Saturday, June 1, 2019

Staggering Unacceptable Murder Rates WORLDWIDE, WE MUST EVOLVE

What is the causation of this epidemec societal failure ???...and why do we accept it.

Illinois (the state entirely) has the highest rate of murder / homicide rate per capita !!!

Illinois:

100 : 100,000 (ratio)

https://www.neighborhoodscout.com/blog/highest-murder-rate-cities/amp

Let's make some quick seemingly random comparisons...

NY City:

3.4 : 100,000

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crime_in_New_York_City

Dominican Republic:

22.1 : 100,000

https://www.google.com/search?q=dominican+republic+murder+raye+per+xapita&oq=dom&aqs=chrome.0.69i59j69i60j69i57j69i60j0l2.1416j1j7&client=ms-android-uscellular-us&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8

Iran

2.5 : 100,000 (2014)

https://knoema.com/atlas/Iran/topics/Crime-Statistics/Homicides/Homicide-rate

"The murder capital of America isn’t Chicago.  But it is in Illinois.  With more than one murder per 1,000 residents (100 per 100,000), this year’s murder capital has a murder rate 21.3 times the national average, and nearly 5 times Chicago’s murder rate.  You may never have heard of it, until now." (Link Below)

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.neighborhoodscout.com/blog/highest-murder-rate-cities/amp

Empty Castle

It's a very strange feeling at 51 to think that I might want to be blessed with children... still.

Internally, I did not at all because my energy level and the impossibility of being a good father and being in their lives for a long time, but now hope and a clock that runs faster against me.

I'll likely never know that love, but I know it from my own parents... so I feel nothing missing really, just an unfulfilled, once again growing desire.

Problem is I'm a defect on the eyes of others, and who'd want to have children to suffer as I have on health? It seems a poor gamble and an unfair invitation, however... what if I had folks that thought this way ?

Fukk emotions and being emotional ;(

Fukked in an empty castle ;(

Friday, May 31, 2019

Prayers Upon Salt

2000 mg of salt is less than a teaspoon, FYI !!!

The USRDA is

Omeprazole has 350-400 mg per dose !!!

I've complained about my kidney function being far less than it once was, however they test perfectly fine, I know I'm different. My entire body is different.

How am I prescribed this...still ???

This SHALL BE THE NEXT HUGE STEP !!!

I've asked several professionals, they said that's just fine !!! NOT !!! We review my medication every single appointment thoroughly !

Damn it !

You MUST be your own best health advocate !

Nobody will ever speak or study for you as you will yourself when you are fighting for survival or when trying to even simply thrive, you must each remember we have a lifetime e yo always continue to learn and grow and evolve and SHARE THESE LESSONS OF EXPERIENCE DO THAT OTHERS MAY KNOW HOPE !

Great to know I've learned several new items the last several days !

Energy returns, I pray to stay, stamina building, perhaps I'll feel 20 again soon one day, glimpses surreal.

10 months virtually dream like and barely believeable.

I hope one day the data analyzed that I left in my wake, after my wake, helps countless others. Lord, I thank you for this mission, I'm trying to stop fighting you, and working hard to become the man I once dreamt I'd be, as my Father, in Your image, my father, in his image, and now I'm starting to see finally emerge, just myself in the perfect image you prepared for me. I pray and accept this challenge and journey, that my selfish ways may melt away, and I might possibly, if your will for me you've already considered, pave a golden road to you, for all.

NEVER GIVE UP, AND NEVER GIVE IN !

We fight for the youth, we struggle for our families, we live principled lives to an always growing and embracing community, to ALL evolve.

I pray you each today know a new peace within, and that truly you offer grace to others and exercise Goodwill and forgiveness as you set the finest example possible today, and an even always better one in that future's trajectory.

Thursday, May 30, 2019

Programming and Pumping Sin, $in, $in

Just a journey in weed thought ... maybe

This music is so incredible when you contemplate the genius and mastery from it's time and the chord it struck within and still strikes...

But wtf exactly I'd that and this being pumped into our psyches at high decibels???

I just know I still LOVE it like a hit of adrenalyn, and so the sheep will all align as usual once again...

Oh Courtney, what do you know sweetheart?

