If it's me biting your head off, then it's me that loves you wanting you to listen up and take better care of yourself. That's the echo of my father, the echo of my older brother, the voice of rationale and the reason. There's still time to save yourself always, when you know you are reacting defensively oh, you have heard my voice.
Be stronger today than yesterday, make those proper amends where you have made mistakes and practice those lessons learned and teach them the way you live your life so that others do not have to make the same mistakes and we may all move forward in Grace.
The Grace that's missing is the time spent wasted through political argument and purposeful division. If you think a snow day is unproductive, or a polar vortex, or a massive flood... really deeply think about what's truly being lost. Lives, all around our entire country of ALL beautiful people.
Where there's will to draw breath, there is a life worth saving. Where there is no will to draw breath, there is love missing. Where there is a will to heal, there is a life worth saving. Where there is no will to heal, there is again, love missing.
Just like a championship game would have no meaningful purpose without its preceding season, so afterwards in the next dimension into which we definitely travel, there will be this greater deeper meaning and you will know it in an instant. The life you just left seconds ago will instantly also feel like ten millennia ago. on that journey through space time in that instant where you traveled 10000 miles, you will observe the entire akashic record and we'll know all knowledge but far deeper than 10,000 years you will actually see it all. You will know everything. we are all everything and are all a part of everything but right now we are all in pieces.
It almost feels like we're a self-assembling puzzle and we're failing. Almost feels like maybe we are artificial intelligence and somebody made us, but we're not figuring things out too well because it seems like we aren't hard wired for fear but there's that ghost in the machine or virus and it gives us well additional fear above and beyond what's normal fear to expect to keep us thinking logically and rationally.
I was getting pretty tired of thinking there with my heart going completely bonkers and my hair going gray and then white but now it seems like my neurons are firing again. I'm starting to be able to sleep again a little bit more on my own and with little bit less marijuana. Judge me all you want but I'm not going to lie to you. My life can be an open book and a record of sorts so that others may have it far better, I pray.
life is a journey of exploration and experiment where we should never throw caution to the wind and where we should only do things in precise in measured ways no matter what it might appear like to others. I want people to know that I am in absolutely no way that absolutely insane looking person I often appear I am quite docile, calm, and rational deep down in my core, would like a tuning fork that just got dropped on a hardwood floor sometimes my mouth won't be quiet, my nerves won't stop reverberating, and my anxiety shoots through the roof, and that's because of my heart condition, because of trauma, because of depression, and I can go on and on about all the diseases I have and how I fight, the stress from having to fight social security three times and losing now yet again after I even died.
Absolutely none of that mattered where I traveled. None of it. Not a single iota, nothing here did except those lessons that made me understand there so that I was in the proper all of everything and yes even myself. No, not narcissist. In all of the spirit within in the body so given. inspired by the abuse I purposely have put myself through and through genetics and through the environment and that this machine bounces back over and over and that within this machine resides souls that know how to work together that fixed the machine that couldn't fix itself, with things that we made like the gods that made us. Told me that's not mine blowing? And please tell me to my face and look me in my eyes and say I'm crazy, dare you continue to speak these words behind my back.
I see the eye rolls. I hear the utterances. People have become to disgust me.
I only see those three things in sentence above separately as they are a reflection of as ill as I had become.
...and I'm not a reflection of somebody you know in your family? Am I not a reflection of a dear loved friend? Am I not a reflection of somebody in your community? Why are you not sharing love and lending a hand instead of being a judgmental foolish individual that does not value life and let's that life walk swiftly towards the grave far too young?
You know what hurts more than anything beyond no love within. When people don't trust your word. when you're ill you start giving people reason to not trust your word any longer.Bonds that were once made and we're true and solid get broken. Things can be mended if we help each other heal, but we don't survive as individuals.
we are getting smashed down by other nation-states, by other just name it whatever you want to call it but my point is is we are letting their be this Great divide and it's really not just locally, or in your state, or in your country, but across this entire world.
the sick and evil will all disappear if we help one another heal in that starts by sharing first Love and then the resources that we have to sustain life.
if you want to know if any religion is good or not, if it's supports life than it is wonderful and if it doesn't then you know the answer.
