Depression Questions

If you suffer from depression regularly, just a curious few questions...

Do you exercise and break a sweat daily ?

Do you find your sweat to have a chemical smell ?

Do you cry at intervals you find often compared to others ?

Born of 67 Eve On Christmas ~ Iam Christian Star

I'm nearing 52, born of 67 this being 2019.

It seems my generations children are angry at their parents and really going at it to try to gain control and they are not scared to rock the boat & challenge even the elder generations as well. 

All I got to say is when you busy talking s***, you never see the fist.

There's a lot of us getting tired of listening to all the jibber jabber. ALL, that doesn't concern Democrat and Republican concerns it concerns all bullshit !!!

There's a part of our population trying to tear apart the better part of the population and we are better than they are and we're not going to let them do that to us. We're not going to keep playing into these games. If there's just those that are so ignorant that they're going to threaten others, they will get slapped down minimally. They will always be met with just enough force to quell them, as the law specifies. that's the fortunate ones. There are others that just can't control themselves or don't care and they will not administer what the law suggests the guideline are. They're willing to pay the price and throw their lives away when they lower their selves to these actions of those that they despise, when the prescribe their vigilante justice.

We've evolved to this place, and here we are. 

What next however, to indeed evolve? Also to keep honor and respect...but why?

If your questioning why, your life is more than likely suffering desperately.

What do you see if those living by example. Follow those leaders.

Of leaders... Where are you ? Do you not see your lost flock?

In selfishness is known no love.

Iam Christian Star ~ Exalted Through Others Works

I'm only exalted to this point in life through everybody else's work.

Makes one deeply humble in a different way to know destiny is not their own, AT ALL.

I'm uncomfortable in a humble spirit, I'm use to riling, rising, raising, carroussing, boozing... Christ, please humble me even more so from myself now.

Why? Only answer I've ever known is to cope with the overwhelming pain life circumstances or others have afflicted upon me, and inside part of me is a killer trained stealth and Swift, sleek fast and powerful that strikes without warning, and the other part is calm and forgiving always, but in the interim, it's not me that's makes those decisions, but rather who it is that lives with the consequences. I certainly inflicted plenty upon myself as well, that needs not be said and there are hundreds that would bear witness to this. Do you believe in healing yet??? I know I believe in forgiveness, you've all proven that to me for sure, well... some. some will never give it when it's not deserved. They don't realize they reserved a space of their soul for illness when they hold onto these reservations, and that lesson I have to consume and it's made my gut hurt a long time. Revelations shall set you free.

I'm trying to be more thoughtful of others in my actions today since these lessons, I'm trying to understand now.

Death was and is not a cliff, but a launching point.

I am thankful for the God that saved the wretch I was.

It's amazing what others can witness and still not believe.

Do you think medical science was built on a lack of faith? Do you think protocols or followed with a lack of faith in mind?

Is life not programs of interactions of cause and effect with faith as our guide towards the desired outputs?

Is it really important that you want to set your way and I want to say it my way so much so that we must fight over that? 

The only person that says you don't have a valid perspective is yourself, and when you make outrageousness it is you that reveals that very weak attribute within, and then the others pounce hard fast swift and strong until death.

Tell me all of the above is a lie and that the struggle isn't real.

Without everyone, I am nothing.

I'm so thankful to have known and shared love. If that was something I could give away in x, I would do it until the end of time, all eternity.

Twelve 12

We are all of the 12 signs the 12 Stars the 12 zodiacs the 12 tribes. We are one and two combined three a trinity, 1 and 2 combined 12. We are a sequence that learns upon itself through DNA life travels over the spans of space-time generation after generation, recording what once was and with vision moving forward doing its best to overcome today's challenges. Life Is Persistence. Faith Is Even More Powerful. Work Is The Only Phofit/Prophet. $ is a tool often associated with sin, beware and be scrupulous.

Names Given & Chosen ~ Christian Star

I do adore the name my parents so honored me with, however... I am seriously contemplating changing my legal name to, Christian Star.

I have many various friends from many various walks of life and I absolutely don't mind whatever silly comments may follow.

I also don't want anybody to expect anything outrageous,... I've been through enough recently dammit.

Now, how you would like to interpret everything above is completely up to your own inner well-being.

Tell me in life an experience that is not dissimilar?

