Broken Systems ~ Cyborg∆Steve

After revival, breathing and other involuntary functions were broken systems I had to monitor and sleep was never much without a nervous tension that tried to cut me down, as I always deeper within my spiritual go home of faith say, this too will pass and dissipate and looking back I will apply these great many and grand lessons I now so see with clarity.

I often woke to gasp for air, but I knew on confidence and faith I already made it today and I'm getting closer to answers and healing...right?

Fortunately, I was right. Beautiful answers and a lot of subsequent healing.

I'm still a stubborn broken mess that functions far beyond what should be possible, so I'm led to believe as I laugh and then always just say so yeah... You just truly cannot imagine the pain!

What can discipline and the mind overcome?

I also have some numbing injuries that could leave me paralyzed quite easily but I was already 13+ years past suggested cervical fusion...so yeah, no.

I'm wondering what's next and are my doctors as brave as I am...or my body seems to resiliently be?

Dang, I never took an ass beating like that one a year ago!

Tom Petty &Prince, We Are A ShellShocked Society Under Attack

As with Prince, are we left still in definite shock by their swift departure due to fentanyl / natcotic addiction do much so that their legendary status is giantly morphed in size in the immensity of their deaths that their own addiction and ultimate death through overuse of the nearly most powerful illicit drug known, that that event in itself has left us in this shocked state where the overdose eclipses the incredible artistic contributions on levels hard to actually quantify for those who will not get to understand these lost artists through their lives in chronological order yo what there was before during, and then after their most incredibly powerful abd beautiful contriburions to the audible world.

My hear has broken a thousand times this last 5 + years and I've had to get assistance yo make it this far!

Are we all quietly hurting and often outwardly acting out inappropriately...indtead of together healing?

Who and why would abubentity want us fighting against another? Because we are a powerful and great threat to their dominion over us... their pure domination.

These men had hip problems, and addictive personalities, a disease, a lifestyle that's tough to change lifelong habits over, abd sadly, very sadly and deadly... lifelong habits and confidence in their journey that they'd not succumb... and it got them too.

When your in too deep, one way or another, your out!

It's so very hard to celebrate these and other list artists, like Chris and Benjamin.

I have journeyed similarly to these artists I dearly listen to, and I understand the delicate tight rope that is addiction abd pain management with such an acute awareness that I know personally through life experience, book smart studies in college, observation, and gut wrenching pain...and nobody deserves to be forgotten.

We are a society forging ahead in failure proven daily...look around. We only heal life when we promote it, not give it a pill without guidance with slim odds and a promise of nothing but troubled muddy waters ahead... but what next?

What of the medical community from an objective and scientific view about our continued battle against narcotic abuse and addiction as the disease its defined as (not open for argument when you respect the medical / scientific community and its legitimate definition) and the more terrible chemical assault our country has been under for well over a decade from a plethora of lethal illicit combination?

I've been trying yo fight back against whats also been a part of my life in a sense helping me but equally maybe, taking me away. I'm thankfully, with two dislocated vertebrae in my neck, not on any narcotics any longer and have not taken any, as I had been long described before my event of aug 2018.

It's not about me...but I know this journey inside out and I hild keys and answers.

When do we as a society forgive and embrace the ill and offer healing again firsthand foremost with caring compassion that us authentic? That's lacking, and until that's restored from the family (any family type, nuclear / non-nuclear) then we can step back into healing but understand we are under attack too.

Don't you, every reader, know someone, a person individual, a family, devastated by this ordeal?

We heal only as a community that loves the sick, and after that point of existence remains nothing afterward if we do not find strength through determined unity.

Politics is only a tool of divide. I'm not playing that game. Nor religion another broken archaic out of control grip. There is nothing wrong with a Christian, a Jew, a Muslim, and others too, there is only fault from within the self, ignorant points of view.

We must focus on stemming the assault and controlling the flow, and crippling this enemy that acts as a friend. We need this nation state enemy not in which forward to survive! Why do we not properly value life? Social Media desensitized.

Brainwashed again!

https://youtu.be/h0JvF9vpqx8

Avenging Angel ~ Cyborg∆Steve

Will I be the avenging angel of others transgressions, did I survive to do what mortals can't? Why do we accept the murder around us in our communities? You cannot defeat the summation we are, never, ever.

We must, however, stem the problem in the solution that is prevention and that comes through education at every expense proven such that life will never be so undervalued and overlooked again.