Each and every one of us knows the same voice within. Listen.
My heart still hurts really badly really deep for only one thing, love. It's all I've ever hungered.
I patiently await and struggle forward in faith knowing that greater rewards lie ahead for that man or woman willing to give all without knowing what comes next being able to Bear the judgment of all eyes for the times especially when they have been the fool, but even for the majority when they have not even been close to a fool.
If I, John Steven, have failed you, please let me know who what is a good and irrational amend and I will do my best to make things proper again.
there's a lot of undoing to be done and there's a lot of life ahead to be lived, and I'm really scared I have to admit it, but I think it's time to forge forward. I feel a powerful title wave of youth washing over me that makes me cry and prayer several times a day, rejoicing.
How can I not hear the song amazing Grace playing a symphony in my soul.
I thank God so much for this most perfect extension of the most fascinating voyage I have ever known, life in that pursuit of happiness that every single human being should always know no oppression against any way shape or form.
Where there are barriers, there is no God. I never said God was omnipresent.
That's going to be very tough to figure out here (barriers of every single type) on this plane or in this realm we call Earth, but just think about what it means.
What on Earth are we so scared of?
Death itself is incredibly peaceful.I look forward to that day but I wanted to be an eternity away from this moment. I adore life. I can't say I have always adored life as much as I do today. I pray I will adore even more tomorrow. I pray I will become the man that raised me, in due time. I pray the ladies of my family to become the woman that raised them, all fine. I pray we are all a part of that same family, and let our family each now grow, when you know in your heart of hearts that we are all from one.
Anything past 1, is the start of division.
I'm wondering if Jesus would be happy here today if I could chit chat with him about denominations, and their effectiveness with Christianity.
I can play that game theologically with any religion.
I'm a born and raised Christian. I died that way. I'm not sure if I am still that way. I'm just different and appreciate and adore the way I know, and I equally adore and appreciate other ways that I have learned that work for others that I love and call friend. What I do know is that there is one ahead where I have been to the great council in the sky come up and we all know one another and we all know all and we all hear each other speak without words uttered and we all are thought manifest.
The experience is extremely dreamlike, but the reality is what happened to me happened after I died. The journey began really before I died as the tunnel vision started. of course there's a lack of oxygen and your eyes aren't working as well and your organs are shutting down. My heart is stopped from heart attack and I can go on and on about the medical in the scientific in the why this happens in the why that happens and then I died.
in the black place where I was only conscience in that is all, I thought of the love I held for another and my two beautiful dogs that are the sweetest to animals I've ever known. My buddies that give me love unconditionally oh, something human beings are not possible of, unless they are a mother or father with a child, because before that time it just seems an impossibility almost. this is good not God talking, and I'm Not Jesus, and I'm not delusional, and maybe a couple of sentences don't make sense and so this isn't a new religion or anything like that. It's just experience an observation praying to what I understand and sharing with those that I love that we might find a better way together.
It breaks my heart to watch my country and my countrymen falter, while the countrymen of the other countries my ancestors are from faulter as well.
I'll tell you short and simple what I know about evil on this Earth. It most certainly exists !!! It seems clear that souls are either good or evil, and that's a huge statement to make but tell me that's not true?
Truth is salvation, salvation truth.
Save yourself. Then save another immediately. Just be the guiding hand of help when so called. Never throw caution to the wind, operate in faith, and work in measured units towards directed goals that benefit all.
There are lots of ways to describe what's next, but none of them work because words aren't used in that place in that place it's nothing like this place we each know.
It is great beautiful and perfect and indeed you know you are with all of your loved ones and more, indeed you know that th
