning my degree I still feel a patriot. I was born in Pennsylvania, home of the Liberty Bell, and so it's easy to identify with the eagle. I was the president of the Eagles Club in Alexandria Virginia when I was about 26 and I have an eagle tattoo on my arm and it is because I am an Eagle. There's lots of others that probably feel just like me and can make that same outline of a story the way I framed it fit their own lives for sure. We're not as unique as we think we are.

An individual will always get crushed. If he stands for himself or kneels, for to go against the grain or the pack, ad infinitum, you become the enemy.

It's pretty much just simple statistics and it only makes my projection that much more fitting, almost as such that it would have to happen. Can you not see it easily enough yourself?

Do you see Vikings anymore?

Everybody gets defeated one day... but still we fight and fight and fight, be it for fear or for Domination, this scripted game only seems to go on and on and on.

Plucking Chickens

I promise... you can always find somebody to pluck your chicken if they are entitled to eat the entire thing to themselves.

The World Most Definitely Not of Me

This world most often seems not made for me, for I feel like I run at opposing different speeds. I seem to thrive when swimming upriver yet fall flat on my face when it's time, it feels, to rest on one's Laurels a minute to catch your breath and think of the next. I always thought my life would be like a short little segment and perhaps it's becoming a longer segment, and always I hope that it will be at least the way we understand it, a line.

A Chemically Assaulted Population

Is modern day tobacco in the form of cigarettes pleaded with over 4,000 or more chemicals, really just good old freedom or a form of population control? What a miserable Habit to kick and even after years that go by without you can return so Swift, as if have never to head quit. Just like alcohol, just like any and every addiction, always waiting to pounce. Why do we allow a capitalistic enterprising Society to capitalize on the frailties of the majority? There are many deep things to ponder but the chemical assault upon the people is the utmost important.

So let me see if I have this right one company is allowed to sell a product that human beings all at one time had never consumed, and then therefore since introduction into the marketplace, they had the freedom to try. All with the Forefront knowledge that this was addictive and it was going to kill people and that we would defend the sale of this poisonous treasonous modern-day tobacco as individual freedom.

Sometimes Freedom seems like the most idiotic thing in the world, and you wonder where Common Sense went, but common sense ain't so common.

I've already screened corporate names from across the mountain tops for all to hear, and they fear not because they know every individual one day dies, but the corporation shall live on.

In an ethical way or in a moral or legal or way that is just, one must ask one's self how do we let such philosophies survive and whose agenda is being fulfilled and at what expense to those whose agenda is not being fulfilled.

What of fairness in every single modern Marketplace?

What of regard for mankind across the entire globe?

Oh, what of sanity?