Since the time change, I just cannot find a schedule again.
Since 4 months and 4 days ago, at first I had found a pretty regular "groove". I sleep a ton !!! But I'm staying active enough and still tackling a few things but I take a lump everytime and need a ton of rest.
I usually awaken refreshed and stronger for the next "fight", which is really just about anything still.
The physical aspects of me are something to accept and the non stop mental voice echoing and replaying what happened isn't much help either... but you ignore and listen to it calm after time passes... It's all simply a reverberation of a "really bad note".
I'm an expert by now at really bad notes. I have played them and I have been them in every cringe worthy way... experiencing and watching life from within this place.
Hopefully, regular restorative sleep comes soon, but not too soon for that ultimate rest.
In the meantime, I'm still running a relay race daily. I run 3-4 legs a day. The rest of the time, I rest...a lot !
Healing is a process whereby I make daily progress towards all goals and gain stamina or start to jetison away that which I can no longer maintain or carry.
This vessel is strengthening again, and with that, other problems disappear completely or greatly wane.
I'm so very deeply greatly thankful for this repreive from death,
Circadian Rhythm... an interesting theory !
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