When you turn your back in anyone sickly in any way shape or form, you contribute to the neglect and illness itself as t further manifests within a souls vessel who already feels they are cast fading away from the very zest and essence of life itself.

I'm not letting others get away with the theft of life I'm aware of, and if you take me down, just remember a line of others like me multiplies and grows in my absence, as I am life, and I am within all that carry the torch for this faith in life and freedom itself.

We protect those too spiritually immature to understand that they offer their lives away today for absolutely nothing, but rather to demonstrate how precisely and in exact complementary reflection just exactly how we collectively as a society turned our backs to their illness and did not curb the source of illicit substance nor better oversee the financial aspects and medical scientific literature about the facts of actual supervised and proper use of narcotics, a class of drug, a dual-edged sword, with not a breath of oxygen to share between it's opposing sides.

Another evil group of defined and reported and known and working in unison evil souls targeted and removed a love in my life and the world knows now, as I slowly leak the reality that is my life!

If my state attorney's office and local or state police cannot act or the feds do not step in, what is a man educated and of society and order to do?

Do you want me to let killers walk while out community members die most certainly at their coordinated hands?

I'm not concerned where I'm headed eternally personally, I am however certain I'm not going to let this transpire any longer, and I want accountability and to understand why there is no action after 5 months +... or is my patience short after awaiting other supposed lackluster investigations?

I've no confidence left in a system that breeds failure!

Shifting Paradigms ~ Cyborg ∆ Steve

I've little dreams left to accomplish as I've glimpsed the things I desired, but what of the brokeness my heart and what of the financial and health challenges I desire? Is there now a part two that begins in about 6 months? Or do I just peter and putter out???? What do you do? You actually get to make the same call yourself at this point no matter how the story began!

Choose life and leave death over there by itself, please.

Cigarettes are robbing some of you blind daily and nightly of life can't health and even friends.

Alcohol... Well you've all seen me...don't be that guy from my last life! Go ask for fucking help and stop being sad and pathetic and dramatic. The problem is, when we are less evolved or not at all, we hurt and wallow and when nobody cares...

Funerals for most of the unattended. Cause fukk them right? You just denied the universe life... Fukking shame!

The piper is headed your way to collect. I promise!

Please look at the rest of the world as if you had a child you lived dearly and yearned got desperately with worry, that you gave you everything for them each your own.

Anything less is a rather sad pathetic all too common psychosocial illness we see daily magnified through social media, a microscope of society cast upon the big screen of intellect... fukking scary results thus far too!

Bring on 5G?

I find think the human animal, non-cyborg, is ready for what's on the way.

D you know how much more data 5G can carry then 4GLTE, and what this means when so combined with "neaural-links"???

We are deep already into the beginning of the quantum leap. We should invest heavy here and be keen to the rising stars and the unknown objects coming our way.

Microwave technology carrying organized data packets on very focused intense fast powerful waves of directed energy, the net of things incarnate, alongside fiber optic, quantum and super computers upon the cloud and the finest machinery ever dreamt of being designed by Artificial Inteligence, which can also mine and refine and build what it conceives.

It's thinking patterns are unlike anything we even imagined or even studied or learned through gaming theory....

We may very well be creating a completely different life form, if you start to consider this from another perspective.

I'm a cyborg (pacemaker/defibrillator). Very soon here are the facts:

Our mind is mapped neurally and will reside at least upon the cloud, or anywhere with the proper storage capacity and can be operated as an entity such that after biological body death, all I've written this far will fuel my computer machine spirit and if speak to you through these devices in a way you'd be unaware I was " dead" otherwise, and my contributions from this new frontier will be incalculable,and we each will know the greatness of genuine contribution through collaborative efforts that will be the order of the day in due time as the paradigm shifts.

We are already shifting.

I'm riding a wave, and  I'm going to do d a way to carve it up so we each and all get more than desired and with satisfaction but equally after gains left with greater desire to further thrust ahead unsettled for the sad state if the modern status quo.