Cheerful sounding satanism isn't it, this song and it's lyrics.

Oh, what wicked demons do we entertain when only we are romanticized by the allure of the romanticism of the music perfected ... Indeed enchanting !

Where is reality vs. where is fantasy ?

See you out there !!!!!!!

Beautiful marketing formula...

     Garbage
     Hole
     Nirvana

All incredible engineering and production Vig!

~Lyric~

Hole

Celebrity Skin

And no...this isn't some shit I made up...read with a new perspective, or just take a journey of contemplation. What's quite clear in hindsight... I often ask... when at others upon, their past, looking back???

Programming ??? Art ??? One in the same ??? Intentional...yes...then why ? Hmmmmmmmmm

Study the leaders and their soldiers well. Understand the machine at work.

Follow the $$$ and look at the individual lives.

All over $$$, what a wicked web it is we together weave...or, accept this dichotomy and know now where you stand !

Lyric start...

Oh, make me over
I'm all I want to be
A walking study
In demonology
Hey, so glad you could make it
Yeah, now you really made it
Hey, so glad you could make it now
Oh, look at my face
My name is might have been
My name is never was
My name's forgotten
Hey, so glad you could make it
Yeah, now you really made it
Hey, there's only us left now
When I wake up in my makeup
It's too early for that dress
Wilted and faded somewhere in
Hollywood
I'm glad I came here
With your pound of flesh
No second billing cause you're a star now
Oh, Cinderella
They aren't sluts like you
Beautiful garbage beautiful dresses
Can you stand up or will you
Just fall down
You better watch out
What you wish for
It better be worth it
So much to die for
Hey, so glad you could make it
Yeah, now you really made it
Hey, there's only us left now
When I wake up in my makeup
Have you ever felt so used up as this?
It's all so sugarless
Hooker, waitress, model, actress
Oh, just go nameless
Honeysuckle, she's full of poison
She obliterated everything she kissed
Now she's fading
Somewhere in Hollywood
I'm glad I came here
With your pound of flesh
You want a part of me
Well, I'm not selling cheap
No, I'm not selling cheap

Now go watch the video... Brilliant work in every single aspect !!!

Some of my favorite bands of a besides era past, but what does and did it mean, and who the fuck is who ???

---------

Sin
$in
Follow the $
within
=
Hindsight Criminality

Justice Always Follows

$ only a tool, and never a motive.

For those I cannot trust, I use cash !

Wednesday, May 29, 2019

Outrunning Death

Death cannot catch you, he is no reaper, just a sick fukk, chasing life.

The Queen of Imagination ~ Poetry / Lyric ~ Mobius∆Tripz

I'm 2 weeks away from my 10 month old birthday. I'm now the Lion, formerly / simultaneously Capricorn, Steve.

One evening, I lifted off and departed this mortal coil and vessel too, and returned just to further share my life with love of others, and dreams of sharing my live further and forever with you.

I postponed my certain humbling destiny, God gave me another cycle here, in the same vessel as so before, so rare... for Faith & Love... you.

My imagination holds the perfect Queen in the highest regards always and here I dutifully wait, I know not even why.

I met my destiny face to face, and failed in self deprication once again, I fukked up and instead of you God offered, I'm always taken with sin... I was once always taken in, in sin.

I'm not that man this time again, yet you know me not even yet, but you know me more perfectly ever than another, and I've lived you already forever now, and forever forward now always will... Eternity, eternally, destiny.

You, miss, my lady, my dear, always my heart smitten forever, you've been my life offering back woman of my eye my heart my soul my dreams.

I'll always honour you, and to myself because of your love, I love myself this time now too, for you... absolutely anything unconditionally for you.

My Forever Queen of the great and enchanted land of art and shared life, where we always will together rule in perfect harmony with ALL, in Imagination.

I'll see you there in our time,
Patiently waiting,
with the love waiting,
Iit's our live waiting for us,
like love letters we own and share,
yet to be unveiled and yet to fully kindred,
yet to even take the breath of life, the inhaliation of such sweet ether, sweet air,
I'm patiently waiting for you,
Waiting for destiny,
Waiting for alignment,
until our Kingdom,
We pass to your children,
after sweet time together we've shared.

Patiently waiting for you,
Steve