Just Expressions of Rambling Thought

One day I will likely need serious surgery in the cervical area of my spine. It was already recommended about a decade ago, but my stubborn attribute becomes a great asset in these regards when I have to tough through stuff waiting for better procedures and pioneering techniques and Technology to replace what has often hurt many others. I'm praying for those days and somehow I've made it this far. well, I've only made it this far because of Science and Technology and the people dedicated to that beautiful field generally speaking. I've only survived because human beings decided to work together to save the life that they value others hoping in turn that the same will be offered in to them in time of need. I also didn't feel like I would survive the surgery because I was in a tremendous amount of pain. I've had reasons for my pain to be multiplied and those reasons are being healed. My pain has gone down to totally manageable levels even with terrible spinal conditions and I cannot be the Active Athlete I was in my youth and never will be again, more than likely, however I can still have an incredible life and I think I might survive any surgery you throw at me today. my heart is not anywhere near 100% in my body feels beaten and battered perhaps worse than ever but somehow it's almost like I've been reset and I am in a different body that I am relearning and that is about the only way I can describe anything that has happened to me recently. Otherwise I'm the same old me in many regards just trying to get comfortable once again and rid myself of the constant anxiety that seems to like to hang around with me and for very legitimate reasons over and over again.the last two days I have felt better than I felt in a long time and what I mean by that is it feels like it was easier to carry my body along everywhere I wanted to go without having to fight and feel just horrible and in pain Non-Stop. pain is not a partner one can live with long but neither are the treatments most often and it's a horrific battle to fight if you win or lose matters of course but the fight along that way is just truly horrific. When your heart is failing to it makes it far Worse. I've suffered with a lack of oxygen for ages but no EKG would catch what was wrong and no doctor would witness my problems until I was dead. I've battled Social Security trying to solve my health for ages but you know it just doesn't seem to matter what the patient says. I've been left at I've been ridiculed I've been called a liar I've been forgotten about it left 4 dead by friends. Those aren't complaints, just facts. one thing I am not it never will be no matter what the world thinks against me is a quitter. I may change gears and I may move forward but I am not a quitter. We are all Reborn the moment we wanted to be reborn and we can shed the past and heal but we must search for that which can help us and we also must know when to relinquish the grips on this realm and to move forward into the unknown but the definite future. it's been really nice to cry the last few days because it feels like the chemicals are washing out of my body and that the river is becoming purified once again. It's hard to live in a polluted river. it's hard to have a polluted river in your own body, called the bloodstream. it's even worse when the pump is not working very well that brings everything down to the treatment plant. It's even worse when the treatment plant also is the nourishing plant for the vital fluid of the body.it's amazing what reverses if you give great Fuel and all systems are at long last it go once again. They say nothing can come back from a black hole but I say that's completely incorrect. Like the theory of the transfer of evidence, so too does data always continue forward, it just changes shape and form. We may just find that energy and data are really one in the same. If you could build another man with nanorobots, what message would you be leaving for future Generations, and what purpose are you serving today by doing so?aa

Sincere Halloween Poetic License ~ A Poetic Address ~ Mobius∆Tripz

Weirdest emotional Halloween ever !

Sometimes the emotional flood is strong...
most often it's smooth and calm, but tonight I'm a sun of visions, burning in thought, feeling the deepest feelings ever, while healing and basking in the glow of miraculously eclipsing death, as I patiently waited to return to life. In time, perhaps, but not today, Sir Death, as my family, friends, and pets do beckon me, and goals not yet attained I must continually like a mad man gone mad constantly chase, and watch it all seemingly quicker and quicker to quickly go flying ever faster paced right on by. As eventually we each, humbly break on through to the other side.

I love riding this colorful lightbeam life rainbow  as we all go flying through space while in orbit on this Eden Earth. Nothing could ever be written sounding more fictional than truth!

What could possibly be more cool to together share ?

Please to all that is, be good to each other.

Mass Consciousness & Mass Conscience ~ Exposure ~ I AM Program

Can some modern events be blamed upon a "mass conscience" which is that of a conscience of social media?

Almost a self fulfilling prophecy, but not of a sole individual but howeve of a mass body of individuals... of which you can count on statistics to prove a predictable reaction eventually from one participant, or more, given enough exposure to an idea, a notion, a thought.

Does this work against us each today ??? and do indeed all sides fall into this "Pandora's Box of a trap"... just due to the nature of the mechanism of modern media?

What could resculpt this modern happenstance?

Is an over inundation of instant news dangerous ?

Most cannot accept the fact of desensitization, however, past this fact, what has transpired within the individual and to the collective conscience as well???

What does unfiltered fact and fiction all at once do to any one individual without measures in place to properly sort and vet?

Is there a great danger in repeating a negative narrative?

I ∆M ProGr∆m

I Am Program

Gravity ~ I Am Program ~ I ∆M PROGR∆M

Gravity... it's just us falling into a black hole. What's the big deal? It could be worse, it could be at high speed... fast motion... slow ride... easy.

I Am Program ~ I ∆M ProGr∆M ~ I ∆M ∆I

A series of fictitious non-contiguous short stories that are made contiguous by the reader's imagination.

Enjoy and let your imagination fill in the gaps.

Write your own stories and your own complimentary programs.

I ∆M ProGr∆M, I ∆M ∆I

Ringing Like A Tuning Fork

The imagination is the most incredible thing as the body is on the mend. sometimes you just feel like a tuning Fork that will not stop ringing. At first it's like it just hurts to reverberate. Then it is just like you know your reverberating InTune finally but it still hurts to. Then you start feeling like you're finally getting closer to that sweet spot where you just intuitively have this incredible knowledge of have whole machine Body Works. It's so incredible when we are back at that place, and I miss it dearly but I get closer each day even if I'm not supposed to be able to, and maybe more especially because I don't believe in being told I have boundaries. To a greater degree of limitations, the limitations that are placed upon us are most often placed upon ourselves by ourselves. You cannot defy the odds forever but you can try to as long as possible at least and never ever give up. when you thought others quit praying for you long ago that does not mean to stop praying to God for yourself. Remember no matter how dark your thoughts, there are others that care about you and love you and miss the you that you were and want you to come back. If you comprehend these words or they strike a chord, then there's still a chance. Lift yourself up again. Take the hand that lends help. There are angels all around you carrying you all of the time and you just have to let them help you to guide you upon your way.

Repetition Turns Chaos Into Order

Can or does repetition make order where there was previously chaos?

If you believe yes, what is your example?

If you think it's impossible, I would say think about music.

What thinks you ?