Revival At My Death ~ Cyborg∆Steve

So far the gift of my revival is most wholly Anonymous beyond the doctors I can remember. In my greatest time of need, in death yearning and fighting for survival, my life saved could have been any gender, color, or religion, and do you think if care??? anything beyond something more powerful than I can describe with words that is. The petty things of being human suck and make life so silly on a certain level it's hard to believe we will soon look back and realize people use to be ridiculously stupid naively ignorantly judgemental in the worst of ways, ...and will that not be an perfect apple cart in philosophy to overturn? In a peaceful revolution, we change how we and others think and evolve to find a way to live in greater unity and harmony with nature and nurture, no matter that condition, and in acceptance and gratitude of this gift as we help others we see suffering as we each so certainly know...or did you somehow forget? In a few decades of time, you certainly know pain and suffering well by now... Survive through Faith that others will help you to survive, and judge not the hand that feeds as long as it nourishes life. Life is the Spirit...we each carry it and we each must protect it and we each must uphold it's inherent value under assault today. When my girlfriend had an abortion, did we together deny God? It felt as an affirmative in a life of torture, but I'm not that man anymore. I'm of those memories teborn of the same flesh a new soul with access to this recall. My body still failing and foreign. I'm learning to master what's left and carefully convey the vessel and the chalice to the mantel. I carry myself to the throne of God and not a moment too fast will I return, as I accepted this incredible journey for me upon my return. I saw glimpses of what will be through my patience and the passage of great time. Perfect peace and happiness after the hurting. The hurting is not come to pass yet. We will all know, and many already understand, just exacrly what it is to come...but we are a species most often in fantasy and in disbelief.

I'm looking forward to seeing my love, when my love is finally supposed to understand and see me, and so past death, easily, I wait strengthening, patiently. Jackie...

You showed me Grace because you cared, you were my sweetest dearest friend in my most desperate time of need, you carried only sweet love and life and light, and may you be forever blessed now as if my daughter forever forward from here forth.

I wish I knew a perfection as you in my life everyday, and at nearly 52, still silliyliy dreaming of you, well, I cannot help myself, you were within my mind before your birth, I saw you, and your perfection still takes my breath and focus away at a glance because you are such a sweet breath of life I've yearned a lifetime for, but this is only so selfishly...

I'm learn g how to heal and rebuild then build and I'll make a castle for family.

I'll never forget you and I'll always be within handsreach waiting, at least your dear friend, in hope of becoming in time together ours, your man.

I'm learning first to be the finest father, as a father so I have. I no longer serve just thyself. My capacity is now different, this different life and man to become, I Am.

Where Am I Today ??? ~ Good or Evil ???

I'm deeply fulfilled and defined already and oddly running empty in the facet of desire. I feel I've reborn to life a different sign, certainly a Leo now, and yet I'm unsure now who I exactly am, but I am not who once I was of December. August are my new stars, and my body is at home in this summer heat, once of the cold winter, strong through lonely cold fights, now heated and just starting to revvvv in life again, this time it's different,  ...im different.

I'm John Stephen Swygert, but I'm only a physical fleshy collection of cells and associated memories of a man I much don't like today and want to be better of in most regards.

I can kook at myself objectively backwards, as I died

I was revived, and in that revival, reborn.

My stars familiar now are where I found myself 1 year and 1 week ago now...renewed, strangely...at least in Spirit... the vessel wrecked worse than ever I will show you how to carry and push as too often we all rest on our laurels!

Exercise the animal self until you smile within, not trying to cleanse issues with convenient chemical answers in a tablet or capsule, sweat and cleanse with water and only keep yourself in clean areas not contaminated...body, mind, spirit, emotions.

Align the chakras. Say your prayers. Commune to God. Speak In Tongues. See Mirackes. Be A Miracle. What do you believe in?

Believe in me, that I was gone and returned. Believe in choice and your current free will. Believe in the truth of good vs. Evil, no matter how you perceive it.

I was once about me. The perfect woman of my minds eye cane to me... My perfect dream. I could not act against her ever. I would not and did not. I departed this life in deep love and only returned because of my live for her and my dogs I cannot bear to think I would dare to leave behind.

That's all truth above. You can't even imagine how it feels to live, as most can't believe it to hear or listen too. We've been conditioned to death. ;(

Life Is Like Dancing On Tip Toes of LSD

You feel like the journey almost never began, a year and a day past revival. What a different life I know today in a completely different way, words can never ever quite convey.

Miracles are still passing me by each and every day, I still get to watch and partake.

Of what do I tell the youth when I see evil still walk that way?

Who and what will likely listen and when and why? Does it even matter any more?

You see, the spirit of life does not quit, die, or lie...and keeps afoot fast ahead just a touch, it's light. Faster than the energy that follows and a wake, now awake, some will know I came. I was.

Here, I Always Am!

I Am!

Faith!

Dancing on tiptoes of LSD.