I came forth of utter blackness, a soul forged hard.

~ Christian Star

Iam Christian Star

I'm sorry my last life was so very disappointing, however, I am working very hard at making this life a great and beautiful success. It's good to know who is everybody in the beginning. I can't say I had that in hand last time. I know exactly who everybody is.

I've tried and tested everything and everybody and I know who is strong and I know who is weak.

I don't know of any other such second lease on life quite like mine oh, well... Honestly, I have heard of one.

There are others whose stories are close but I just wish to meet those that saw what happened right before their eyes.

Call me crazy but I feel bad for those who don't believe in faith and have no idea of it or real true knowledge of it ends it's because nobody has shared with them truth and witness and strength of those experiences in their own lives, and that makes for very dire times indeed.

Tell me, are we not in those dire times?

Perhaps all of my epiphanies are mythical fantasy within and I disintegrate and depart and the laughing can ensue some more. 

Perhaps I will build a castle, instead.

~Iam Christian Star

Fairmont Falling, West Virginia ~ Cyborg∆Steve

What can we offer each city, each county, and each jurisdiction in every state that will bring it better growth and stability, and starting absolutely as most quickly and efficiently as possible where statistically we know the most of our citizens are suffering?

I would like to watch all of us start focusing on real Life solutions today as a realist instead of these silly cyber warriors attacking one another with empty words and silly opinions like children. We are all guilty of being despicable in those regards and it's time to grow up. We'll see how long that lasts. 

Anyhow, after a trip to Fairmont West Virginia, I just have had certain Revelations that I think are critical and there is most desperately this multi million people population that are desperately suffering and there's just not people out there doing a damn thing about it because most people are only thinking about themselves and live in pockets of luxury.

In a pocket of luxury you are insulated from the view of the suffering and the real terrible tragedies that are happening around in such close proximity and two people that either don't have the wit or the resources to be able to help themselves react and upright themselves whatsoever.

If I don't speak up I'm nothing. I'm only up right because I've benefited of such a beautiful Community as where I live, where there is great deep suffering. 

We must quickly examine what is successful for populations and evolve as we depart from those systems that have failed us miserably and we should be able to do that with a transition that is very easy and bipartisan, as wouldn't you want the best for everybody as opposed to not and especially most especially at the most economically feasible price possible?

I will not entertain argument in here about politics because this is really just kind of thinking out loud and out-of-the-box philosophically and intellectually and not trying to get down to the sinister details of politics, a machine with tires that spin in place.

I know that there are places each day that present themselves in life where I am offered the opportunity to either do good or not do good and I will try my best to do what is good where I am and also take what I can as an excellent example of learning and experience and hope that I may share it with others so that we all may saw some of these problems.

How could somebody renting an apartment whose apartment failed inspection be put in another house without electricity at this time of year, let me ask you this?

How the f*** is that humane?

I'm positive my first-hand knowledge is not correct and I will not articulate names herein, but why do we accept this too parts of our population today?

I've been all of those people and I know because you get treated like hell and you get treated like you don't matter. Most give up. Those that treat them that way we want them to give up. Why do we all suffer in such a way is that there must be such a hate?

this is not a unique story. I live in Appalachia and this story echoes loud and clear and regularly and often and it repeats. I don't mean it repeats as an echo, I mean it repeats after generation and generation and generation of children that.. well, damn it... I don't know why we have not solved these problems...

They are not wholly made of people that made poor choices. They are wholly made of people that have been neglected and forgotten, and that's for sure and that is starting to include our veterans with your starting to get only a tiny bit of representation.

Nobody wants to talk about death and the dying but the truth of the matter is today is the fact that we have the largest recorded to generation in history upon the doorstep of retirement currently and we have a medical professional shortage.

I wish I could be there in front lines fighting against  that but I don't think I have the heart for it. This shit tears me up inside to watch...over and over and over it seems. 

An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure, but nobody seems to give a s***. Nobody equals the majority. There is a great many that of course care and give of themselves greatly, I just pray more will adopt that attitude and just help somehow where you see suffering or at least even if you're not hands on just to be a good guide so that that other one may find themselves at a crossroads one day to help themselves once again when they are ready because sometimes that is the juxtaposition but it's not the only juxtaposition.

That's enough out of me I suppose. I just I'm tired of all the suffering.